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Ahh sweet Vine score this morning - a PAR meter!

 

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Ahh sweet Vine score this morning - a PAR meter!
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That’s a cool little bonus!

 

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That’s a cool little bonus!

Yeah haven't been getting a whole lot of grow equipment from the program lately but I have been getting a bunch of other stuff I needed. Trying to snatch up any kind of survival type gear right now because shit isn't looking good in the world right now and I'm fully expecting to be living in the woods by this time next year sad but true

 

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Yeah haven't been getting a whole lot of grow equipment from the program lately but I have been getting a bunch of other stuff I needed. Trying to snatch up any kind of survival type gear right now because shit isn't looking good in the world right now and I'm fully expecting to be living in the woods by this time next year sad but true

When the bomb drops, and all your dumb neighbors see you sitting on your pile of ammo and food, alls that should be going through your head is “who’s the fool now?”

 

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When the bomb drops, and all your dumb neighbors see you sitting on your pile of ammo and food, alls that should be going through your head is “who’s the fool now?”

Luckily my "neighbors" are few and far between. The few neighbors we do have are also of the same mindset. We also live on a private road with a cattle guard at each entrance and the entire area is fenced off with 6 strand barbed wire. So myself and a few other neighbors have a contingency plan to park our heavy equipment at the cattleguards to block off anyone from getting in easily.

Oh and every single house out here guaranteed to have at least 1 gun and 1 dog. When it takes over an hour for cops to respond out here to an active shooter (ask me how I know) ... Not having a gun out here is suicide.

 

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Luckily my "neighbors" are few and far between. The few neighbors we do have are also of the same mindset. We also live on a private road with a cattle guard at each entrance and the entire area is fenced off with 6 strand barbed wire. So myself and a few other neighbors have a contingency plan to park our heavy equipment at the cattleguards to block off anyone from getting in easily.

Oh and every single house out here guaranteed to have at least 1 gun and 1 dog. When it takes over an hour for cops to respond out here to an active shooter (ask me how I know) ... Not having a gun out here is suicide.

I get that 100%, I have a couple dags and heat to do well if and when it gets dumb. Being in Houston basically, everyone and their mom is armed here, I’ve even seen holsters that match clothes here. Probably couldn’t pull the gun correctly to save his life. Guns have become fucking fashion accessories here. You have no idea how many people I could walk up to, and just take their gun right off their hip and hit them with it. It literally kills me. Also don’t get me started on the asshats who took advantage of blade laws here, walking around with boar spears on, fucking wannabe ninjas with katana blades……this state is ridiculous

 

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I get that 100%, I have a couple dags and heat to do well if and when it gets dumb. Being in Houston basically, everyone and their mom is armed here, I’ve even seen holsters that match clothes here. Probably couldn’t pull the gun correctly to save his life. Guns have become fucking fashion accessories here. You have no idea how many people I could walk up to, and just take their gun right off their hip and hit them with it. It literally kills me. Also don’t get me started on the asshats who took advantage of blade laws here, walking around with boar spears on, fucking wannabe ninjas with katakana blades……this state is ridiculous

Oh man you're near Houston? I haven't been there since like 2007 but coming from Chicago I can say that is one fucked up city! I mean I can literally walk around Englewood or anywhere on the South Side of Chicago and feel safe, but when I was in Houston I made a few trips through some neighborhoods that literally had me white knuckled. That city is a true jungle. At least it was, back then.

And the cocaine in Houston was fuckin' A+++ super pure grade. That must be the shit coming straight over the border, before it gets cut 100x on it's way to Chicago or any other city.

 

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Oh man you're near Houston? I haven't been there since like 2007 but coming from Chicago I can say that is one fucked up city! I mean I can literally walk around Englewood or anywhere on the South Side of Chicago and feel safe, but when I was in Houston I made a few trips through some neighborhoods that literally had me white knuckled. That city is a true jungle. At least it was, back then.

Rest assured, it’s still a fucking madhouse, the 4th - 9th wards are where they filmed the most recent mad max flick, it’s rough. That city is too damned big bro, it has 3 fucking skylines

 

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Rest assured, it’s still a fucking madhouse, the 4th - 9th wards are where they filmed the most recent mad max flick, it’s rough. That city is too damned big bro, it has 3 fucking skylines

Yeah I think I was fuckin around in the 8th ward if that means anything to you. It looked worse than the South Side of Chicago that's for fuckin sure. I met some homeless guy named Will and he was getting me some of the best fuckin coke I've ever had in my entire life. That's all I think about when someone says Houston

 

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Oh man you're near Houston? I haven't been there since like 2007 but coming from Chicago I can say that is one fucked up city! I mean I can literally walk around Englewood or anywhere on the South Side of Chicago and feel safe, but when I was in Houston I made a few trips through some neighborhoods that literally had me white knuckled. That city is a true jungle. At least it was, back then.

And the cocaine in Houston was fuckin' A+++ super pure grade. That must be the shit coming straight over the border, before it gets cut 100x on it's way to Chicago or any other city.

My dude the blow here back then was great, cheap as dirt too, but I haven’t even heard of that stuff being around. Everyone gets fucked up on meth now more than anything. With all the crazy shit going on with fentanyl, you couldn’t pay me to chop out a rail…….

 

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My dude the blow here back then was great, cheap as dirt too, but I haven’t even heard of that stuff being around. Everyone gets fucked up on meth now more than anything. With all the crazy shit going on with fentanyl, you couldn’t pay me to chop out a rail…….

Well to be honest and clear it wasn't exactly blow it was crack. But I used to cook crack back in the day when I lived in Chicago so I know most of the time it's just cocaine and b12 or some other innate fairly harmless base to rock it up..

A lot of people think crack is "so much more dangerous" than cocaine but it's really not. Just a different way of ingesting it, that's all. Unless the cook made it with some bad shit, which doesn't exactly encourage repeat customers..

And yes cheap doesn't even begin to describe it. I gave my guy 100 bucks and he came back with a fuckin little brick that looked like one of those off-white erasers we used in school. I couldn't believe the purity and size of it. Compared to Chicago? Made Chicago's dope look like absolute shit!

All the drugs were cheap in Houston when I was there. I bought a fuckin ounce of weed for 30 bucks and it was some of the best weed I ever smoked, too! In 2007 an ounce for 30 bucks and it's fire? That shit was rare in my opinion. The benefits of living so close to the border, I guess!

 

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Well to be honest and clear it wasn't exactly blow it was crack. But I used to cook crack back in the day when I lived in Chicago so I know most of the time it's just cocaine and b12 or some other innate fairly harmless base to rock it up..

A lot of people think crack is "so much more dangerous" than cocaine but it's really not. Just a different way of ingesting it, that's all. Unless the cook made it with some bad shit, which doesn't exactly encourage repeat customers..

You know, waaay back when I smoked coke, but never rocked it up, I have done quite literally every drug under the sun, all the weird 2cbs and all that stuff to. But legit, I have never smoked crack. It’s kinda amazing really now that I think about it…..I guess I have enough in my pants already or something

 

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You know, waaay back when I smoked coke, but never rocked it up, I have done quite literally every drug under the sun, all the weird 2cbs and all that stuff to. But legit, I have never smoked crack. It’s kinda amazing really now that I think about it…..I guess I have enough in my pants already or something

Yeah it's basically the same as freebasing coke. I get that it's definitely more dangerous because it does hit you harder and it does make you want more almost instantly, but generally speaking it's the same as doing straight coke.

I'm not proud of my former drug usages but it did open my eyes and mind to a lot of realities in this world most people ignore. It's so easy for even the most moral and upright of people to turn into complete pieces of shit because of drug addiction. I've done it all. Gone to jail, gone to rehab, got the T-shirt AND the N/A coin

I made a lot of bad decisions in my life, but I wouldn't change it for the world. The rough path I chose turned me into the man I am today and I'm proud of who I am today. My experiences have allowed me to understand others who struggle with these things and help understand them and how to help them. I've gained an almost unreal level of patience in life in general. It takes a LOT to get me pissed off or worked up. I was quite the firecracker in my late teens and early 20's so if I didn't learn that patience I was going to end up in prison from killing someone or dead.

 

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Yeah it's basically the same as freebasing coke. I get that it's definitely more dangerous because it does hit you harder and it does make you want more almost instantly, but generally speaking it's the same as doing straight coke.

I'm not proud of my former drug usages but it did open my eyes and mind to a lot of realities in this world most people ignore. It's so easy for even the most moral and upright of people to turn into complete pieces of shit because of drug addiction. I've done it all. Gone to jail, gone to rehab, got the T-shirt AND the N/A coin

I made a lot of bad decisions in my life, but I wouldn't change it for the world. The rough path I chose turned me into the man I am today and I'm proud of who I am today. My experiences have allowed me to understand others who struggle with these things and help understand them and how to help them. I've gained an almost unreal level of patience in life in general. It takes a LOT to get me pissed off or worked up. I was quite the firecracker in my late teens and early 20's so if I didn't learn that patience I was going to end up in prison from killing someone or dead.

It really is the best way to look at it bro, I wasn’t exactly from the nice side of the tracks if you get my drift. I always looked at it like this, since I watched alot of good folks lose everything, and a bunch die, since I was one of the lucky ones, and made it through alive, Heroin was my vice a long time ago, that shit flowed like water in Philly in the 80s, it’s kinda a mission of mine to steer folks away from that madness if I can, folks like us made all the mistakes so others don’t have too. Given they are willing to listen, I can identify with almost everyone, about anything. So we have to pay it forward man. I love drugs full stop, but I definitely know the line. I’ve always been able to dabble and walk away but opiates boy, the dabble me….

 

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It really is the best way to look at it bro, I wasn’t exactly from the nice side of the tracks if you get my drift. I always looked at it like this, since I watched alot of good folks lose everything, and a bunch die, since I was one of the lucky ones, and made it through alive, Heroin was my vice a long time ago, that shit flowed like water in Philly in the 80s, it’s kinda a mission of mine to steer folks away from that madness if I can, folks like us made all the mistakes so others don’t have too. Given they are willing to listen, I can identify with almost everyone, about anything. So we have to pay it forward man. I love drugs full stop, but I definitely know the line. I’ve always been able to dabble and walk away but opiates boy, the dabble me….

Word for word pretty much the same here, bro!

Yeah heroin fucked me up bad, too. We had really good dope in Chicago, and they still do. Not even cut with fentanyl. I mean there is fentanyl around in Chicago but the heroin is so pure they don't need it. They tried cutting the heroin with fent back in 2008 and a LOT of people died so they stopped doing it pretty quickly. It's weird, though, in a way. The drug dealers out there really want you to come back so they always tell you if their shit is strong and to be careful. Most of the time, anyway.

But yeah heroin cost me a lot. I lost way too much from doing that shit. It has gotten REALLY bad in Chicago area. All the little rich kids from the 'burbs are coming into Chicago to cop dope and then take it back to their suburbs and sell it to their friends for twice the price. Anyone within a 50 mile radius of Chicago can easily get heroin, now. It's sad, actually.

 

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Word for word pretty much the same here, bro!

Yeah heroin fucked me up bad, too. We had really good dope in Chicago, and they still do. Not even cut with fentanyl. I mean there is fentanyl around in Chicago but the heroin is so pure they don't need it. They tried cutting the heroin with fent back in 2008 and a LOT of people died so they stopped doing it pretty quickly. It's weird, though, in a way. The drug dealers out there really want you to come back so they always tell you if their shit is strong and to be careful. Most of the time, anyway.

But yeah heroin cost me a lot. I lost way too much from doing that shit. It has gotten REALLY bad in Chicago area. All the little rich kids from the 'burbs are coming into Chicago to cop dope and then take it back to their suburbs and sell it to their friends for twice the price. Anyone within a 50 mile radius of Chicago can easily get heroin, now. It's sad, actually.

They did the same shit in Philly too, if Philly was the closest spot to cop, bet your ass some of these folks made the 7 hr round trip for bundles…..that shit spread like wildfire man. It was all china white back then though.

 

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Yeah it's basically the same as freebasing coke. I get that it's definitely more dangerous because it does hit you harder and it does make you want more almost instantly, but generally speaking it's the same as doing straight coke.

I'm not proud of my former drug usages but it did open my eyes and mind to a lot of realities in this world most people ignore. It's so easy for even the most moral and upright of people to turn into complete pieces of shit because of drug addiction. I've done it all. Gone to jail, gone to rehab, got the T-shirt AND the N/A coin

I made a lot of bad decisions in my life, but I wouldn't change it for the world. The rough path I chose turned me into the man I am today and I'm proud of who I am today. My experiences have allowed me to understand others who struggle with these things and help understand them and how to help them. I've gained an almost unreal level of patience in life in general. It takes a LOT to get me pissed off or worked up. I was quite the firecracker in my late teens and early 20's so if I didn't learn that patience I was going to end up in prison from killing someone or dead.

Keep coming back, it works if you work it hahahaha

 

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They did the same shit in Philly too, if Philly was the closest spot to cop, bet your ass some of these folks made the 7 hr round trip for bundles…..that shit spread like wildfire man. It was all china white back then though.

I never made it to Philly but one time a buddy and I took a heroin-induced road trip from Chicago, and the goal was to make it to Washington, D.C. and cop dope, there. We ran out of dope by the time we hit PA so we took a turn into Pittsburgh.. We copped some really shitty dope from some dudes we saw outside an apartment complex, and ended up driving straight back to Chicago, runny-nosed and nauseated from withdrawal symptoms coming on. We were hauling ass trying to get back as quick as we could

Little did we know we could have just gone up to Philly and gotten the good shit.. Lmao! What a life.

 

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I never made it to Philly but one time a buddy and I took a heroin-induced road trip from Chicago, and the goal was to make it to Washington, D.C. and cop dope, there. We ran out of dope by the time we hit PA so we took a turn into Pittsburgh.. We copped some really shitty dope from some dudes we saw outside an apartment complex, and ended up driving straight back to Chicago, runny-nosed and nauseated from withdrawal symptoms coming on. We were hauling ass trying to get back as quick as we could

Little did we know we could have just gone up to Philly and gotten the good shit.. Lmao! What a life.

I don’t fucking miss it bro hahahaha

 

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I don’t fucking miss it bro hahahaha

I would not wish heroin withdrawal on my worst enemy. I've been through some really bad withdrawals, too. Usually inside of a jail cell, at that. The absolute worst was when I got caught up when I was at a 200 dollar a day habit. I was withdrawing so hard in jail, they brought the nurse, who then gave me Ativan to keep me from going into seizures, and they threw me in the padded jail cell with nothing but this green "turtle suit" that was like a vest made from a moving blanket. There was a hole in the floor with a grate over it and that was my toilet. Worst fucking experience in my entire life, hands down.

God damn dude. I don't know how I'm still alive today. Well, yes, I do. It's all because of the Lord.