Damn Chris take it whoever bought you them seeds over gave you some pointers in right direction? Cause I've never seen any one turn there skills around that quick before! Big up
im not doing any thing hard. just wish i would of been sober when i started.. im forgetting more than im learning now. no never mind all the shit i read right before i got off the pills.. before i even started talking here. its just a blur with random things that stick out.. i was pretty fucking sick when i decided to get off the pills.. and i was that way for a good year.. it was pretty bad now i think of it..yeah man he has been helping me through out.. could not ask for more nor would i.
ill get a shot of the kids im bored in a bit.. i need to vape up too! it is nice waking up not feeling sick and wanting to crawl out of my skin.. and the fucking weight i lost man.. i was almost 300lbs. im tall yes. but damn, now im 200lbs a good weight for my tall ass. i look healthy. so i dunno random thoughts now.. laughs
fucking pain clinic watched me go from a healthy person to a old man and did not do shit.. how could you do that to a human. just watch them poison them self when there was a alternative here (weed)for a few years..
opiates are some evil things the human body is just not capable of dealing with in the long term.. it masks so many health issues and also creates many more.. i was so blind to it all.. once the opiates had there mitts into me.
if they would of pushed me to weed; look i may of never got as sick.. since its been legal here for a few years.. im just speculating on what could of been and thats just petty and depressing to think about so i will stop. hah.
now if my vision would heal, and my knees i could get back to getting on my feet.. but i dunno anymore getting close to just throwing the towel in.. but i keep thinking well maybe tomorrow will be better and shit. hah never seems to be tho.. im not healing very fast. .. just so tired of it all.
one day at a time i guess.
fuck pills and fuck you pain clinics i was treated like a criminal.. had to take a drug test and shit every 3-4 month ( and they called it random.. hah ).. and it was not to help me.. it was just to cover there ass.. fuck them.
chris.