i give up . no where left for me to go

[OldMedUser]

well i have to officially give up .. had a thread going in the diaries but im to depressed to find it

i tried hard , but things just don't seem to want to work out for me . i am disabled and live on what's left of a previous life . i had to scrimp and scrape to save up for soil and electric so i used some old bag seeds .
got started , sexed the plants and thought i had all females .. a second and third opinion agreed with me . then my cheap china light let out the magic smoke . found a home for the plants with another friend who also agreed we had three fems .
then i got lucky and found another cheap light at the flea market , brought the plants home and they took off .

then last week pollen sacks started showing on two plants ...... i cursed and cursed and chopped them down . the third still looked fem to me and so i soldered on , i can make 1 plant work .
within a couple days the third was looking awful sus , but i kept going till 100% sure .


today is the day of not being able to fool myself any longer ... plant is in the trash and my crappy light and tent have been evicted to a life of neglect out in my shed .

i have nothing to start over with and no funds to finance another attempt . it was fun for awhile .......

thanks to everyone for all the help till now

Bad enough when life beats ya down without kicking ya while your down.

If you're in Canada I might be able to help you out with some gear, seeds and meds. If elsewhere I could at least gift you some seeds.

I've been growing for years and and since it became legal the thrill is gone. I got a big chest freezer with pot taking up space and more all over the house that all needs to be made into oil once I have cleaned up some space to do it. I'm not planning on any big grows and was planning on selling some stuff off I'll never use. HID lights

Maybe shoot me a PM.