In the "Not harshin' on ya....but" Dept.....
IMO, you screwed yourself by allowing the paranoia of the situation to take over to the point where you went to the police and ask them if they were investigating you. Between that and you talking about leaving your family, I gotta say you seriously lost me.
I CAN relate though. What folks need to remember is that even though some of us NOW live in legal states that wasn't always the case. I grew for 15 years here in CO >before< the med law was passed. MUCH of that time I walked around in a state of grower paranoia that...I gotta say.... resembles your current mindset.
Back to fact......What ARE the laws for cultivation where you live? Gotta be a way.... hike to the wilderness... a friend's house.... other options ?????
where there's a will..there's a way.
Sorry Sky I can ramble in this state of mind for sure ..... let me see if i can give you a kiss summery
1) rented a house for 4 yrs
2) bought my own feb 28th but paid landlord of old home for march (in case there was a issue at settlement - didn't wanna be homeless)
3) start up a bunch of new seedling at new house plus momma's
4) landlord send letter to new home April 20 stating that the narc showed up looking for me on april 10th about a susp of a grow operation (ten days before i received the letter) along with a bunch of other bullshit about why i'm not getting deposit back
5) ok so were 10 days after the police/narc's supposedly showed up . I think about the situation i'm in .... and after considering all the possibilities i decide to eliminate everything ... better safe than sorry
I went to the police dept to show face and state if your looking for me here i am .... and in case i took him (landlord to court) i could say hey I have nothing to hide and do not cultivate mmj and
I hear you on the growing when not aloud part bro as me myself would of said fuck it .... lets roll the dice ... its a plant and i don't fucking care but wife and children 17 & 22 come to mind and i decide like i said eliminate .....
Jersey laws ...... 2010 medical mj passed .... gov corzine signs as he leaves office ..... gov christie steps in and want to be vice pres delays it as long as possible , well the state was approved for 6 disp with only 3 strains with no higher than a 10% thc level and the strictest laws of all states , no self cultivation of any kind
Well 3 almost 4 yrs later 1 disp is open in montclair new jersey - which is outskirts of new york and has a 6 month waiting list to just get a appointment to go to the disp for the privilege of buying a quarter oz of 10% thc mmj for 130$ yes your reading that correctly 130 for a quarter oz
Yes there are some woods and currently there are 5 seedling up and waiting on another 8 .......lol... couldn't help it.....
So looks like i'll get a little outside going - but that is not helping as i want to pheno hunt / breed / make my own crosses / keep mom's and basically grow harmless plants without fear of losing every dime i have.....
ps , I also am not and have never been the most law abiding citizen ....... lets hope i get to actually work at what i'm so passionate about one day without fear.... as i can only imagine what i could do if i didn't have to hide