Seshat; Goddess of Wisdom, Knowledge, and writing.
Well it's good you can admit up to that, I do admire this....Yes, I am spoiled to some degree. We all are to one extent or another. Americans have not had to endure public beatings in over a hundred years. Americans throw away more food than some countries eat. The American way of life is to be spoiled, its just part of the culture. I'm not picking on any one person, just that without realizing it, most Americans have no clue what hardship really is.
Now your seeing things the way they truly are. Were all flawed to some degree or another, and constantly need to keep ourselves in check. Personally I've languished sleeping under bridges, and in bushes for years on end, because I've had nobody, or no one I could fall back on. So I fully understand what hardship looks like. I've had 5 friends die the first half of this year, and I struggle daily with my wife who's confused and sometimes can't even walk, or stand up without falling over. I've also lived making $80k per year.
I refuse to leave her, because it's not in me to do so, so I muddle though somehow everyday. I seen thousands of dead bodies, and human suffering on levels that many never witness. Those are the facts of my life. But I won't cut and run from it. It's who I am, I can see that now, it's a choice we make in this world.
You either stand as one with the suffering of this world, or you stand against them. Everything in this life is a battle of spirit, and will.
Never lose your objectivity, it's a shield for discerning truth...