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sacrafice,, such a huge word... many meanings.. i know i myself have given up too much in life over the persuit of growing. so many things,, was and is not worth it,, for any of you newbees that thanks growing pot is all fun and games,, guess again.. i have lost a 14 yr marriage,, barely get to see my 3 boys..and the love of my life absolutely hates me... that was a few summers ago.. now its girlfriend after girlfreind,, cant ever really get attached.. is hard to be so numb.. my recent ,, chrissey,, absolutly stunning to look at,, a perfect 10.. also on the inside,, let her in my life a little but had to hide the facts of what i am.. she finally broke it off with me today,, cause i couldnt commit to anything.. wont even speak to me now.. its to late.. but dam,, i loved her.. should of married her.. should of given up this crazy persuit.. i have few friends,, family is far away.. this summer is already planned.. everything is almost done for this yrs adventure.. is it worth it,, the money,, the smoke.... fuck no... i fucked up..and im alone again..