i need a place to put case histories... mod?

[SPARECHANGE]

i have to try to collect them for this project

please categorize as u wish

they're all f"n scattered

like my mind

pieces to a puzzle

i cannot fail

i will try to link them hereall here

if it's not ok

please know

no hard feelings

just close the thread

if it's no bueno

thank u for ur support the farm


hey

would u guys consider a thread for civilians to share their pains

their stories

so we have a place to speak to them

n help decriminalize us

it's not so easy to b of service to those we would help

when we have to step into the light to listen to them

every step

is risking our freedom for our beliefs

our faith

so to speak

i would do this

i do this

for strangers

because they're my neighbors and i love them

would we not do anything

for someone we love

i just haven't met all my neighbors yet

it's a big house

the universe is

u know


if one stranger starves to death

and i have ten bux under my mattress

I'm saying a life isn't worth

a little sparechange

to me

thank you

 

[SPARECHANGE]

the upstairs neighbors aren't going to let me sleep til i try

please don't encourage them

please don't comment or like

i need to focus

so

please do not ask me to dance with you

 

[SPARECHANGE]

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my case

before

337+ lbs

decade on back

botched ummm
ummm
prosthetic disc surgery

disc deterioration something

chronic migraines

pulmonary superventricular tachycardia

ummm
copd
chronic bronchitis
ummm
asthma
constipation

155/whatever
high bp
heart rate around 244bpm when they have to kill me with paddles or adenozine/haha d-card
feels like drowning

sux in equal measure with equal verve
every time

plantar fasciitis

lightning bolt through leg
random stings anywhere

numbness

couldn't lift a half liter at times

insomnia
nodding off weekends with my son
dependency

eyesight deterioration
hearing loss
both from growing
hearing from previous career
retired at 35 disabled
mental illness
falling
injuring

didn't have to happen
if this had been on a shelf
2400 monthly prescriptions alone

pain chronic radiating

bum knees
skin problems from the dope dehydration
couldn't get it up for the longest time
having to urinate 1 min after i just did
shitting the bed at 45 now that opioids broke my krapper
back neck shoulders head knees u name it
it hurt to one degree or another after atrophication

gurd
burning eyes

hemorrhoids

showering once a week

hurt so bad to do

the kind of stank one shower doesn't help
hygiene went n the shitter

depression

spoke to no one for yrs

gambling problems
also
a symptom
the endorphins made oweez less... cumbersome

drinking with opioids kicks em up a notch when it ain't enough
liver damage

gallbladder issues

n prolly some shyt i forget

all these medications they pushed

had their own quaint little side effects
they sold me drugs for those

those had side effects, often, as well

prostate symptoms
schizophrenia

they don't warn u like the compassionate people at Marlboro n corona do

they don't tax opioids a single penny

California taxes cannabis at 80%

your governments r tellin u on fox news
it's horrific poopoo
but their actions say
cannabis which doesn't do all of the above
is profitable
we'd like to keep it illegal
but we'd like u to psy for the pavement that paves our way to prison
subsidize our stay, like notel 6
not an accor "h"otel
but we don't want anything from our real dope dealers cause we don't own blind stock in em
i just want to b clear i got the BRAINWASHING messages correctly
so when fox calls i won't forget what i meant to say
-sc
u guys really do suck

and that picture was taken round may of 2019
i probably gained a half pound a week til i tapered myself off opioid poison from a 600+mg morphine equivalent
I've taken em all, to answer ur next question
i used my toes n did the conversion for u

I've had people who take oaths try to drop me from that 600 to ms-contin, the following day

I've had doctors give me 4 kinds of varying opioids at a single time

these people are telling our loved ones
there is only opioids, or death

when they start digging our graves

burying us with their opioid poison pillmillpillboothillz

i think it is a lie

i think it's wrong

i think it is bullshit

i think it is unconscionable

i believe integrity matters

and the people involved in exploiting our pain

can go fuck themselves

i have observed something cool

i believe in it

pain is an option

we have options for our neighbors

those we love

i believe in this with my entire being to my very core

i didn't know what it was when i began

i could use some help pushing

i bet my family's security on this

i bet my freedom on it

every time i step into the light

i think you all are worth it

that fact that ur still breathing

through so

after so much pain

madam

sir

i am speaking directly to u

you Inspire me

i would b of service if i could

it is my privilege and honor to make your acquaintance

 

[SPARECHANGE]

I'm off opioids over one year now

i don't have to travel out of state anymore
to c my opioid kingpinpaindoc or those rx pimps
i only take omeprazole
from time to time
visit my go when my issues allow
he's with us
he's on board
he's trying to help
the folks at the dea
intimidation from collaboration
collectively we r doctors chemists lawyers contractors plumbers
together if we collaborate
we can do this

the things i am seeing
seemingly work across the board
multiple cultivar cocktails
obviously it's common sense
u wanna get high ten strainz in a bowl will do ya

but

ever notice the 22hrs that follow
when ur pretty lil buzzez end

that's called exponential entourage bitches

pain relief

cbd that curbs the munchies

lowering the ceiling n duration for those who do not appreciate the counter productivity a sofalatch can offer

choose whether to eat sleep r tweak for daze at a time

liked LSD did ya

we can make ya more psychotic than 8 hits
many daze as ya like

we can take your pain

many daze as ya like

like ecstasy

we can do better

swimming n my gurls hair
sooo sensitive to touch
after the 34th hr when i thought I'd broken my gurl
she's scaring the family weinerdog with impure thoughts
when weinerdog inappropriately licked the ol gurlz wrist
she's ok, now
but the girl is still a bit traumatized

topicals made with multiple strain best of plant n clean last two days does not make ya test positive like transdermal will

whatcha need whatcha wsnt

we'll tell ya how

n if i do my due

perhaps u can get it cheaper in the future

see
there
just have a look on the shelf

o

forgot

that's right

the industry doesn't know

or they'd b slingin it like crackrock

that's how we know we r the cutting edge of cannabis research

because it ain't on any fuckin shelf

and we told em how

a year ago

dirty multi strain unlocks trugger finger reliably

no other product on the planet does this to my knowledge

but my everything my motivation

my lovely g really seems to like it

this is what's possible people

don't let anyone tell ya different

if they're gonna use this to treat that n that to treat this

if it's all good for us

cost diff negligible

takes less product

regardless of intake

y the fuck would we not put it all in every phoenix teardrop

so let them do their cbd mouse leukemia trials n isreal

clotting agent
antibacterial
antiinfammatory

y r they letting snake oil b sold

watered down garbage so when mr already antipot tries a bruisedbrew

sure

make ur penny today

his ten friends he told cbd doesn't work will continue to vote against legislation currently on the table

n if u hurt them

if u burn them

they won't trust us anymore

people

they r watering down gold

selling snake oil for profit

n once gold isn't shiny anymore

it's worthless

i lost 90lbs in 6mo with the cbd collaborative effects with thca

my topicals people were inadvertently blind tested

it requires both thca and cbd for the 2day effect

they knew the difference

i never said a word until after

i don't have to

my people trust me

and yes

delusion is an unfortunate perk of my crazy

but

my oweez don't hurt anymore

is hard to argue with

this

is what i looked like in February

there's my sparechange $6 tarp cape

blowin n the wind

volunteering in my community for a vfw veterans' poker run

we r in 5 veteran clubs

helping our forgotten heroes with their pain

my name is sparechange

i share their pain

they share their stories

help us make them immortal

they stood in front of bullets as children so i could get high

now

IT'S MY TURN

i think they've paid enough

don't take a penny

and the doses r typically.6 of a milligram

24hrs... vs the 1000mg rso daily diet if rso were 100%

i am more than happy to share anything I've learned

most of my observations r by oops

never give up

 

[SPARECHANGE]

if ur willing to help with the research

please see moshmen

lets c if he could use a lil push

i mean

support

 

[SPARECHANGE]

next case

gonna take me a bit to dig

 

[SPARECHANGE]

 

[oldskol4evr]

bro im being serious now,you need to talk to a doctor ,man i had a racing mind too when i got back from iraq,they put me on all kind pyshc dope,that shit didnt help at all,but what did was just talking face to face with him,no shit you can type shit all day and talk to folks,you can talk on a phone all day to folks ,none that shit helps.
when your face to face ,some how you release what is eating you inside out,it helps,by no means is it a cure ,but i tell you what,when i first came home ,i could really rip a mans face from his head off,now it takes quite a bit to steal my cool,sure i have my days,but all in all just my talks and relife off my chest of face to face terror explained helped.
anyway hope i didnt hurt your feelings in any way,i just recognise the thing you have mate,if i did i apoligise now

 

[SPARECHANGE]

page 2... here's a good reminder for mosh... he been dumb enough to lemme hang out n pass em the occasional hammer, since i got here. no case stuff on pg 1, but I'm glad it reminded me to watch for the observations from strains i forgot: we seen in oil, already. i need to track n triangulate for myself, which n what do this that n that. I'll never learn it right, if i just read someone else's stuff. i gotta break it for myself. ed's stuff reeks of lies n borrowing from shyt he may not have done, himself. i borrow minds, too cause i don't have time. but i cross reference as much as possible to make sure they didn't tell me someone they heard from someone else n never tried.
omg it just occurred. mosh has four strains. i need him to have more. he has a shiny rosin press n makes cleaner rosin than a beer piss. i dunno y i didn't think of it. g's pothead kids maybe could stop by n drop off a lil giftweed. lil sugar junky bastards got a few gratis trips to cali. i think i can as for a fav. one of em got punked for his wallet. another slept in... mist his train in NOL and because we don't wanna waste two weeks of his days off... another ticket...THAT time.
urgh... people's level of determination to c their mothers seems... like anything else... to make a difference when we don't have to pay for shyt our selves... we don't always feel our bowels closing... and we don't always give a f f shit... unless it costs WE. i think this is unfortunate. maybe we could all do better appreciating: that person took food off their own family's table for us... perhaps we could b more graceful n mean it when we give thanks... know what it feels like, when someone share from their own table so we can eat with our families, as well.

sup skol!!! great to c u.

c man... this is exactly y i try not to leave my lane, anymore. jack up my own threads.
u know i love hangin with u skol. haven't read whatcha said, yet. been a while. hope u n your family r doin well/healthy.
if u c rasin... can u tell em... end oils ar 240, pullin half at 212. i think anyone by his diggs would appreciate the nuances, even if they just wanna b psychotic for weeks on end. used cost alot as a kid when we had to double up our doses the trip weekend to weekend. school was rough. i feel like i may have a very specific skillset not EVERYONE has for the gig: i used to chase psychosis like a lot lizard who just burned me. i may not like that I'm crazy today, but it's my house so i already know my way around the darkness. never did care much for bangin shins on coffee tables so... better me, than someone else. i moved that fukn coffee table n my eyes r for shit anyway so i think we'll b alllllriiiight.

 

[SPARECHANGE]

forgot the reminder

current season

ummm... if anyone ends up actually lookin at this stuff and u aren't already following, this grower- moshman , has a fantastic following, that actually and karmically completes and complements, every question/debate/arguement, from every angle, with a world of information and ummm... well, it's...

www.thcfarmer.com

 

[SPARECHANGE]

some folks invite u to their homes anytime they say
n then they ask u to leave when u r yourself.
mosh n the crew here
they never banned me like 420
don't mine me tearin up the fairway
n still lemme keep my membership
i think that's pretty fucking cool about the farm
mosh n the crew
they never said
it's ok to b yourself n then shamed me for it. i try NOT to go to their homes
but knowing the door is always open
and he mean it
man that means everything to me

 

[SPARECHANGE]

i gotta gather this stuff skol. it ain't goin well so far. I'll catch up with u later. i said i would try so...
u r missed

 

[SPARECHANGE]

well if u view it as valuable research n not psychosis
notes like these from strains i forget is

omg neighbor penny just stop by

t
i absolutely lost my shyt
c

current season

ohh... please, don't let this b permanent. i think i need to stra5t aiming for weakness and not strength. ummm. dhyt. i was gonna say something good and now, i forget. but god bless the buchner fullel, too. oh, i gotta call the vets. hey, what's up! happy tday!

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focus

focus

f
toc
c
u
s

 

[SPARECHANGE]

it'll help me figure out
which ones numb the mouth
which ones make u 34hr orgasm n which terp does it
without someone else tellin me

i meant to say
Rosenthal didn't necessarily lie
it's obsolete intel
and
he didn't try what's possible today that makes it "lies" to me

don't tell me what your limitations are
because it makes a bar drop n the sheep naturally stop there

well
i been hoppin fences on drogs since i was a kid
i think i know
nothing's impossible until u stop trying
just hop over or fuking walk around

how bout trying to fly

I'm on fire today

so you'll have to learn how

to fly

if u wanna chill

 

[SPARECHANGE]

this was important
never gave up
read the saaaaame stuff over n over every time. seen awesome growers n triage say: N toxic...
aquaman has a schematic i should've looked at
to comprehend
but i have to break it for myself to learn it
they look N toxic... and it wasn't skippin veg for turnover vs ummm big dix... it was that i was being cheep as usual and not givin em enough cmag. a calcium deficiency looks like N toxicity's bitch twin sister, to me. no matter; post havest they all gave great head...dy buzzez, even still. bless those talented... ladeez . so to speak.

current season

yes, i would go direct and ask but these r the self inflicted wounds of an experimental, Jekyll n hyde, masochist, grower. i asked for this, with my no veg, situation. ain't my first rodeo. it's not easy, tweaking trio, but even i need more experience, with no veg and individual, strains...

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wtf... case

focus!
focus!

 

[SPARECHANGE]

but the cmag thang was right there n front of me
mist it every time

 

[SPARECHANGE]

ok
found notes for how ghost train haze grows... whew... aquaman's comments on the previous link got me all freaked out

my tangent fodder was loaded n it occurred
if gth grows like a novice strsin
i only have like 11 other strains goin right now
to concern myself with n this AIN'T a grow journal

but i had to whew hoof this over

cause mosh needs to copyright n bumbper stick this like forest gump

pfft "young buck"... i don't even say that
apparently it escaped my mouth n nov.
this shyt pisses me off

current season

Is t that the point ? To push the ladies to the ragged edge! Then pull them back!

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[SPARECHANGE]

ahhh yes
ptsd steve
my frustration targeting ptsd steve
is what lead me to my oops observation

he kept saying he thought maybe the wind changed when I'd go kookoo testing the shyt

so i got tired of waiting for a p.m. version to cure n some other shyt i forget
threw everything i had at em
I'm on an acid trip in the new millennium when the dead r finished touring for some strange reason and I'm not a seafood fan
and we're just trying to finish dinner without me swimming in the drapes one
more
tictoc time

so while he has yet to b the man he presented himself as when i sponsored him with 2k in gear

he lied to his angry yummy salad makin wifey n said- he'd never do pot again
but the gear is still gone
shyt happens

he's a veteran

i think he's paid enough

i hope some day he becomes the man he presented himself to b

i miss my old friend

this is his legacy

he Guinea pigged for me

ty
for your service
ptsd steve and ptsd Steve's lovely wife

current season

maybe half my problem is I'm fatfingering all the navigation stuff? i dunno, but this will have to wait. I'm just not there, upstairs, yet, but the chores n pics will begin. u don't want to hear me talkin. i found more white widow caps. ummm my neighbor... o god, my ptsd steve, is comin, today...

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[SPARECHANGE]

the ro shop guy was nice to a stranger

had some extra velcro virgin strips layin around

this is the effect people have on each other

u never know what a masked man will do
so try n b cool to strangers
they may b a lil different

i promise u
u will get back more than u give

the strips r still there
keeping the desert out of his customers water to this day

funny
he asked what strains i grew when i told em he ate $20 of mine

he told me
only pot growers spend 20 a week at his joint

he used to grow
he's trying to sell a 40k toy trailer
set up for growing
strangely enough
if u know anyone
i might know a guy

current season

oh and the log!! haha!!! i did flush 3&4, last wk! I'm not late! i remembered that i thought i had... i forgot/wasn't for sho... i did f'n flush em! no wonder the r.o. store guy, wanted to get drunk! (i weather sealed his doors- swept some glass, when he was closed- so i know him.).

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[SPARECHANGE]

this is important

u need to speak to your seed vendors

if ur not worried about strength n make ur own f1's
blue dream is a top shelfer

someone brought me clinic bagged blue dream ditch weed the other day
it is the 8th ish time i had it
it has been ditch every time
mids when spider mites fucked my entire season

it occurred

eight growers aren't likely to have all fucked up the line
and if it was mids
u wouldn't know what i was talkin bout today

know what i think

winning a breeders cup
is the kiss of death to genetic
i think the crazy 8s got f100,000,000 seeds from breeders who tried to keep up with a trend
i have other evidence i applied but would hate to tangent

current season

oh and the log!! haha!!! i did flush 3&4, last wk! I'm not late! i remembered that i thought i had... i forgot/wasn't for sho... i did f'n flush em! no wonder the r.o. store guy, wanted to get drunk! (i weather sealed his doors- swept some glass, when he was closed- so i know him.).

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