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2017 02 15 184726
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2017 02 15 184726
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just thought i would share a few pics from the nights feed
 

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Yea, I think at the end people were starting to know something was up. I looked like shit, nodding out...you know. I THOUGHT I was functioning fine but probably looked like a jackass haha. I remember one day some time after I quit it was like the sun came up for the first time in a very long time. The mental clarity was amazing. Like you said, kinda just doping off the brain for a long time. You've got the worst of it in the bag for sure. Just give the wires a chance to start firing on their own again
yeah im sure i was a jackass too with out realizing it.. but i did not look bad i did add a extra 50lbs which im happy are gone now. just proff that extra weight was formn the pills. shrugs. water weight im sue some.. i know

it was getting to the point that i could not get up if i fell down.. that is when shit started to go down for me.. then back surgery really fucked me.. and you know

how it goes. the last straw for me was when i got my shit backed up and had to get shit removed by knife.. after i got out the hospital i applied or a medical card.. and started this self rehab shit. hah. if had money i guess id get help from so called professional druggies. hah i can only imagine them therapist nee d good drugs to keep sain. hah

Its really weird seeing my old self come through when i go to teh dispary as that is where i have the most contact with people now.. i like being my old self no lie.. but man it is hard feeling l ike this.. hah.. but yeah i like being out going spontaneous mother fucker. :D

chrsi
 
so i was thinking.. mentally i do not have any thoughts of i needing a pill, or hell i do not even care what time it is.. before i had to pay attention to the clock..

anyhow i do have one mental hurdle i will have to deal with. the fact that i keep thinking on pills i had pain meds all month herb i do not.. that will be my biggest hurdle.. may of been a space case on pills but at least it was something to help take the edge off.. better than this pain shit im dealing with now.. shrugs.. oh well.

but at least im not thinking i need a pill i guess. just hate the fucking medical system. fuckers pay 1800 on poison won't pay for herb l.like wtf.. shrugs.. ok ill shut up now. hah

chris.
 
so i was thinking.. mentally i do not have any thoughts of i needing a pill, or hell i do not even care what time it is.. before i had to pay attention to the clock..

anyhow i do have one mental hurdle i will have to deal with. the fact that i keep thinking on pills i had pain meds all month herb i do not.. that will be my biggest hurdle.. may of been a space case on pills but at least it was something to help take the edge off.. better than this pain shit im dealing with now.. shrugs.. oh well.

but at least im not thinking i need a pill i guess. just hate the fucking medical system. fuckers pay 1800 on poison won't pay for herb l.like wtf.. shrugs.. ok ill shut up now. hah

chris.
Pain meds do more to numb the brain more than the pain anyway. When you have your steady supply of meds you can make some good edibles and be good on pain.
 
yeah man its just a excuse im using.. but i can say if i was gonna relaps it would of been today. hah was vavuming and i found some oxys.

did not even think twice.. just tossed them in the toilet. first thing i thought man i took one of them i had to go through 7 days of throwing up again i just know it. hah

i am tempted to hit the bottle of rum tho.. sigh.. well i guess i must be slowly getting over the withdralws. as last time i had no herb all i could think of is withdrawls now its just strait up pain and no way to take the dge off.

tried a hot bath no luck. i did notice in the mirror the excersie is already showing.. hah, i figure it be harde3r to put muscle on. but i guess its easier to turn old muscle back into muscles. hah and im not even really lifting.. just 20 reps of light weights about 40-50lbs. for 4 major muscle groups.

but i have a lot of work.

sigh.. anyhow yeah if i was gonna fall of the pill wagon today would of been it.
i do not know anyone here so even if i had the cash not like i could score pills.

so its gonna be me making it through, or me giving up and having my ashs spread over the mountains.. im ok with whatever happens. hah
all i can say if i do give up which i do not see happening.. but if it does it will be split second thing.. i am not one to dwell on such things i guess.

if i want to relive my accident i just shut my eyes. hah.. but im use to that vision so its not so depressing as it may sound.. but it is annoying sometimes. hah

anyhow.
i dunno, life goes on.
chris.
 
Well today was my day! WOO!HOO! Went and picked up my new bulb, found a 7 gal fabric grow bag, I got it for free! The guy said no charge! Now that's customer service.
So I got my container for my auto. I am hoping she can go in it soon.
Time for a break, puff puff!
 
keep at it broseph,soldier on dude.i think your the man,doing it hardcore bro.prison style....lol
to be honest man.. last 15 years may as well me be in prison.. i mean i locked my self up, pushed people away.. sure i had so called freedom.. but i had none you know the drill. i could of just popped a oxy today and be back to what i use to think was normal.. but man just looking at them.. all i could think was no fucking way am i going through 7 days of hurling again.. would take one pill, i found several before i tossed them. i bet i would be starting all over as bad as this withdrawal shit is effecting me. shrugs.

hope you are not freezing on your way to work today. i have not experience real cold in 15 years.. and to be honest the coldest i have ever been happen during summer time. yup during my accident at night i swear i was the coldest ever.. i had taken my shirt off to make a turnakit.. used the sleeves of the shirt as gloves because the rocks would burn my hands crawling.. anyhow, it saved my life made crawling easier but man.. that night i froze lost so much blood.. that shit is coldest i ever been and iv been stranded in the mountains in the middle of a snowstorm for a week and had to make do with living off the land and what we had on us and in the truck. was sorta fun.. not like crawling. hah

chris.
 
yeah man its just a excuse im using.. but i can say if i was gonna relaps it would of been today. hah was vavuming and i found some oxys.

did not even think twice.. just tossed them in the toilet. first thing i thought man i took one of them i had to go through 7 days of throwing up again i just know it. hah

i am tempted to hit the bottle of rum tho.. sigh.. well i guess i must be slowly getting over the withdralws. as last time i had no herb all i could think of is withdrawls now its just strait up pain and no way to take the dge off.

tried a hot bath no luck. i did notice in the mirror the excersie is already showing.. hah, i figure it be harde3r to put muscle on. but i guess its easier to turn old muscle back into muscles. hah and im not even really lifting.. just 20 reps of light weights about 40-50lbs. for 4 major muscle groups.

but i have a lot of work.

sigh.. anyhow yeah if i was gonna fall of the pill wagon today would of been it.
i do not know anyone here so even if i had the cash not like i could score pills.

so its gonna be me making it through, or me giving up and having my ashs spread over the mountains.. im ok with whatever happens. hah
all i can say if i do give up which i do not see happening.. but if it does it will be split second thing.. i am not one to dwell on such things i guess.

if i want to relive my accident i just shut my eyes. hah.. but im use to that vision so its not so depressing as it may sound.. but it is annoying sometimes. hah

anyhow.
i dunno, life goes on.
chris.
Damn brotha, now that's commitment! You could have sent them my way lol j/k. Ive taken a few after quitting before and its crazy how bad of withdrawals toy can have from doing that. Its like you never quit. It takes quite awhile for the fucked up mentality to normalize. Your brain has to re learn how to function without all of those chemicals. Be patient.
 
Damn brotha, now that's commitment! You could have sent them my way lol j/k. Ive taken a few after quitting before and its crazy how bad of withdrawals toy can have from doing that. Its like you never quit. It takes quite awhile for the fucked up mentality to normalize. Your brain has to re learn how to function without all of those chemicals. Be patient.
hope the rest of the world know that too. hah. iv done some stupid shit, still cant believe i walked out mid conversation. blows my mind.. just some odd behavior that shit was.. i had no clue i did it till i was at home in bed thinking about what just happen hah. i should be able to get some herb tomorrow night or early Friday. so that is positive.. weather it will be good is another question.. the distrib gamble! laughs
 
Oh Yeah! Very pleased with them!!!
I wish all of you could be here to enjoy it with me. Sit around drink a few beers talk shop LOL! We can all get medicated!
The auto, will a 5 gal be big enough? Going to the grow store today. I have to replace a bulb I broke 125 watt cfl, 2700k.
They look like they are stretching.
Another question, should I wait until my old growth fan leaves turn completely yellow before plucking them off?
yes pal,leave them until there done.5 gallon will be plenty,just don't stress her out,ain't got time to make errors with autos pal,once they pop,they on the clock...
 
Damn brotha, now that's commitment! You could have sent them my way lol j/k. Ive taken a few after quitting before and its crazy how bad of withdrawals toy can have from doing that. Its like you never quit. It takes quite awhile for the fucked up mentality to normalize. Your brain has to re learn how to function without all of those chemicals. Be patient.
jipp,good on ya dude....hardcore stylee..lol..incogneato,yeah bro,me two,except the second round don't feel like no monkey,more like a big silver back gorilla...hahaha..once you kick the opiates mate,it only takes a miss hap to put you bk to almost square one....keep at it pal....keiks...
 
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