hey fam! So great to be reading all of these inspiring stories . I wish the best to all of you and offer my help or ears or arms to anyone that wants it . I'm here to express though right this second. I use marijuana as a medicine and truly believe that's what it is, though I haven't been diagnosed . I'm in a nonlegal state(for a while, things look good) . I'm a victim of rape and molestation. I've never admitted this to anyone other than those closest to me , which makes explaining my medical use very difficult. This difficulty is compounded by the fact that the person that did this to me was an immediate family member that otherwise was a perfectly healthy, functioning individual. I'm by no means standing up for this individual, but it's hard to go turn someone in that is so loved by the same people you love. Breaking your parents hearts is by far harder than dealing with this , I think. The only time scenes are not replaying themselves in the back of my mind is when I'm high. Street weed does almost nothing to ease my mind as it's usually over handled and rarely grown well , but well grown herb , especially sativas seem to take away the anger and the scenes replayed entirely. I'm able to function at a much higher level and able to put thought after thought down on paper without interruptions or distractions from the trouble on my mind. I have not found anyone else in my life that has been through anything similar ,or at least willing to admit it so I come here to vent and just hope that my messages touches someone with a similar problem. Thank you all for teaching me how to grow proper herb and giving me a place to feel welcome. Thanks for letting me share. I recommend long flowering sativas for anyone who thinks they may have similar issues . The psychedellic properties really help sort my anxiety out naturally. Much love . Sorry if I'm out of place, not being diagnosed and all ..