i feel you brother!I hid my growing for over 20 years from everyone except really close friends even my family didnt know,But now i don't care who knows i believe in herbal medicine cannabis isn't the only thing i do as far as medicinal herbs go.I do alot of foraging of medicinal herbs and mushrooms i make all my own medicines and tintures!!!Cannabis has helped me tremendously with depression ptsd and anxiety..nobody has the right to make a plant that is met to be here illegal..you cant make nature illegal and when they do i dont listen!