All Mental Illness Patients!!!!!!!!!!!

420 lyfePpP · Sep 20, 2015

Well been away kinda goin thru some shit . Neurologist says I am having mini stroke. Have a head injury and seizures. Lil under 40 and walk with a cane . Was told pretty much get use to it. Was at church and had a seizure in church . Been on end of a rope it broke . Took nuff morphine and Valium alot of meth . Woke up days later covered in blood (MY OWN ) slit my throat. Stabbed in stomach. All cus of mental illness. The system helped create me. I'm alive .. My lil sis took her life 10 years ago last month. I pondered why I'm here. ? Sister was born April 20th so I got it tattooed as does our friends and family. I beg for the help. I'm a recluse or a goraphob . Just dont understand the importance of mental health issues. My meds keep me alive and my kids and grandkids. I love life I just hate me. Searching for a purpose. I have lots of hope . I want to help people avoid my life. Thanks for listening and good vibes to u all.✌PpP peace and good vibes.

epitome · Sep 20, 2015

I don't know what's worse, taking psyche meds or stopping them.....people are starting to connect mass murder and domino suicide with the abrupt halt of psyche meds.....in this shitzunami you have to step back and enjoy the beauty of a passing storm.

kbellfoy · Sep 21, 2015

I was widowed 5 years ago ( aged 41 )My husband of 15 years was murdered. I had police living at my house a court case and everything. Couldn't Bury him for 6 weeks. I can still smell him when I close my eyes. I sat with him every day....even tho he was in a fridge he still stunk after a couple of weeks. I could only have an hour with him as the longer he was out the worse he was. I couldn't let go. He looked awful...His face all bruised and stuff. I was diagnosed with bi polar a year and a half later. My doc said it was from all the shock etc. At one point PTSD was discussed but I wasn't listening. If not for cannabis I wouldn't be here now. I'm a full time carer for my autistic son who also uses cannabis. I grow now to take away the financial strain and also because of the shit weed available near me. Honestly it's crap. I'm just getting in to finding which strain etc is best for me. I need something that calms me down. I get very agitated and angry over nothing so need a good strong calming high. Any body got any suggestions plz on the best strains for this?? on top of all that I have severe arthritis and in 2 days I'm having major spinal surgery so I need pain relief too. I can't actually believe I'm putting this out there tbh.....wow.....but if others have then why not me too. Much love to you all

PROTOPIPE · Sep 21, 2015

hmmmm good question. ^^^ I have a horrid time with a short fuse. Really sucks tbh. I would suggest being careful though because ive noticed steady smoking and then stopping can give me these side effects too, for the first 24 hours i stop smoking i get pretty irritable. Only strain i ever had that laid me out good like you desrcibe was roadkill skunk from a older breeders who don't believe in the computer online thing. Haven't seen anything close to it since!

Growin Grass · Sep 21, 2015

kbellfoy said:
Any body got any suggestions plz on the best strains for this??

A good cbd really helps with an attitude adjustment for me
and some pains
(more of a muscle relaxer than an opiate-type pain killer)
Probably find a good heavy indica to help you post surgery
Oh and thank you very much for being outspoken. Your not only helping yourself, but anyone else that feels like they can't say anything about the issues they face.

kbellfoy · Sep 21, 2015

Thank u Growing grass. I will take good note before I crop to try and get cbd. I have a one to one seed which I'm told is equal thc cbd.

kbellfoy · Sep 21, 2015

Protopipe yep it does suck. I'm not as violent now. Mainly I take it out on inanimate objects now. It's not good when u can't trust yer self. I haven't had a day without weed for about 3 years now so I don't know how I would react with out it. Too scared to try if I'm honest. I'm sure I'm not alone in saysaying I don't discuss my issues at all but when I say other ppl showing the courage to do it how could I not? I love this site for many reasons.

420 lyfePpP · Sep 21, 2015

kbellfoy said:
I was widowed 5 years ago ( aged 41 )My husband of 15 years was murdered. I had police living at my house a court case and everything. Couldn't Bury him for 6 weeks. I can still smell him when I close my eyes. I sat with him every day....even tho he was in a fridge he still stunk after a couple of weeks. I could only have an hour with him as the longer he was out the worse he was. I couldn't let go. He looked awful...His face all bruised and stuff. I was diagnosed with bi polar a year and a half later. My doc said it was from all the shock etc. At one point PTSD was discussed but I wasn't listening. If not for cannabis I wouldn't be here now. I'm a full time carer for my autistic son who also uses cannabis. I grow now to take away the financial strain and also because of the shit weed available near me. Honestly it's crap. I'm just getting in to finding which strain etc is best for me. I need something that calms me down. I get very agitated and angry over nothing so need a good strong calming high. Any body got any suggestions plz on the best strains for this?? on top of all that I have severe arthritis and in 2 days I'm having major spinal surgery so I need pain relief too. I can't actually believe I'm putting this out there tbh.....wow.....but if others have then why not me too. Much love to you all

I hit like to your post then took it back not cus I dis like but nothing too like, I lost my sister. And couldn't let go . Know she's lookin down . And done some stuff I wish I never . (To me ). But wife suffered from my action and desire. Wanted to be with her . . Struggle to this day. Diagnosed with severe ptsd among other things. Wife cares for me full time, head trauma. Caused seizures. Stroke took away me left side and speach . And I get pretty angry with ME. And it has been recently told I'll be in a wheelchair now only now gave into wife's concerns. Was attacked from behind and fell 25 feet to my back. Can understand back pain and had nerve blocks . But no longer. ☺ Tried juicy fruit. It was nice and calming it's a hybrid. Kosher kush was nice. For pain I like bubba kush. Blueberry kush was nice . I always like 2 bags☺ . Peace and good vibes ☺ 420 lyfePpP.

kbellfoy · Sep 22, 2015

420 lyfePpP said:
I hit like to your post then took it back not cus I dis like but nothing too like, I lost my sister. And couldn't let go . Know she's lookin down . And done some stuff I wish I never . (To me ). But wife suffered from my action and desire. Wanted to be with her . . Struggle to this day. Diagnosed with severe ptsd among other things. Wife cares for me full time, head trauma. Caused seizures. Stroke took away me left side and speach . And I get pretty angry with ME. And it has been recently told I'll be in a wheelchair now only now gave into wife's concerns. Was attacked from behind and fell 25 feet to my back. Can understand back pain and had nerve blocks . But no longer. ☺ Tried juicy fruit. It was nice and calming it's a hybrid. Kosher kush was nice. For pain I like bubba kush. Blueberry kush was nice . I always like 2 bags☺ . Peace and good vibes ☺ 420 lyfePpP.

I know what u mean about the likes. Iv put some on but only cause others did. Sounds like u have a fantastic wife. My hubby was my soul mate. U couldn't have met a nicer man. He went out and I never saw him alive again. Thing I struggle with is this ....He only went out that day because I made him. I said your with your best mate....He will look after you. Then the best mate smashed his head in. Feel so guilty....its my fault. The weed helps me with that. I'm still so angry about it all. His mate didn't even go to jail for it. Iv been told he's been around bragging about what he did. God it fucking hurts so doesn't it. I feel some of your pain. I got in to drugs big time till I had a mini stroke after some bad shit I stuck up my nose. Iv recovery fully from that thank god. I used to believe in heaven and hell....now I know that it's here that we are in hell. Thank god for mj eh. Also thank u for being so honest and open. I'm actually quite a shy person and I know I could never have posted any of this without ppl like u showing me the way. Much love to you and your family

420 lyfePpP · Oct 1, 2015

kbellfoy said:
I know what u mean about the likes. Iv put some on but only cause others did. Sounds like u have a fantastic wife. My hubby was my soul mate. U couldn't have met a nicer man. He went out and I never saw him alive again. Thing I struggle with is this ....He only went out that day because I made him. I said your with your best mate....He will look after you. Then the best mate smashed his head in. Feel so guilty....its my fault. The weed helps me with that. I'm still so angry about it all. His mate didn't even go to jail for it. Iv been told he's been around bragging about what he did. God it fucking hurts so doesn't it. I feel some of your pain. I got in to drugs big time till I had a mini stroke after some bad shit I stuck up my nose. Iv recovery fully from that thank god. I used to believe in heaven and hell....now I know that it's here that we are in hell. Thank god for mj eh. Also thank u for being so honest and open. I'm actually quite a shy person and I know I could never have posted any of this without ppl like u showing me the way. Much love to you and your family

Wow... lost for words and this is fuckd . I came here to say by and just don't feel too comfortable so I was gon take a brake from everthing. Your message let me see that I got a great wife and soul mate. Seems so full of hate all over . Just sit and think wow I gotta smoke another one, only fatter ☺ peace and good vibes ☺ 420 lyfePpP Thanks for sharing. ☺

3N1GM4 · Oct 1, 2015

I know now that the voices are only in my head and they aren't really there, but sometimes they have some really great ideas.

epitome · Oct 2, 2015

One day at a time. Prayers go out to Oregon....

kbellfoy · Oct 4, 2015

420 lyfePpP said:
Wow... lost for words and this is fuckd . I came here to say by and just don't feel too comfortable so I was gon take a brake from everthing. Your message let me see that I got a great wife and soul mate. Seems so full of hate all over . Just sit and think wow I gotta smoke another one, only fatter ☺ peace and good vibes ☺ 420 lyfePpP Thanks for sharing. ☺

I hope u don't leave. This forum....and the world in general needs a lot less haters in it. I believe ppl only get one soul mate. Those that are lucky enough to find that are truly blessed. Hang on to your happiness with both hands....

kbellfoy · Oct 4, 2015

3N1GM4 said:
I know now that the voices are only in my head and they aren't really there, but sometimes they have some really great ideas.

Maybe they are meant to be there....who knows. I listen to my inner self much more now....They ain't often wrong.

420 lyfePpP · Oct 4, 2015

kbellfoy said:
I hope u don't leave. This forum....and the world in general needs a lot less haters in it. I believe ppl only get one soul mate. Those that are lucky enough to find that are truly blessed. Hang on to your happiness with both hands....

I will stick around. Thanks for the vibes and I can relate with hanging on to the happy .the world is changed so much. People will stop to feed a hungry dog, cat . But walk away from or hate the mental health issues and many others. .. HATERS SUCK HUGE!☺

3N1GM4 · Oct 4, 2015

I was taking antidepressants with an enabler, 700 mgs of serequil, colonipin and depakote at the height of my doctors trial and prescribe more when it doesnt work regimines. Antidepressants are made from poison and that is why they only work on some people. American doctors dont care because in america most doctors become doctors because they wang a big house and a nice car, dont get me wrong there are still good doctors but most just rush you out because the more people they see the more money they make. This is where your problem originates, doctors should be paid on salary and if you go to the doctor they souldnt be allowed to just rush you out with a prescription for an antibiotic. It should be illegal for a doctor to charge you unless you are satisfied with their services and doctors should be federally regulated and watched and the patients surveyed. Every time I go to the doctor I feel like I have been robbed.
Praise God for His all natural medicine.

420 lyfePpP · Oct 4, 2015

3N1GM4 said:
I was taking antidepressants with an enabler, 700 mgs of serequil, colonipin and depakote at the height of my doctors trial and prescribe more when it doesnt work regimines. Antidepressants are made from poison and that is why they only work on some people. American doctors dont care because in america most doctors become doctors because they wang a big house and a nice car, dont get me wrong there are still good doctors but most just rush you out because the more people they see the more money they make. This is where your problem originates, doctors should be paid on salary and if you go to the doctor they souldnt be allowed to just rush you out with a prescription for an antibiotic. It should be illegal for a doctor to charge you unless you are satisfied with their services and doctors should be federally regulated and watched and the patients surveyed. Every time I go to the doctor I feel like I have been robbed.
Praise God for His all natural medicine.

SillyQuill Bug pill . When I was 16 they had me on nozinan (heavy ) serequil and anti depressants. I went into delerium and got messed right up. Magic pills fooey . My seizure meds Dilantin can kill ya if taken too much it's really toxic to the human body. Money don't grow on trees, for docs money has two feet. . Only want money . People are a commodity to pharmacy demons . I rely on my real medicine . They need too help solve problems not give new ones . Or ignore it. peace and good vibes everyone. ☺ 420lyfe PpP

nazarbattu · Oct 4, 2015

It's sad how mmj is being led by similar greedy capitilistic models like "Big pharma"....I really dislike pharmacy industry...

3N1GM4 · Oct 4, 2015

If you look up the origin of antidepressants, they figured out that poisoning rats brains with hydrogenated poisons in small amounts made hyper agressive rats docile and passive. They then moved to monkey testing which was another big contraversy. The argument of big pharma would be it has been tested in clinical trials and it helps alot of people. That is along the lines of what my psychiatrist said to me when I told her that antidepressants were made from poison so I dont take them. She said, Well, yeah, but they help alot of people. All doctors know that medicine is killing their patients slowly but most still prescribe it.
There have also been studies with magic mushrooms on mental illness patients in voluntary college term paper trials and most patients reported having no manic episodes for months after consuming the shrooms and reported feeling more normal. So there is something to poisoning your brain that makes you complacent. But if you take any kind of poison then you are defeating the purpose of taking medicine in the first place.
Is there some type of tincture that is made from cannabis that instantly calms besides dabs? Any way to make psychadelic bho...?

kbellfoy · Oct 5, 2015

420 lyfePpP said:
I will stick around. Thanks for the vibes and I can relate with hanging on to the happy .the world is changed so much. People will stop to feed a hungry dog, cat . But walk away from or hate the mental health issues and many others. .. HATERS SUCK HUGE!☺

Tbh I think a lot of ppl are scared of mental health issues purely because they don't know or understand what's going on. It's been hidden away and never spoken off like it's really bad or something. We need to break the stigma attached to it and talk openly about it. I'm not ashamed any more about my issues but I used to be. To me that isn't acceptable any more. Talking openly to ppl on here with mental health issues has really changed my personal perception about it. I know now that I am not alone in this. :)

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