in your spray bottle fill it up,put a tbsp of
neem oil and just a little dash of dishwashing soap,shake the crap out of it and just mist them,do it before lights on and give a little time to dry before the lights on,thats it,,and sweety if you dont remind yourself that got you there and were you are now,you will never heal,,you went threw a bad accident first the drugs was the distraction,both are reminders not to do it again,ignoring the fact is as you say a pipe dream,you will always be a addict,,when you face that fact you will heal period,the walking drop it to couple times a day and baby steps at that,,what do you think pysical therapy is,,its not healing,its mind washing you to except it and in your mind you are convinced you are better,lay it down a month and you will see the therapy aint nothing but mind wash,,same goes for addiction,,i loved them bastards but again seen what it did to my body and the thought of someone making me depend on them just made me not want them more,,i told you how i kicked it,,i never had the surgeries they wanted me to have,so 2 hrs at the least every morning,i have to make myself get out this chair,hurting like hell i slowly and takes time adjust to the pain and get on with my day,,thats why i cant handle not being outside no matter weather condtions,if i sit for a hour,its just like waking up again painful if you dig,,you alright,just force yourself to hurt yourself in a good way,and every time you feel pain ,you smile and say i beat that shit