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So, my first psychotic episode happened a few years ago. When I’m under the influence of cannabis, I tend to go deep into New Age ideas because they feel logical at the time. I ended up listening to a certain Finnish “teacher” on YouTube. For the following weeks, I believed I was becoming enlightened. It escalated to the point where I emptied everything from my apartment into the hallway with a note saying “free to take,” because I believed I would become a “more powerful being” if I didn’t own anything unnecessary. Eventually, I realized there was no logic in it, and somehow I gradually recovered. At that time, I was using cannabis throughout the day—at least a gram per day, using a bong.
I slowly recovered from that, and my parents helped me get back on track by bringing furniture and other things back into my apartment.
Later, I started growing cannabis and continued for about a year, using daily—around 1.5 grams per day with a bong—until I got into those New Age ideas again. This time, the psychosis was much worse. At first, I again believed I was becoming enlightened, but then paranoia started to develop. I believed that the entire city of Jyväskylä was under siege and that there was some kind of special operation happening because I had become too powerful, and that all people had been replaced by highly paid agents. There was a lot more paranoia and delusions as well. I fled my apartment into the cold winter, quickly packing a backpack because I believed certain people were coming to harm me. Overall, it was a very terrifying experience, and I was completely convinced my delusions were real.
Eventually, I went to the hospital and was admitted to a psychiatric ward, where I was diagnosed with cannabis-induced psychosis. The doctor warned me that if I continued using, the next step could be permanent schizophrenia. At first, I even thought the nurses there were agents, until my mind gradually cleared. I stayed in the ward for just under a week, and I still had some psychotic symptoms for about a month afterward.
I originally started using cannabis for neck pain, but I also grew to enjoy it otherwise. Nowadays, my pain is better managed through other means, but I still have good memories of cannabis—the warm, comforting feeling, better performance in video games, amazing-tasting food, and great-sounding music, etc.
Now I feel like I’d want to use it maybe once a week—just one evening, about 0.25 g through a bong. But if I buy even one gram, I end up using it all. I’ve been thinking about a solution like a Kitchen Safe, a time-lock box where I could lock the weed for a week at a time with no way to open it earlier.
Are there others here who have experienced cannabis-induced psychosis and have either quit completely or now use only rarely? I personally haven’t used at all for over six months.
And the name of this Finnish “teacher” is Samuli Perälä (you can find him on YouTube). He believes he is enlightened and that humanity is going through a transition from selfishness and war toward an era of love.
I slowly recovered from that, and my parents helped me get back on track by bringing furniture and other things back into my apartment.
Later, I started growing cannabis and continued for about a year, using daily—around 1.5 grams per day with a bong—until I got into those New Age ideas again. This time, the psychosis was much worse. At first, I again believed I was becoming enlightened, but then paranoia started to develop. I believed that the entire city of Jyväskylä was under siege and that there was some kind of special operation happening because I had become too powerful, and that all people had been replaced by highly paid agents. There was a lot more paranoia and delusions as well. I fled my apartment into the cold winter, quickly packing a backpack because I believed certain people were coming to harm me. Overall, it was a very terrifying experience, and I was completely convinced my delusions were real.
Eventually, I went to the hospital and was admitted to a psychiatric ward, where I was diagnosed with cannabis-induced psychosis. The doctor warned me that if I continued using, the next step could be permanent schizophrenia. At first, I even thought the nurses there were agents, until my mind gradually cleared. I stayed in the ward for just under a week, and I still had some psychotic symptoms for about a month afterward.
I originally started using cannabis for neck pain, but I also grew to enjoy it otherwise. Nowadays, my pain is better managed through other means, but I still have good memories of cannabis—the warm, comforting feeling, better performance in video games, amazing-tasting food, and great-sounding music, etc.
Now I feel like I’d want to use it maybe once a week—just one evening, about 0.25 g through a bong. But if I buy even one gram, I end up using it all. I’ve been thinking about a solution like a Kitchen Safe, a time-lock box where I could lock the weed for a week at a time with no way to open it earlier.
Are there others here who have experienced cannabis-induced psychosis and have either quit completely or now use only rarely? I personally haven’t used at all for over six months.
And the name of this Finnish “teacher” is Samuli Perälä (you can find him on YouTube). He believes he is enlightened and that humanity is going through a transition from selfishness and war toward an era of love.
