This is going to be a long one so grab a cup of coffee and set aside a few minutes for some quiet time. This is meant just for you so long is good. People skim right past these long ones unless they are really invested in the tread.
As much as I want to help you level up in yield, I think there may be a better option. Quite frankly you are doing just fine and growing good weed. Maybe not as much as you would like, but you can make some small tweaks here and there and keep improving every harvest.
Taking a step back and looking at the whole situation Iām going to make a divergent suggestion. Using cannabis for severe depression/anxiety/ptsd/sleep disorder is a bit like using aspirin for a broken leg. It will take the edge off but really is not well suited to treat root causes.
If I am reading you right and these issues came up after a traumatic experience, what you want to look at is psilocybin.
Can Psilocybin Help Treat PTSD?
While therapy, antidepressants, and antipsychotics help many patients, these methods often fall short. Studies have suggested that antidepressants do not work well for people who have had multiple traumas over the course of years or chronic PTSD. A new study found that the antipsychotic risperidone worked no better than a placebo in alleviating typical PTSD symptoms in patients who had the disorder long-term or who continued to experience symptoms after being treated with antidepressants.
Because these drugs can also cause intolerable side effects, many patients are left to experience PTSD with no sign of relief. Many of these patients turn to substance abuse, develop anger management issues, or commit suicide. A study analyzing data from the National Comorbidity Survey showed that out of six anxiety diagnoses, PTSD was significantly associated with suicide attempts.
There is some evidence in animal studies to show that psilocybin, the psychedelic compound found in āmagic mushrooms,ā may act by stimulating nerve cell regrowth in parts of the brain responsible for emotion and memory. A
2013 study from the University of South Florida. Opens in a new tab found that psilocybin stimulates neurogenesisāthe growth and repair of brain cells in the hippocampus, which is the brainās center for emotion and memory. In the study, mice that were given psilocybin overcame fear conditioning far better than mice that were given a placebo. The study supported the hypothesis that psilocybin can help break the traumatic cycle that occurs in patients with PTSD.
Stephen Ross, MD. Opens in a new tab, a psychiatrist at NYU Langone, conducted a
study on terminally ill cancer patients. Opens in a new tab , and found that one-time treatment with psilocybin very quickly brought relief from distress that had lasted more than 6 months in 80 percent of study subjects.
In Dr. Rossās study, half of the participants were randomly assigned to receive psilocybin. The rest received a control drug of niacin, which is known to produce a ārushā similar to that associated with a hallucinogenic drug experience. Halfway through the seven-week study period, all of the participants switched treatments. Neither the researchers nor the patients knew which patients had first received psilocybin or which received the control. All of the patients, mostly women, had advanced gastrointestinal, blood, or breast cancers and had been diagnosed as having serious psychological distress related to their disease.
Patients noted that after being treated with psilocybin, they felt their quality of life improve. They noted that they wanted to engage more with external activities, had more energy, experienced improved relationships with their family members, and performed better at work. The researchers concluded that if psilocybin could reduce psychological distress in terminally ill cancer patients, it could apply to less extreme medical conditions related to psychological distress as well.
There are new studies on this coming out all the time. Science was stifled for decades because old white men were horrified by these drugs and passed draconian laws. Bunch of bullshit.
Growing mushrooms is easy. You wonāt need a lot and itās not like you will be using them over and over. Itās possible it is a one and done kinda thing and maybe every 6 months you go again but that all remains to be seen.
It is getting close to 5 years ago that I shut off alcoholism like a light switch with a single dose and a free weekend. I shit you not. Not a drink or desire since. This was my first trip ever.
My favorite analogy is the ski slope. You head to the top and make your path in the fresh snow. Next time you end up going in the same tracks because it made sense to take that route last time. After 20 trips down the mountain you have deep grooves worn in the snow and your only choice if you wanna keep skiing is to stick inside the grooves. Mushrooms are like dumping 2 feet of snow on the mountain. You get to PICK your path now and erase the stuff behind you. Liberating.
So while this is a thread on weed and we will surely get back to that, Iām going to recommend a book for you. Itās on audible if you prefer.
How to Change Your Mind: What the New Science of Psychedelics Teaches Us About Consciousness, Dying, Addiction, Depression, and Transcendence
https://a.co/d/fjW4YVD
This is a process that takes time. You have to get mentally prepared. It will take probably 3 months to go from idea to mushrooms in the jar, and I would encourage you to use that time to learn and prepare. It can be done on your own or therapy can help.
Once that ābroken legā is healed, you might still have some arthritis. Weed works good for that.