You all don't know me, but my boyfriend is a grower who peruses theses boards. He lives a quiet, solitary life. He likes to say that he "hides in plain site", which as you all in illegal states know, he has to. I know he would like to be out in the proverbial light of day, and that he would like to be able to talk about the work he does with others like him. He'd like to share his passions with real people face-to-face. He is extremely good at what he does, and he operates with unwavering integrity and soul. After growing for about 35 years he has this incredible body of knowledge and he can rattle off stories about the lineage of this strain or that, he can walk into the grow room and intuitively know when something isn't right, and precisely what has gone wrong. He is extremely competent and patient at this job that no one gets to know he has. He researches and learns constantly, not because he has to and not because anyone is giving him a raise; he strives for perfection because that is the person that he is. He works in a dark, cramped basement, and it's hard on his body. He continues anyway, all the while worrying that he isn't successful. He is successful in the truest sense.

Without going into too much detail, we've been sort of immediately, unceremoniously cut off from the market. You know how it is, right? Our main guy lost his main guy, etc. Anyway, we are in this tight spot now, and its hard to break into a market without major exposure. He is feeling the pressure, the frustration, the lack of control...It's very difficult and probably only something that only other people like him can totally understand.

In case he reads this, I want him to know that I believe in him, I am proud of the person he is, I'm overwhelmed by his kind heart and tenacity. We will stick this out and make it through because that is what we do.

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