DETOXING OFF OPIOIDS; NO MEDICINAL VALUE CCO / RSO

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Here she goes


She said
Ever notice the difference in water taste wherever u go

Hmmm...

Makes me consider the honey theory more


Teddy

He was laying to die almost

Again

Twitchy

Falling on his side

Losing Mobility in his rear tires

He wasn't venturing away from a very specific area

Outside shelter essentially

Top of bedding

Mini hoard

After I dosed him

And I can tell if he ate pot

He left his area n went into his apartment

4" and climbing n digging away from where he was exposed

Grow matt at 80some

Blanket above

Just now

Her either on a sugar buzz

Or improving

Dragging n flapping his rear tires n ballz

36gr still

That's good

He should b 42-44

He was in his next door habitat

Would've required serious effort from earlier teddy

He's having fun n his outdoor park

But not as long as usual

The house temperature would kill them if they were out too long

But

Teddy was desperate for a visit

Perhaps a need

On second thought

Honey

G gave him a lil swiss

I wish I had dandelion for him

I'm taking video again

U don't want to c it

It'd make u cry

 

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Those who've followed my threads

Know

Ginger doesn't typically think this way

She definitely doesn't speak this way

She's searching shit for the research instead if chris oil murder

Reruns

Less news

Less materialistic shyt

She's not saying

-my lovely g
Lalala... blablabla

Week 2

And u fuckers know the difference to

Or I wouldn't b quoting her

I don't hear the bullshit

I don't care about shit that's already happened and I can't change it

It's noise

Unless...

 

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Nm pussyhunter

Phunter is where the farms douchebags chill

 

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I keep giving yoshibong the intel

He does nothing with it

Hence

1500$

For a 5$ bong

 

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There was an @ papaso 2006

I missed his msg

May I b of service

I loved your addition

Profile u and ur bros for me?

We're just not comprehending pot

Is a drug as defined today

From topical transD to injection

We dunno how to use it

If you'll allow me

I would b of service to u and our people if I could

I use actions when I choose over words



My number is here

Ur welcome to use it

I just can go backwards n my own shyt

Unfortunately

 

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Tonight

I had the best conversations with GINGER

I've

Ever
V
E
R

Had with her

She is advancing light years

If she ever read this

I just wanted her to know

She asked what she already knew

She just wasn't listening

Yes

We were broken up

She was a bitch

I was myself

Didn't take but an hour

To get the next girl

Oct 2018

She was booted for stealing my dope lying

She knew the consequences n advance

Didn't take but the next evening

It hurt her to hear

She'd heard it a couple times before

She functioned at a higher level all evening

I watched her body language

And noted

She required more oxygen

I heard

N literally saw

Controlled breathing

She knows alot of hoogabooga that applies

We're having the most inspiring intriguing conversations

I'm building a 6lbs bowling ball grip genius overnight

And boys

I didn't leave her number by mistake

If u think u can get her

It means u earned her

I wish u even happiness

If u wish to flirt

Encourage

Warn

Anything

I welcome her knowing

She's not alone

Maybe you'll both make a new friend

She's the most fascinating secksy bitch I've ever known

And boys

She's single

I have no problem

With anything u wish to say

But

She chooses not to read the farm

Call

Text

Pray

Whatever u like

She's a person

Not an object

Just keep it n mind

Please



Thanks everyone for your support

I just have some quirks

It slows me down to look back

Sux

Ya'll have my intel

Ur free to take ur chances

Ur here

All that matters

People come here to learn

We stay

To b of service

I am that people

 

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Gave her the amnesia effect

The full body orgasm

Better than ecstasy

I laid next to her n her room

Stroked her to the edge of sleep

And

 

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Went to my own bed

Endorphins

Prob

Yup

Dopamine

Ecstasy effects = dopamine

Cytokines

Would b the travelling immune cells

She inspires learning

Cytokines and Their Side Effects

Cytokines are small immune system proteins that can be used as a treatment for cancer. Learn more about how they work, and their side effects.

www.cancer.org

She was entirely prepared for me to do

She said

You can do anything you like to me

-sc
I just did

Endorphins

Dopamine

And your pain is gone

Thank you for a lovely evening

I just wanted you to feel better

Goodnight

 

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And

Melatonin

 

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When the house dropped to the 50s

I had the seedling matt under teddy around 90°f

It has plenty to pass through

I can't have him eating the temp probe

Which reminds me

I can b ir'ing his bed

I was cooking teddy

It's warmer today

Nick-less, can regulate himself

They're twins

Her not bitching but he doesn't have to crawl to get to other options

Between the aloe risk n temp

Based on his behaviour n where he kept going

I was dehydrated poor teddy tonight

I got his back

He's back in his easy

Outdoor next

I don't think he'll last another 24hrs

If things don't change soon

Ginger found leaf

Unfortunately

It's cured

Still has green tinted as it does

Refrigerate

Moisture

Veg oil

Teddy has leaf

Very little

Was of cbd cultivars

Tic
O
C

 

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It's not about mind games

That's an I'll spent responsibility

I'm learning how to exploit human nature

For my purposes

It's a responsibility

Not a gift

People in my life near n far became a part of the research

Learning even the best intentions

Are nothing less

Nothing more

Human nature

Intentions

Not actions

That's y the term may b heard

Interpretation

So never b disappointed in shit that's not necessarily finished

If someone is well intended

Never know when they'll come round

Just keep in mind

Everyone has a code and until

U learn it

May as well b a stranger

Should we treat them less than

I'm only I

So that question isn't one I can answer on my own

Just flip the w

As for me

No

I should not

I'm trying to do better

My dose went out the door

Add anxiety

I lose my shit

 

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I'm still learning my own buttons

And when I'm sober

The opioid damage is ever present

Thus far

 

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I'm still learning my own buttons

And when I'm sober

The opioid damage is ever present

Thus far

thats true. The effects are ever present. And the more you focus on them the more real they become. The actual treatment is to not focus on the addictive drug.

no one has ever died from not taking heroin. My closest friend is a psychologist and he took 100’s of arrested or od’ing patients and all were fine after a night of throwing up. After that its more just a choice.

i made mine 20 years ago. No more smoking coke. Smoking coke is the only drug that affects all body nerves rather than just the cortex. Much longer addiction curve to break than opiates.

still just a choice.


Cant make a patient focus too much on the addiction man. Be careful please. Weed doesnt break the addiction its just a tool. The patient has to make the choice.


i wish you so much wellness and happiness my friend. Please slow down and take some self inventory.

Dont forget we see exactly what we want to see even if sometimes its not there.

 

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The honey is teddy's kryptonite

It does for him what some of the leaf did before

Seems temporary, this time

If he wants it

He's going to get it

Small ants spread across his requests

Normal habitat- 78°

His alternative

68

It's enough tonight

So currently he's more mobile

He sniffed the activated corner

Not interested

Instinct...

No problem

If I didn't know better

I'd say he's improving

Not the first roller coaster, today...

 

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I agree with med entirely

The stuff I'm takin wasn't tailored to me

I learned that bit really

Making g's

That's fantastic intel med.

Lemme think... lemme reread something

He mentioned ahhh now I remember

I was thinking about cigarettes and their warnings

And what I saw seeing how simply vitals swing

For me n g

Med me n Larry the roofer agrees on all some or different pieces of this

My take

Seeing her smoking raised systolic a point or 2

Not having it sent her up 30 to 60 points, systolic... religiously

Our desire

Vice

Drives vitals higher than the vice, itself

The real trick they pulled wasn't giving it to u

It's not giving it to u that causes more damage aside from every other infinite system I didn't check

Just face value on vitals, only

Thank u med. Have an awesome day man. I gotta catch some z"s.
Between teddy n ginger

Sigh

Long night

Ginger apparently forgot a grip of varied batches n the fzr

That were intended to make this easier

Her moving to her own room, was necessary

For obvious reasons

She paid a price in pain for takin a swing

I didn't have to touch her

She did it to herself

Unfortunately

She took two methadone today

Didn't ask about the rest

She knows exactly what it means to the process

Her aunt sent her the 200 apparently

To help with anything before the guinsue challenge

That went to her drug run to cali

She confirmed a bunch of shit I knew to immediately dismiss

Told er

Had I given ur threats of everything besides dv... any consideration whatsoever

I'd have known they were bullshit

N that whatever ur version

It's moot

There's nothing u can take from me I wouldn't give u

Maaan

It was good to meet her

I don't think I've ever really had one honest conversation with her

For 15 yrs

Dismissing someone I didn't respect

Because she lies

As med says

Just

Like

Me

I was doing shit to get into her pants

It was wrong

And

Not that I'm lookin or ever struggled

But

As before

Now I could have anyone I wanted

I just don't want for anything really

But if I could pick one

She's it

Ain't about cheesy or cliche

Just my version



Med, if u happen to b by n catch this

U really touched the surface of

I know more....

So (meaning u first person)

Whatcha got on the psych end or any particular search term or books to flip through?

Anyway, c ya later



Always good to c med

Smartest grower you'll ever meet

 

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U guys know I jacked my figures on my cost 100x 100x

So I ran a quick calculator

For 4 lbs at 20% (I could probably grow double in that time)... a taker by nature doesn't need to know. I just need to bait him... n c if he comes around still

Thinking I'm broke

I saw ltr hours after I told gary the water was off

Larry didn't know

As expected

And gary never said boo

After

He's a busy guy

We go silent

We'd like Gary's help

We do not require it

We allow him to choose

But we know his nature

Ltr- as we saw with paula

Goes at his own pace

He has to comprehend a thing to ... let's just say for simplicity

To invest in a person

He's comin around

On his schedule

Should gary say boo to ltr & eventually ltr will wonder n ask him if he does nothing

I'll b the 3rd to know

He's invested heavily in kratom

He gives a sample

And I know y

I can smell it on the man

Tbch

It's unfortunate

But a useful tool

I just dismissed everything he values most

His investment

It makes him easy

But

I have a feeling

Wrong guy

I don't like the idea of getting into bed with a man who leaves his wife where I don't leave animals

Regardless

I'll let it play out

I told em 2400 to grow 4 lbs 7000 50mg caps by march

70k sellout at 10$ per

And that I'd actually already created a niche market

Unintentionally

I only ran the numbers once

What difference does it make

I don't care

It's not my focus

G is

 

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If teddy doesn't show improvement when I wake up

He's going to b the first loved one

I'm going to shoot n the head

Better by my hand

Than a man who doesn't see him

 

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Teddy's sleeping where I can c him

Means I can't tell whether he's improved

Th ir says he's alive

Note

Take him in his sleep

After checking progress

So he never feels fear by your hand



This is extremely difficult for me

Teddy is two

Age extreme for the breeder of my area

Regardless of how teddy is recovering

He's my hammy

Nobody's labrat

It's teddy's time

We'll play one last time

To thank our belowedtearstearchermybeautifulsweetsweeteddybearthankufromlife we love you teddy

 

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Yup

I just solved the tourette's syndrome

Turns out

They were so close

And they didn't know

I do

And the sky is blue

They're juicing endorphins

It's y I can function at optimal capacity

Days on end

And u guys know it

It's y I cuss

I am juicy endorphins to charge my batteries

Insomnia

For efficiency

They have an imbalance or unknown pain

It gives them insomnia

I search backwards

That 3

Or what

Go make ur millions

They can't fathom someone would have enough common sense to know they sky is blue

If it's not a doc sayin it

Genius

2 Google searches

Done

Fuckin a

C

Nobody will hear u

Don't bother

They'll just think ur kookoo

 

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It's exhausting

How long do I have to play this fucking game

I'm just trying to get my girl out of bed maaaan

It's alot of fucking pressure

Someone please

Make em fucking listen

It's all right here n the middle of the table

I'm not smart enough

I break everything I touch

Someone tears

Please help me