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[1diesel1]

vegas hilton. stolen peep hole.
vip...

I watched that hole video, it affected me mentally and physically.
I’m rolled up in a ball rite now and not getting out of bed!

 

[SPARECHANGE]

I'm calling bullshit. don't believe in it.

What’s the difference between dissociative identity disorder (multiple personality disorder) and schizophrenia? | Here to Help

Author: Canadian Mental Health Association, BC Division

www.heretohelp.bc.ca

 

[SPARECHANGE]

i can't i can't i can't...


@Moshmen... get the diesel...

 

[SPARECHANGE]

i didn't have a choice. insensitive!

 

[SPARECHANGE]

yeah yeah... break it!!!

 

[SPARECHANGE]

fracture

 

[SPARECHANGE]

backroads... has to b so

 

[SPARECHANGE]

this one is more focused. he thinks keys so myopiclee that he doesn't see the dangers, before him. um... it will b his tell... his undoing. i can beat em. next!

 

[1diesel1]

I'm calling bullshit. don't believe in it.

What’s the difference between dissociative identity disorder (multiple personality disorder) and schizophrenia? | Here to Help

Author: Canadian Mental Health Association, BC Division

www.heretohelp.bc.ca

I totally understand the schizophrenia disorder on a personal level as an observation from life. Growing up I had a life long friend that was taken from me by this disorder.
me and Troy were buddies at a brother level. His father was a Vietnam veteran. I was not aware growing up next to Troy that his father was a paranoid schizophrenic. We did lots of drugs with his father. Sometimes when we would do certain substances his dad would totally loose it and we would have to get away from him because of the raging fits he would experience. Lilttle did I no at the time the results of the rage was caused from the medications he was taking for the schizophrenia.
as time passed, into me and troys high school years Troy became more shall we say withdrawn and distant from regular daily destructive activities that me and him used to accomplish.
finally one evening I was hammered wandering around town after a run in with the local sheriff, I stoped by his place. His mom was a sleep I could see his tv was on. I tapped on his window, he let me in. He was coked out of his mind watching tv.
I proceeded to partake in his activities with said substance. Not a word was said to me. Then finally he looks at me with the most serious crazy look on his face
“ The fuckin government’s in the TV man!!”
“There fucking watching me!!”
“Theres fucking cameras in there, there filming everything man”
“What the fuck am I supposed to do!!”
He was serious, I didn’t no what to say or do. I played along for a bit hoping he was just fucking with me.
Then he started ranting about some shit I couldn’t figure out. I just figured at the time he’d been up to long and was just fucked up.
I bailed on him figured he’d go to sleep sooner or later.
A week later no Troy, he’s gone locked up in a mental institution. When he got out I didn’t no who he was anymore, just like that Troy was gone.
It was a bummer man he was my best friend, just gone.
I never told his mom about that night I probably should have thinking back. But it wouldn’t have changed anything.
I moved on didn’t see him for several years after that. one day I went into a sharies restaurant he was sitting in the back of the place. I walked in the door in the front he sees me stands up and yells “Hay Diesel got any Coke!!”
I was like what the fuck, you on meds?!
He was and still is.

 

[SPARECHANGE]

I'm not ignoring d. i need to focus.

um... I'm going to attempt to explain this, but i don't think it'll make any sense.

I'm thinking bee and trying to... observe... and... um... temper? ummm... diode?... ummm... nm.

ok so I'm driving. hyde is stuck on calculations. um... vegas... tell... 1 in 4... 13/52... shyt, like that n yes, i always finish in top , but no confidence- we split pots. if i don't have it... i don't go. i mean best possible...

um... noob is sooo focused, but thinkin so much, so fast and he's strategic. doesn't pop up, til I'm not in a position to track em.... log his movements. couldn't pull over, anywhere n wasn't in dirt, yet. ummm... but hyde keeps runnin calcs. it's next lvl shyt, far as tryin to explain- not the difficulty, of the figuring.

um... but i have no time n needed to b gone, 1:2! ago.

 

[SPARECHANGE]

next stop!

i couldn't have typed fast enough, if i wanted to log noobs, processes.

 

[SPARECHANGE]

something about pist about education lvl. i couldn't focus!

 

[SPARECHANGE]

me wants to stop n catalog. hyde is goin... hundred meters... u CAN'T... STOP... and that guy ... now he ain't stoppin... just fukn... like tryin to catch a lightning bolt.

 

[SPARECHANGE]

ok... lemme try n another um... something.

i don't speed. dj qualls the new guy, is only focused on the road n whatever else it's whippin by. I'm parked again to catalog. new guy is um um wait I'll catch him... oh- he speeds cause he can't look away with his focus.
now, this is just my backroad route to the store, but um... clyde keeps wanting me to mispell and keeps sayin, "ha!", cause not only is it that same church i parked in front of... again... but look at the sign and he said same...
the other guy said, "temporary warship" and hyde is laughing at a class about fear.

 

[SPARECHANGE]

and dj keeps speeding

 

[SPARECHANGE]

each entry is another stop. new guy likes the name. irony: my acronym. clyde- dead cat x stole.

 

[Moshmen]

by the way... still didn't see necrosis, in leaves, besides some salad i left, previously. anyone? 1 wk flawless. 1 wk-ish- ro.

You want to see death I’ll post later today! Plenty of necrosis going on here! Sux but it’s life and could always be worse! Lol

 

[SPARECHANGE]

ok I'm here... this is weird.

i was making connections n strategies to deal with n then wiped my mind. absolutely blank.

forgot it all.

 

[SPARECHANGE]

i can't think. i can't hold a thought

 

[SPARECHANGE]

omg I'm retarded. i can't figure how to check in