DETOXING OFF OPIOIDS; NO MEDICINAL VALUE CCO / RSO

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I have a new definitions for the poopie list

not the wipeout

a stucco job

the mud guy

the contractor special

the Chinese replaybuffet

calin thepainter

plumberz putty

gorilla glue

insolvency

the supersaturator

the nutty professor

the mad scientist

the Frankenstein monster

the humpty dumpty

my personal fav

can put it back together again

that's for sure

 

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These were brought to me tonight


What will I pay for such a gift

In the time before and after such a shiny thing

People

Pay attention, please

I have never bought a pair of clogz for myself

Too many people who wear them

Are dix

I need no shiny thing to b myself



If I wanted clogz

I'd have them

What has the beast done to one

Over time

Mememe

Money money money

Want want want

Tomorrow I will hear what shiny thing

The beast doesn't have

As I have so many times before

Sooo... save ur money for all that shiny shit u feel u just have to have

Don't make me pay for your shiny gift to me

At any time

Gifts shouldn't come with strings

I asked her to return them

If she wants to do something for me

Start a video journal

("It stopped recording. Wasn't long enough"
-sc
So make a second recording or download a free app made for it...)

Try simply being nice

Or focus on your recovery

I said


I later added as

When I requested she not take it the wrong way

The thought was lovely

I'm not that guy

I don't require shiny shit

Just b nice to me

Also

Not well received

So I tried something else

I could use new flipflops

-my lovely g
U know
I saw something nice
I thought of u

Thought u could use them
I'll probably pick the wrong flipflops anyway
I can't afford you flipflops


Realize

As she says this

In my mind


U know

When I ordered my last cali house

Momz bought me a tree I didn't like as the centerpiece of my curb appeal

It was offensive because I never asked for it
It wasn't my taste
Wasn't appropriate for the local climate
It was a pain in my ass
Soon after died
I'm sure it wasn't cheap

And a gift became the source of animus

Did I ask for animus

Did I need it

Then y buy it n give it to me

When ginger said she couldn't afford the 13$ flipflops I just can't find

Currently

Doesn't kohl's sell gift cards

Can u not order in any denomination

If the limit is xxx

She knows their policies

I had to hear em over n over

She can purchase and return for cash under certain amounts

The customer is always right

Sayith kohl's

And

She gets coupons from time to time

Sooo

She can apparently afford. 01$

And kohl's n every other retailer today

Would just love to commit ur money n change to their store cards

Until someone thinks to sure them for doing so

It's stealing and unacceptable

Your store card

Is neither bullion nor legal tender

Nothing says if I shop at your store

You'll take from me what doesn't belong to u

For profit

Robinofourhoodz

U r not

THE MAN

y do u believe

U r our country's currency

And so

What n my mind

Ginger is telling me

Is

She's unhappy

She doesn't need to say anything

For me to know n feel what one could cut with a knife

I am not worth her time

One cent towards footwear I will b comfortable in

And as she confirmed

She's not told a soul she's engaged if she kicks

It says she's ashamed of me

But

That's just my interpretation

It would require

Explaining her part in things

Being accountable for her actions

Or making better Choices than butcher blox n butcher knives

Rather

Look good to ur family

And stay with a man u would kill

As opposed to leave or...

Expect them to put up an addict for 15yrs

As she has nothing

Financial really

In her future

Unless she builds this or does something else

For herself

When I told those I told

I made no excuses

Gave no explanation

I have integrity

My people trust my decisions and encourage me to live my dreams

They just want me to b happy

So they're nice

No guilt gifts

No shiny shit

Try simply being nice to begin with

So u have no shame to pay for

In the end

It of course

Is a pitiful thing

She'd rather pay for clogs

Than any cost for admitting she's technically engaged at the moment

Y agree to a celebratory thing

If it costs u to much

To open you mouth n b happy to share good news

You can shove your pity

Straight up your ass

It's my cost

For getting the one I want


It may b interpreted

I'm trying to change n customize my girl

I know exactly who she is

I'm trying to b with my girl who exists a babushka doll addict

And when I pry open the addict

The woman I describe as I chip away the addict

Already exists

N my dreams of past people

I'm just making my dream girl a reality

By making a stripper

Of an addict

Stripping n chipping

Pieces of addict
In my spare time

Loser row can get expensive

Tipping stripping n chipping

At my lovely g's-string

One thing

C
I
Two
O
C

At all timez

 

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For if u wish to b nice

And give of ur heart

U already make me happy

How nice

What a gift

Rather than think I may b bought

With what u have or like

I like u

If u want of me

Let's have a conversation about footwear and treez

Get to know me

And ill b happy as shit

If u buy me a tree

You'll already know

It's because I like this kind I do not have

If u cannot afford my taste

And wish to b a party to it

A gift card or a penny

Or encouragement I can afford em

If I try to

Is a perfect gift of impeccable taste


Now momz works differently

She bought exactly the sofas I described

Spent the time n money n got a really good price

She knows

Leaving my house and she

Both

Freak me out

She wants my company n her home n thinks my time is for sale

She offered em to me the first time

I said how much I love em

For her

I wouldn't take em

I'd have to lift em

Anyway

And cannot

Yet

I don't ask or offer help to move

If I refuse to afford movers n can't lift myself

I don't move

Momz hates her new sofaz

They do not entice me to not freak leaving my home

Going to town

I live in the desert

I tend to run hot

Y would I buy the leather I love

When I'll sweat n stick to it

Momz knows these things

Bought my favorite tree for her last cali home

Same climate as mine

I know this

Because she followed my last investment as well

So y the animus

Disappointed we don't listen well

To people we love

And give them things we like

As opposed to taking the time

With someone u have animus for

Now


The guest bed fix my back

So I returned to the bedroom n put out an expensive candle

On my nightstand

Because it's harder for me to sleep in light rooms

Turns out

She says

She's heating the room

She knows about me n sleeping better at night

Told er no problem

Light it n left

She bummed out

Said she wanted me comfortable

Then y mention the candle

I put it out n returned

She got a vibe about the flipflops that made me uncomfortable

Empathy bullshit

Believe me

I'm not that guy

Who childishly sleeps on his own couch when we've been fine fucking r not for 15yrs

No... now I can't sleep

If someone's vibing me about butcher blockz n clogz n dead treez

So I left

It's been an hr r so

She awoke

Mentioned the candle for heat

I went back in

Light it

N said

Enjoy the heat

If she wanted to b warm

Y not spoon fuck

R stop smoking n buy propane

It's just a question

I hope her shiny candle n clogz

Make her nicer

 

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Fell off the dailyz for whatever reason

Calmag is more important than discussing possible for cannabis tech

No problem

Whatever keeps the site afloat

Just logging my stuff to help one more

Perhaps

If peer sitez were the answer

8ish in a year

Would've seen it to a shelf

Hence waiting for responses for popularity

Ain't ma thang

It does not impress me

I was simply excited

Because I thought we'd reach more

Than my helpin n triage

With common centz

As opposed to trolling to market myself

Money ain't my forte

Sharing ideaz

New ideaz

Besides

"Cmag"

Now that's exciting poopoo

 

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If I go backwards

To listen to

You're kookoo

It slowz me down

I'm just cataloging thoughts feelings n eventually

Hopefully

Original ideaz

I'm not heer to make friends

Ie

Heer

I'm not the best heerer

 

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If I have any doubt

Questions

I'll ask

I'm posting proofs

Experiments

And the inspiration

Which leads to original thought

Ms sue has a website

She said

She wants me to write for her

She has freelance articles

She could have me wrong ite for her

If that were true

Already

On her websites

Collaborating

Simply crediting

A source

She creditz a dead man she doesn't pay

But never inspired her enough to try when he was employable

Anything she does

Without credit

Should I choose

When emails become available

With dates times

And thank yous

She's already paying me

With free advertising

About last yearz research

Am I keeping her looped

Ya sometimes gotta let people believe

Ur a ewe

 

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People think they're lying to ewe

But first

They must tell us secrets

So they trust us

If I were staffing cheap marketing

How would I do so

In an arena I'd never fought in

Let someone else

If she's battling 420's ceo rob

And wishes to impress by name dropping

It meanz

She told someone with more money n power a lie

Signing a non comp

And will go to great expense in court

Fighting a lie

Over a website I could write for

When

¿

Call me crazy

If ur marketing my idea

To fight another lie

Awesome

Let me help

Ewe

Help w33d the people



And if ur not fucking me

No harm no foul

I've done nothing

But

Hug ewe



So far

 

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How many times

Would ewe believe

An addict won't use

A liar won't lie

A thief

Won't steal

A friend

They'll simply credit n borrow

When needed

Only

 

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For those who saw an earlier email about my not reading ms Suezu

Y would I need to read her response

She's either supporting me

Or exploiting the intel I sent her

Both

R appreciated

If she said something stupid

Y would I care

 

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But she hasn't been Sharing observations

Without a crow

She goes another way

No problem

I'd rather have competition

If she discovers something sooner

All the better

For the ewe

 

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After a year

It getz lonely at the top

There's nobody to ask

Nowhere to cross reference

 

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If we want to go somewhere in life

Do we just go
Or let someone else tell us

Whether to go left or write

Original

Ideas

Do not require approval

 

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So if someone were to

For instance

Lie

To manipulate n get more current intel to advertise freely for we

Emails of integrity would proof

I've offered many times

To work with her n help her success

Gratis

Excuses r four assholez

I'm a dick

Not some azzhole

So do not mistake me for

Something else

Or

Ewe'll

Know

To believe

Imma dick

So when u call me one

I'll flash the recognition grin

Of familiarity

 

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Go make ur millions

Call ball plastics

In chino cali

Tell em to sell empty half liter cases

So I don't have to pay for tap water n can simply fill empty

Cheaper cases

Myself

Those who do not wish 5gal delivery services

Buy empty bottles n fill em themselves

Or switch on a tap

Y do I keep having to pay for your logistics slavery to petroleum

When we can just help petroleum industry

With the marketing

Of cases of empty plastic bottles

Your driverz

Will love that they made less money

Getting there faster

Uphill

Both weighs

In the snow

 

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Here's another mil for ya

Our hamiez

N people's other small furry friends

Oft have play type "parks", like a 4' uncovered portable dog kennel

Obviously scaled to suit

Rather than have the onez who tell us

We want out

Or we'll chew at bars n hurt our teepheez

Y not make a critter habitat with a door which allows for a fastenable park

As an aftermarket attachappee

In such a way they cannot climb either structure in their daily bid for freedom

But have an opportunity

To c "sky", without barz

 

[dire wolf]

Shake the hand

That shook the hand

Of pt barnum

And Charlie chan

 

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Here's another mil

Call kaytee

Tell em their bottles leak

Because the openings r often too small/big with not enough back pressure/vaccum to keep from leaking

And the density in the bearings is not enough

Then ask em y they're sell stuffing with habitat which encourage the burrowing in 4" deep bedding

If they burrow n sink spinning poopoo

And it sinks 4"

Y not go with the nature of

THE FUCKING PRISONERZ

AND PUT UR SHINY SHIT

ON 4.01" FUCKING STILTZ!

 

[dire wolf]

Did ya hear about all those Danish minks ...

That's fucked up

 

[dire wolf]

I'm goin to bed .....don't start with me

 

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Shake the hand

That shook the hand

Of pt barnum

And Charlie chan

Ur fucking shitting me

Cool stories?!

Ur up late

How u feeling

What's new

I keep finding incriminating f1 seeds I forgot about
G keeps tempting she's likes mine better than clinic ditch
I keep thinking

How the fuck would we know

We've never bought the shake before

Now that she's committed

I don't fucking care about peripheral peepz

As they "call"

I tell em

I'll shop with u and help u choose the shake

U pay for supplies

I'll show u as many times as it takes

At my home

With my girl

(God forbid ginger actually watch, now that it's legal for her to b involved n in her best interests going forward)

Not a single one

Who sang the praises of my poopoo

We talking topicals too

Has yet to take me up on my offer

As to g's stuff

Imma grab my vintage amnesia elsewhere stash

Manaña

Along with all but one cultivar from my entire last year



For g's next run

If I grow

It won't b half assed

And the next f1

I pop

Will b for my own fucking grow OP

Or one I hold sway in



I'll just supply ginger with a $60 oz of shake for 2mo

On 40$ of dry ice

And $12 of 190

I already bought

Lemme c

5.6gr x (today's dose rates...)

Call it 4

Attrition n testing

150ish mg of 4k if it were pure

=
Ok $20 in dry ice

1mo supply

No

1wk

She's dosing bout every 4hrz

Sooo

Say 368ish a mo

As I do not sell grass and her intake will drop to that being at least 2mo worth

Cxl her cali dope runz

A month r two at the electric bill price alone

Us a fucking investment

It's not worth my growing as I don't charge my peepz

And so far

Their own pain

Isn't worth

"My time"...