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I was going home one day and i noticed hearing some noises as i came out my car today.
i heard my next door neighbors announce that i was home for their family to know.
i am a legal mmj caregiver. i have a licenese and permit. i have all my paperwork. but sometimes when people know what u are doing. it starts to set an unease onto u.
i live in a not so good neighborhood. its ghetto where i'm at. lots of drugs and druggies and crackheads.
next door i think is a nice family. and they have a few kids. i think ive seen a couple of boys and a couple of girls to a few.
they were nice to me in the beginning so i guess that's cool. but lately as i've been watering. i seem to have noticed an audience. my house is actually kind of old. and it has single pane windows. i am a 29 yr old who is in this industry but have fallen on some hard times because of things not going my way.
i at this point cannot invest in windows atm. but i will do so when i am rdy in the future. i am thinking of getting window inserts to block out some noise. i am also thinking of putting up foam pads to absorb some sound as well with some double stick tape.
i also have another set of neighbors to the otherside. they dont seem to bother me accept when their kids are at home. they are a really big family. i've noticed up to about 5 to 6 cars. they have 2-3 boys who are teenagers.
i know sometimes my pumps can get a little loud. and that's why i try to water at peak times when there is a lot of noise or when there is cars still going around and its not as quiet. sometimes it cannot be helped that a couple of pumps have been heard. i really hate how loud my shit can get.
well i've also noticed when i go to water. i will be able to hear my neighbors listening in on me. they will listen and comment. and will "fuck" with me. they have established ways to get me to react. and it's all may sound like im crazy. in fact my partners from before still dont believe me to this day. and it hurts.
i am a person where people are able to confide in me. about anything. and i'm open. and i'm a good person who will listen to you. but when it comes to my own problems. i cant really seem to talk to myt friends because they just dont deal with it. and dismiss it because they think its nothing. honestly i'm terrified. im petrified. sometimes i do not want to do anything because i dont want them to hear me work. and or i dont want them to do this anymore. its a paralyzing feeling and it feels so unethical and intrusive.
i am aware i may be the cause of my own problem. but i try really hard to keep things lowkey. i cant afford to move rite away. so that's something that i cant really do.
maybe i just needed to vent. maybe i just need some words of encouragement to get me thru this endeavor. i honestly dont know. i just felt like writing this would help me out in some way.
thx for ur time.
i heard my next door neighbors announce that i was home for their family to know.
i am a legal mmj caregiver. i have a licenese and permit. i have all my paperwork. but sometimes when people know what u are doing. it starts to set an unease onto u.
i live in a not so good neighborhood. its ghetto where i'm at. lots of drugs and druggies and crackheads.
next door i think is a nice family. and they have a few kids. i think ive seen a couple of boys and a couple of girls to a few.
they were nice to me in the beginning so i guess that's cool. but lately as i've been watering. i seem to have noticed an audience. my house is actually kind of old. and it has single pane windows. i am a 29 yr old who is in this industry but have fallen on some hard times because of things not going my way.
i at this point cannot invest in windows atm. but i will do so when i am rdy in the future. i am thinking of getting window inserts to block out some noise. i am also thinking of putting up foam pads to absorb some sound as well with some double stick tape.
i also have another set of neighbors to the otherside. they dont seem to bother me accept when their kids are at home. they are a really big family. i've noticed up to about 5 to 6 cars. they have 2-3 boys who are teenagers.
i know sometimes my pumps can get a little loud. and that's why i try to water at peak times when there is a lot of noise or when there is cars still going around and its not as quiet. sometimes it cannot be helped that a couple of pumps have been heard. i really hate how loud my shit can get.
well i've also noticed when i go to water. i will be able to hear my neighbors listening in on me. they will listen and comment. and will "fuck" with me. they have established ways to get me to react. and it's all may sound like im crazy. in fact my partners from before still dont believe me to this day. and it hurts.
i am a person where people are able to confide in me. about anything. and i'm open. and i'm a good person who will listen to you. but when it comes to my own problems. i cant really seem to talk to myt friends because they just dont deal with it. and dismiss it because they think its nothing. honestly i'm terrified. im petrified. sometimes i do not want to do anything because i dont want them to hear me work. and or i dont want them to do this anymore. its a paralyzing feeling and it feels so unethical and intrusive.
i am aware i may be the cause of my own problem. but i try really hard to keep things lowkey. i cant afford to move rite away. so that's something that i cant really do.
maybe i just needed to vent. maybe i just need some words of encouragement to get me thru this endeavor. i honestly dont know. i just felt like writing this would help me out in some way.
thx for ur time.
