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No cutting anything except pure concentrate....
Absolutely, I was only identifying because when I was a kid I did it too and struggled with feeling different. My apologies for not being clear. I stopped coming here because I embarrassed myself and made others uncomfortable. I don't communicate as well as I think. It was uplifting to see other people share in this thread. I do struggle and the outside world frightens me. I didn't quite understand how these forums even work. Then there is the most people here just want to talk cannabis. I do too, I'm at a point in life where I don't have many more opportunities to grab a hold of myself and keep my life in a positive arc. I've had to accept that I alone am not strong enough. So I go to therapy and talk to folks like you. People often take me wrong and the more I try to fix it the worse it gets.No cutting anything except pure concentrate....
You are always welcome to reach out to me.Absolutely, I was only identifying because when I was a kid I did it too and struggled with feeling different. My apologies for not being clear. I stopped coming here because I embarrassed myself and made others uncomfortable. I don't communicate as well as I think. It was uplifting to see other people share in this thread. I do struggle and the outside world frightens me. I didn't quite understand how these forums even work. Then there is the most people here just want to talk cannabis. I do too, I'm at a point in life where I don't have many more opportunities to grab a hold of myself and keep my life in a positive arc. I've had to accept that I alone am not strong enough. So I go to therapy and talk to folks like you. People often take me wrong and the more I try to fix it the worse it gets.
TyYou are always welcome to reach out to me.
I hope it works out ok. I am alone a great deal as well. I do understand. I have trust issues.I sit alone a lot. I don't have many people to talk to anymore. As much as I hate to say it..I do need people. I isolate myself because life hurts. I've had to accept that my nerves make others uncomfortable. Past few days been hard. My estranged wife is very sick and I'm going to pick her up and take her to the health department thus afternoon. I also spent last night looking for her nephew who basically kidnapped his 7 year old and skipped state from dhhr. So if I seem a little needy sometime, I am. Days like this I'm glad I been through the shit I survived.
I hope it works out ok. I am alone a great deal as well. I do understand. I have trust issues.
Except when your body requires assistance lol.Trust issues are just the glass-half-empty way of referring to one of Stone Cold Steve Austin's wiser mantras.
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People are the worst. Being alone is awesome. HERMIT SQUAD FOR LIFE
Stop trying to 'fix' it and learn to adapt and live with it instead. You're giving yourself stress for nothing.Absolutely, I was only identifying because when I was a kid I did it too and struggled with feeling different. My apologies for not being clear. I stopped coming here because I embarrassed myself and made others uncomfortable. I don't communicate as well as I think. It was uplifting to see other people share in this thread. I do struggle and the outside world frightens me. I didn't quite understand how these forums even work. Then there is the most people here just want to talk cannabis. I do too, I'm at a point in life where I don't have many more opportunities to grab a hold of myself and keep my life in a positive arc. I've had to accept that I alone am not strong enough. So I go to therapy and talk to folks like you. People often take me wrong and the more I try to fix it the worse it gets.
@Ems49 Cool exercise, thanks for sharing!I did an exercise once in treatment. Everyone was blindfolded and told to find their way downstairs to group room. Only words you could say was I need help. I stumbled around and struggled for 20 minutes we all did
Come to find out if you asked for help you "won" it drove home to me how stubborn I can be lol. The three hardest word are...I NEED HELP. I have learned i have a lot to learn![]()
I think we should always be striving to communicate clearly and effectively. But when it isn’t perfect, no self-flagellation.Stop trying to 'fix' it and learn to adapt and live with it instead. You're giving yourself stress for nothing.
This cannot be understated. How do you feel the last 19 months has Influenced people?The greatest affliction humanity faces in the 21st century is isolation. Most anyone that's alive now has grown up in unprecedented periods of technological and social advancement, and a consequence of that is division of communities. Technology was supposed to bring us closer together and improve our lives, and instead so many of us are constantly inundated with so much negativity (either externally imposed or self imposed) that we isolate as a way to not only save face ("I'm fine") or as a way of avoidance. That's why so many abuse substances (not just intoxicants). This avoidance thing which leads to isolation has been a primary topic in my therapy sessions, as I'm notorious for running from things. I'd rather hang my head in shame and disappear than deal with the consequences of miscommunications or poor behavior because I was under the influence of something while also avoiding some other life experience.
While talking with a buddy I shared an insight I picked up from old tales. Man has two wolves within them, and it is up to the individual to decide which one to feed. When we're alone, loneliness provides an opportunity to either discover self or discover madness. It is our job to make sure we feed the one that's going to be in our best interest -- even as hard as it is to not fall into madness. And sometimes, we need that madness. The real key is when we become a risk to ourselves that we can muster the courage to reach out for a hand and humbly accept the help we require. Obviously more than a few of us struggle with this concept of losing one's independence, as if it's weakness, by asking for help. Sometimes it's the strongest thing one can do and will pay the highest dividends in the shortest amount of time. Our society just makes it hard to actually do that.
Furthermore this..The greatest affliction humanity faces in the 21st century is isolation. Most anyone that's alive now has grown up in unprecedented periods of technological and social advancement, and a consequence of that is division of communities. Technology was supposed to bring us closer together and improve our lives, and instead so many of us are constantly inundated with so much negativity (either externally imposed or self imposed) that we isolate as a way to not only save face ("I'm fine") or as a way of avoidance. That's why so many abuse substances (not just intoxicants). This avoidance thing which leads to isolation has been a primary topic in my therapy sessions, as I'm notorious for running from things. I'd rather hang my head in shame and disappear than deal with the consequences of miscommunications or poor behavior because I was under the influence of something while also avoiding some other life experience.
While talking with a buddy I shared an insight I picked up from old tales. Man has two wolves within them, and it is up to the individual to decide which one to feed. When we're alone, loneliness provides an opportunity to either discover self or discover madness. It is our job to make sure we feed the one that's going to be in our best interest -- even as hard as it is to not fall into madness. And sometimes, we need that madness. The real key is when we become a risk to ourselves that we can muster the courage to reach out for a hand and humbly accept the help we require. Obviously more than a few of us struggle with this concept of losing one's independence, as if it's weakness, by asking for help. Sometimes it's the strongest thing one can do and will pay the highest dividends in the shortest amount of time. Our society just makes it hard to actually do that.
Thank you for this. This is great for perspective for me to hold onto with my daughter (diagnosed in the spectrum at 8).
For anyone that wants to know what living with autism is like.
This cannot be understated. How do you feel the last 19 months has Influenced people?
The video you posted, while on a much more macro scale, basically took the words out of my mouth. Since I was a teenager in high school when Bush Jr was in office after having won the electoral college vote despite Gore having won the popular vote and 9/11 having occurred I saw much of what that video discusses start to fall into place. Social media started to ramp up and consume so much more of people's minds and beliefs than any platform had done since the 1930's. Social unrest was rampant and communities became deeply divided while the propaganda machine started to rev up more and more.Furthermore this..
Ty for thatThe video you posted, while on a much more macro scale, basically took the words out of my mouth. Since I was a teenager in high school when Bush Jr was in office after having won the electoral college vote despite Gore having won the popular vote and 9/11 having occurred I saw much of what that video discusses start to fall into place. Social media started to ramp up and consume so much more of people's minds and beliefs than any platform had done since the 1930's. Social unrest was rampant and communities became deeply divided while the propaganda machine started to rev up more and more.
Follow the timeline 20 years and families are being ripped apart because of passive aggressive meme posts playing to offend religious and political beliefs, beliefs held by individuals will no more understanding of what they're defending than that of a high school social studies student. Throw the pandemic in the mix during an election year, couple it with economic uncertainty, supply shortages, and growing threats both at home and in the international theatre all while mandating isolation and... well, the video explains this whole process pretty damn well.
The influences that all these past 19 months have garnished for society will take decades to overcome given most everyone agrees on several basic things at this point and not much else.
1. We all suffer from mental illness now. Anyone that claims to have weathered the pandemic unscathed is either a fool or a coward.
2. We're all immensely divided on what we believe or now know as truth. The media and political leaders have ensured this to be fact.
3. The levels of fear and uncertainty are relentless now. As one situation appears to begin to dissolve another crops up never allowing our natural fear responses to settle long enough to rest and recover.
All in all if there was anything really vital for humanity to acknowledge, at this moment in history, the pandemic has finally made it OK to talk about our mental illnesses. By talking about them we are more likely to do something about them. How that will affect the coming decade is outside what I'm willing to speculate on but I will do my best efforts to align myself and my family with our freedoms and the way of life that will bring us the most peace and prosperity. If we do well enough, others will follow suit and also enjoy lives filled with peace, love, unity and respect. At least that's what I hope comes of this experience -- it certainly lit a fire under my ass to force some changes that have been needed for longer than I care to admit.