Hey man, sorry to hear about another setback. Later still ain't never, and while i hear you on the possible knee diagnosis, i wouldn't count your body out yet.Hey guys. Dunno if y'all like the daily Baphirmations but I'll keep em coming cause it's my house:
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This hit home for me today. Dunno how many of you have followed the drama with my lifting and surgeries etc but the TLDR; is - I'm a better-than-average strength athlete in competitive powerlifting. My last couple meets went badly and were followed by a series of freak accidents and surgeries that have precluded me from being able to squat and deadlift heavy and redeem myself.
Finally on the other side of this last injury where they had to screw my left foot back together and re-anchor a snapped tendon. If you'll recall that happened after 20 weeks of physical therapy rehabbing my most recent right knee surgery and the day before I was going to have my first gym squat in a year.
So now I'm finally cleared to lift on the foot, but the right knee I rehabbed was trashed when I was non-weight bearing. I spent 8 weeks after surgery walking, pivoting, standing and sitting on only my bad knee.
Two weeks in on the second set of extremely light squats (less than 300 pounds, my max was in the mid 6's) and I feel a bunch of cartilage-ey crunching and my knee shoot acute pain out like fireworks. I limped through the rest of the workout but I'm fairly certain it was more cartilage in the knee socket de-laminating and that I gave myself another bone bruise where the knee is bone-on-bone.
I rested for a week, iced etc. Started feeling better so I did another light light squat workout. Felt good, I was excited. Watched the video: I'm basically squatting with only my left leg and not loading the right knee at all.
So now I'm trying to to get too final on myself but it's hard not to imagine things like never getting to compete again. Never getting to realize my potential or redeem my shit last performance. Etc.
In the end that's only a knife in the back of my own pride, no one else gives a shit. And I'll never stop striving to be remarkably different or great at something in the physical domain.
Probably the goals would just change from squatting like Brandon Allen:
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To being jacked like Luke Carrol:
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Also I have COVID and some lingering depression from the 8 weeks off my feet. Part of my process is dumping on you fine folks so if you're reading this thanks for listening.
If you don't like what I have to say, we can fight. I'll drop a pin MF, say I wont.
You're right, and my coach has been telling me the same thing. He can see a path forward for me where sometimes I can't.Hey man, sorry to hear about another setback. Later still ain't never, and while i hear you on the possible knee diagnosis, i wouldn't count your body out yet.
Having covid sounds like a great excuse to rest up.
He would have a good and different perspective. I guess that's his job, huh? Having a good, different perspective and sharing it. Lol.You're right, and my coach has been telling me the same thing. He can see a path forward for me where sometimes I can't.
Absolutely, that's what he's there for :)He would have a good and different perspective. I guess that's his job, huh? Having a good, different perspective and sharing it. Lol.
How you feeling? Any more symptoms?
Where you at? Put em upIf you don't like what I have to say, we can fight. I'll drop a pin MF, say I wont.
So far mostly seems just me but my daughters are both very young and I doubt they would exhibit symptoms. wife reports she feels fine though.Is the whole family sick? Just you?
Preciate the words brotha. I have my little moments to get upset but I generally get past it and get back to business extremely quicklyWhere you at? Put em up
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Real talk though, I feel a lot of what you said. When I was in high school, I blew both knees out due to years of being a forward on various high-performing soccer teams, and was left with a heartbreaking decision after the second surgery. Either quit playing, or face the potential of going through cycles of surgeries forever. I chose the former and regret it every day.
It's all good to vent, just don't buy into your own bullshit when you're venting. Even that motherfucker in the meme has emotions, and as men we need to get better as a whole about expressing and processing them in healthy ways. Good luck with the vid, that shit's a wildcard for sure.
Hoping to find one I want to work with from either the Holy Grail Kush beans I'm going to pop or the 's. Honestly my cloning hasn't gone super duper great so far - I have one that worked out from about 10 haha. My technique left a lot to be desired though so I anticipate a much higher rate of success next go-around.This is why I enjoy working a particular clone... Dialing it in to perfection... Every cycle is like a lap around the course.
Hi guys, how are you? I'm still sick but there's like zero chance of me dying. Heaven wont let me in and Satan thinks I'm a sicko and has been avoiding me.
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Took some more pics of the plants with the lights on, they're generally looking good these days
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