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Dead Head:)

 

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yes, it works great... and yes, i am so fucking sore, from my day.

isn't that something

i learned how to build a tard ramp, today! by tards, for tards.

tard and feathered

5 months ago, i would've hurt, more... and never, left my bed, to do so.

the ONLY reason i wasn't pissing in bottles... was because- I'm not the one who cleans floors, in my house and... i knew, at 15, what i was capable of... hyding... pissing in bottles... and typically... spilling on the floor, one way, or another. anyone know of a wider one, than Gatorade and mickey's big mouths? toilet, perhaps??? winter, has arrived. that water, is cold... and...
DEEP!

-a pinch
to grow an inch
- a sesamella smile
to walk a 16minute, mile

 

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Dead Head:)

freaks
and
phish
food

great sources of Lysergic acid diethylamide . pretty sure, oranges are, as well.

i tried so hard, to like the dead... jerry... so hard. even had some of Jerry's ties, i gave to my brother, when i swore I'd never wear a suit, again.

 

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one lovely, fall, evening, with a great, harvest moon... n.y....
we didn't know, how much mescaline, to take... so me and two friends of mine, took it ALL... however long after... at the Huntington beach 7/11, on yortown... red n green, sign... i waited in the car, while the 7/11, was robbed and my two best friends n the world, were killed, by a man, with a shotgun... when he exited the booze n arukan, shop... he looked down, through the glass... saw that i had reclined my seat, as far as possible... said, "nah... he's too fucked up to kill", laughed, left me in a cloud, of melted rubber & tire soot... and left me, to ponder the future of, "what the fuck, do i do, next!?".

 

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so i opened a door and let it close
behind me

 

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dit guys

EFFECTIVE 4/20

VETERANS, ONLY
all other company, will be reported to the appropriate authorities


doods... april fools, is coming

make the most of it:
"here's ur sign"...


put anything u want n there... it's funny, til the first, but to "the last", as well.

 

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i put away, childish things

mescaline trip...

not funny, anymore...

nobody, was kia'd... i was trippin. craig, was fine, as usual; brian Louisiana... believed, he was beast, in streetfighter.. thought he was fighting for his life, in the game. couldn't even tell ya, whether the car n robbers, were real customers, or an... illusion.
sorry... i had to let it linger, a bit... ;D

 

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You screwhead.

 

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awe. mornin, cat. i hope ur not up late , "unable to sleep". hope it's a good, "day".

 

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i May b slow
but i learn


remember my taking diesel out, on gods' trail, with me

and i said- he drives fast; i mean wide open; more so than me...and nearly wrecked, 4x, with cholla cactuses, watchin; ever present

omg

that,

was #3

now, it makes sense

ummm... i had traded stories about Mme jonetté, with, Johnny, herself

and as i ...

remember... did i say something, here about the bread pantry, who saved, strangers, like xmas, eve, or the 23rd?

think i may have

Johnny starts tellin me a story about going to whatever the common term, is, for modern times', bread lines.

and she knows i live in.... let's just say... i do not require a well, haul water, or food stamps, part of town. i know... pisses me iff, too...

and she has no hesitation, in her voice

i love my raging alcoholic

i love my johnny cash.

anyway, as I'm going over our conversation, with a smile
in a dark
laundry room
smoking
alone

it is winter
i believe it's in the 40s, tonight

i am soooo
lucky
to have what iii have

plus

u

4

true story





my take on the tard ramp

in the likely event
the va
won't pay
pony up

ummm

her Phoenix son...
my sr

...
mr
will just gamble it away
anyway

these people are our neighbors
i suspect their home
will go to my lovely g

if and when
the time comes

the son of a bitch
won't even enter
their home
not
ever

not
once

he sits outside
and visits an hour, or less
and then
gambles, nearby, for days

not
once

our neighbors...
these r the people who put in a mangate, between spreads, so going to n fro their spread... wouldn't be, half a mile.
hadn't known them a month
they never troubled us, to ask- permission

a week, later, on their knees, cleaning fridge flood water... they didn't know us
we weren't home

iii was watching the security cams... from cali...
always
watching

4 mo later... my best dog, ever... got ass cancer, we noticed, on Thanksgiving...

my neighbors, had already said

NEVER
loan anything
to
anyone
in
xxxx xxxxxx

no

shyt

and they met hooch

used to visit

daily

only

hooch

was not

a weinerdog

hooch

always

returned

hand signals

heeling

off lead

and our neighbors said

we

will

loan you

the $500

NO

SHYT

i had funds ties up in escrow

had just furnished the house

toilets to towels

iii did not have the money

iiii was not

going

to charge

shyt

imagine

if i could not have paid them back

and i haven't yet

however

there was no way

i could take a penny

from

a penny

or bill



the ramp situation

my thoughts

his son

offered to fund the expedition

he

is

human

but fuck

him

anyway

i feel

it is my responsibility
to return what i owe
and isn't it funny

ha

it will cost me as little
as five hundred dollars

because my father

likes

my

grandfather

irony

i met

larry the carpenter

through

these

neighbors

NOOOO


SHYYYYT

it can't all b a coincidence

and Larry the roofer...

how do you see

this

ending


me

too

and so my raging alcoholic says

i
am
not
a
good
liar

i believed what you did
was right

Monday

my plumbing had just been fixed

by another man

realize

this is the tire lady

and yet another

serviced her pilot

THIS

IS

HOW BIG A GEM

this

individual

is

a community

at large

ssdi denied

breadlines

volunteers

for my heroes

my idea of heaven

isn't that something

and she says

my sink was fine

i still had the bucket and rags out

ltr hadn't been around

i had to call someone else
i figured u guys were bus

larry the plumber

needed to get back to work

out of that house

i called larry the plumber

who spent an hour

looking for a nonexistent leak... mind u...

i remember the day

i wasn't there

he bitched about the fight they had over price

apparently

larry the plumber

spent the next 3 hrs, petting n shopping
pups, a goat and

-a burro named mocha

he charged Johnny
twenty
cents
i know because he was being disagreeable
at the time
he told me

and he actually wrote a bill
out
Larry the plumber
is
a
professional

and Johnny
being who she is

would not
take
it
back

you tellin me 20 cents doesn't matter
when u stand
in
a
breadline

this woman wants g out of bed
she filled a quarter of a vfw anteroom
with clothes from probably the 60s, that
are
relevant
and
back
in
fashion

she was an antique buyer
and i can assure u
the top i saw on amber of matt
took to phx over bleeding gums...
works at a sanitation dump
was worth hundreds and fit amber
beautifully

how can y'all
not
b
in
tears

isn't
that
something

each and every resident i have met

is
this
cool

my idea of heaven

they don't care about what
one
has

they care about
what
one
does
not
have

need vs want

what wouldn't you do
to
preserve
heaven

just
the way
it is

and still

make it
a home

a
better
place

for those who follow

help
just
one
of four
strangers
you meet
today

another box

you go to Lowe's

good morning
how are you

look in their eyes
notice their shoes
they tell a story
say something nice
about his piercing
his ink
his art
have something in mind
to dismiss no release them
so they may continue
in a more positive
frame of mind
someone else
has still paid for their time

hey
nice art
nice earrings
nice...
nm the shoes
unless u
or he
is gay
nice murse

have
a fantastic
week

it costs you nothing

and one day

you may need a smile

and the compassion

of you community

a small price to pay
for admission
to heaven

isn't
that
something

 

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forgot my point

and btw

i am so loaded up on every capsule in the house
nothing is working
i needed the added buzz of something i hadn't taken in the previous 5 days...
ummm... i just gave those... "lesser pills"... to someone who needed them

isn't it funny

as i spoke to Johnny,
i notice
freaks out
like #3
& comprehending that
she unloaded like never before
she literally said
thank you
you have calmed me
i believe i can sleep
now

and as i write this
i feel no pain

interestingly enough
Johnny needs these tires
before i leave town
it's going to snow
i may live "better"
but let's just say
Johnny
has a better view; from heaven; higher
on
the hill
so to speak

and she has over committed
i know she can't afford the fuel n propane
if she can't afford the hay
and
she f'd up a booze order
volunteer
her "responsibility" &
she has to fix it

did i mention i feel no pain
talkin bout this
now

anyway
i know by how i feel
and how i saw
larry the carpenter's
body
slow
hunce
n
wince

over something he's doing for me

he'll sleep in

when
not if
iii hang with Johnny
she
becomes
the
storyteller
to complete her
freakout
obligations

my evil plan
I'm a manipulative sob

take hoopty to Johnny's with hitch
grab fuel hay propane so we die quickly

her car beer

her car

someone else needs
or something
i forget

but by 1000

Johnny will be looking at chris the tire guys blue eyes in his office in a leather chair thanking the men
as i request a smoke signal for a spiritual homeless drunk who picked me up from the sandy wash behind a Safeway off route 66; gods' trail

cyclical

a chapter ends

smartest minds
face to face

another box to check

isn't that something

I'm taking you four with me to
always watching
today
just u four
wait
and
sea
wind'n'see

 

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YOUR TURN

tell me a story

just you four plus four

 

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iii need to send a smoke signal of my own to a son in sky harbor
your money is no good here
you couldn't afford this on your best day

boy
it is time
to be present in heaven
your father needs you

and when he dies
$500 won't
be
enough

you need to be hear

find out wtf

with your pops

neighbor

and tell a goodnight story

to your father

-neighbor bill
and his lovely penny

meant to b together
like 100 pennys
to a buck

i know how to manipulate people
i
am
THAT
GOOD

he needs to be hear
and i already owe them
more
than i will ever
have

community
foundation
stars
with
strangers

 

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i may embellish
because iii
wrote the story
but i do not lie
not to you four

never
not
o
n
c
e


integrity matters

so
i may or may not have
greased joe the carwasher
with
more
than
mowing his lawn/whatever
acreage

ummm

and so do yous

ummm
ummmm
ummm

and as far as neighbor
penny is concerned

she gave us $200

for Christmas

in return

for a handful

of cookies

i told her

i
would
find
a
way

to


get it back to you

haven't i though

give me the impossible
and
i
will
find
a
way

isn't that something

car wash joe
is on board
he
just
doesn't
know it





yet


he already relocated

to
my idea of heaven

welcome
to
the twilight zone

doo dooo doo doo
doo doo doo doo

 

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we agreed years ago

no

gifts

u never know
when a gift
may make someone feel badly

they gave us a gift

heaven on earth

with angels

living next door

always
watching

and we were strangers

i know exactly
what i owe
and to whom

 

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December

was a difficult month for us

my lovely g

makes no money

imagine what $100

meant to my lovely g

and neighbors
bill
and
penny

don't have a pool

 

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cat

you prayed for me recently
didn't you
don't
say hello to your momz

i just saw the soul of a cat
flying in the wind

i dunno how else to explain it

i thought u might know what it means

you might have another story
to tell
here

good morning

cat

swear

out the laundry room window

 

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it's intriguing that i mentioned
knowing the response times
for emergency services
in my locale

it's not something
people commonly
discuss

and i head a story
in a one square mile town
in a vfw
full of heroes and
angels

and the woman's knowledge of her
same response times

saved

a
man's
life

during
a
heart attack

the nearest fire department

that corrupt officials

said

cool, dood

to (crackheads)

is roughly

90 miles away

on the other side of a mountain range

no
shyt

mine

is

close

closer to them

nope

corruption

not one
has a pool

fire hoses and haul water trailers

lemme just say this

their property taxes

r 4x

higher

due to a landmark and one paved road

ass-fault...

if one has a miller force
40e

and gets caught helping; blading
dirt...

one

gets a ticket

what do u think

would happen

during a fire

when a firehose

for a loved one

equals
a
ticket

-revenuers

 

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tada!

the vfw auxiliary

is notorious

for helping vet families

infamy

Johnny

is a muckymuck

with them

penny never takes a penny

Larry the carpenter won't

I'm not buyin him

that

many

drinks

i don't like having to follow him
home

gas costs money

i

am

cheap

johhny

needs

me

today

can't b done

otherwise

i need her more

than she

needs me

and iiii

am a manipulative

son

of

a bytch

the women auxiliary

will

pay

for

this

ramp

if

the va

does

not

next problem

anyone

i will find a way

tell

me

your

story

this is a collaboration

and i am a manipulative

mostherfocker

-greg
-dinero