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[1diesel1]

give me the impossible

No.......... no media,
But I got this:)

 

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focus

 

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i know a newspaper owner, cell.

i need time to think.

25th is appt
ummmmm lose the flower... exponential clones seeds ummmmm ummm power of financial... vehicles toysummmmmmmmmm lemme think

focus

focus

focus

focus

focus

i need to chill

 

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delete anything incriminating to anyone else
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

focus
focus

focus

 

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i need to focus

 

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focus

g and granimals out.... ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

11 days

get rv's in town
death cert
dd214
financial limited
or title to and or ummmmm S ........... ummm...........ummmmmmmmm....
if .... hmmm.... hmmmm....

11 days, minimum

focus
focus
focus
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i need to chill

 

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i need to have a conversation with a man, about shyt he doesn't like to discuss... morbid...stoic... stubborn, bitter, committed, veteran, sob... give him the impossible... has my back in all things... and I've only truly known, 5mo. no shyt.
this man, is one of the shortest, slightly built, strongest, fastest, most determined, self destructive geezers, I've ever met... ohhh... he needs to see the color of my eyes, through tears... as i speak to him, face to face.
I've never had... well... alot is gone, now, but I've never had this much grass in 2wks, in my... well, i don't think i have. i haven't weighed and it's still wet, but it was double my typical harvest, in multiple tanks. i mean my formula takes like 10% mr simpson's n lasts, exponentially, longer. i haven't taken anything in over 24hrs, again. these r all signs... i mean that's like a 2yr supply, if i don't f it all up, processing it. i took .6mg, yesterday around 01, or 0300.
i am not stupid. i am not cured, pain wise. motivated by gods and love: I AM THAT GOOD.
ltr should marry, passing along medical and $, without a scratch. i, too, am technically, single.
g has a debt. i offered to settle 23k, with this stranger; lump sum. apparently, he'd prefer ummm me to pay for their children, at a rate, of $20mo. i mean it's cool he arrested the interest, but how ya think it got that high, to begin with... whatcha think i could've done, with that... what HE... couldn't done with that, over a decade.
hence, g cannot marry me. i can't say i don't ever now n then, relish in the idea, that money grubbing whore, must live in fear, of, "i know that sob could take $500-1200 a month from me, at any time.
I'm human, too. that money could help alot of people. the woman owes shy of 100k, minimum and a breast man judge... well... I'm sure he knows what he did n didn't do... I'm human... y'all know i have wrestled with the idea and prefer to leave the woman alone. the cost of her actions, while enriching... tends to come at the cost of , "natural causes"... for the loved ones, in her life. imagine how it felt, "never speak to anyone n my family, again "... think i didn't love them all... think i didn't know, as they were dying... and yet i respected her request. i could do nothing. not even say goodbye. she may b wealthy, but it cost her 2 families i know of, to achieve it. descendants of success: 20% retention rate; $80% failure. i stole; nothing was ever, given. i stole an amazing past, i had no right to. oh, trust me... the repercussions of a short exchange, on a child's bed, cost a lifetime more, than 20k... but it was not mine, to take. it was my racist, Republican, grandfather's legacy, to our community, in a time, when 20k, was a significant amount of money and an ounce of crystal, cost me bout $200 and blow, round $300 a zip. no matter how much ur lookin at, there's never enough, cocaine. so y bother trying.

i wouldn't alter the events of my life. i never would've met you four.
i need to have a conversation with another human.
i mean, the last time i road/rode ;p shotgun with jimmy/ltr... oh, sorry... i told him, last night, i wouldn't say that, anymore. he doesn't like rooting, but then again, he doesn't like any job he does; he's retired.
i was crying next to this stoic man, last time, at dawn. the question was, "how much for an electric wheelchair for neighbor bill. r u shytting me, you cheap old man. "you cannot ask me this question. penny paid him prior to billing and not from insurance nor did Phoenix have time to send money to the untechsaavy... at least 300 above and beyond his cost.
i have seen abby lee miller, a human, and not by choice. THAT is the wheelchair i was going to need, to go to concerts with g; anywhere. now, i had seen similar ones, around 2k, but i never found hers... and I'm thinking 40k. i know he has it in donald duck boxes, alone. what was iii supposed to say besides, "you cannot ask ME this question"... i only have one house; that money grubbing whore.
I'm lost. sorry. trying to focus. i need to focus. i need to think. i am a pervert and gotta have it, constantly. yeah... no question... I'm not fuckin a dood (head). i need to think. i have a problem to solve. larry and i discussed the things in chloride that are so, "poorly", assembled that every job is a jigsaw, a puzzle; a riddle. he was basically saying, "who else, but a veteran general, could help these people". i already knew the solution to that one: us four
i know the best mud guy... the best fence guy... and you four.

 

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what the fuck. i roll with gods
every
day
I'll give them the impossible and make my decision by the time amber gets her results back n tells us four.

 

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i have met alot of influential people in the last month
there must b a reason
it's a sign

 

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fringes
political hand shakers
and harley whips

 

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fringes
influential
no corrupt
larry cannot put me in his trust

i do not ever want the thought of this morbid, guardian and father dying
to enter my mind
i am human
and it freaks me out
he knows i know exactly where to fence that kwrap

 

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i like to gamble
too
much
y'all know I do my best
but it's only been 18 mo r so, i believe
plus a one sq mile town, just last night

 

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and the decision i have before me
questionable
choice

 

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I've been a criminal my entire life i dunno y it's such a difficult one

 

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i need a bath
i need to
chill

 

[1diesel1]

I need you to relax today:)
Stay on the same realm of being you can take a level stand on.

Breath in

Release

Breath in

Release...................................

If you need a relaxation point of order view this

 

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"spare, i need to tell u something
i am fuckered
i have a large cist cyst sorry on my ovary i go in on the 25th

-i havehahaghaveto gggggugugo"

learning to live with hyde and the new guy
not control
live with
and i wasn't gonna let #3 & hyde make another scene n front of my friends. i sat n the ghetto sled n waited to insure larry the sorry larry got home, or at least to another vfw (closed), safely
days n days of oj and just enough beer, to stave off a 2beer headache... a rolling clock

 

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ty d
lemme start the tub. um... remind me to do chores n check dry closet. sigh. shyt. i don't like growing after last month. it and some other stuff ruined g's xmas. and she gave up vd day which she has earned because larry's daughter was murdered 20yrs at 20yrs and larry the does not do holidays; he stays in... with dozer... alone... not on my watch... i never left his side, but to grab another 3packs n one for larry one for amber, yesterday... and larry the never runs outta smokes... and just the other day i said larrytheroofer i ain't movin in... it's not my toothbrush n clean socks... we just never take my car... i need to maintain a carton, in ur sled, too. it's funny... he knows i freak in the morning. he acted like he was lookin for a dirt road... making sure... these r more 4 wheel, cactus, whippin n scratchin, trails, than roads and he knows i know my trails... that this particular one he's talkin about, was scratched, by a lunatic; more like the semicircles, of Phoenix n socals, westbound, northbound, freeways... he knows I've specifically mentioned being lost on Eisenhower and would know he was fos... i freak in the morning. he knows this. my comment was, well i guess we do not have to go offroading, today. he just looked at me and smiled. omg... how do i not know the color of his eyes when i have watched his sparkling tears reflecting in the moonlight on a winter evening round 2200ish and i do not even remember, whether it was hot, or could... i was too busy, throwing up. i have a weak stomach for carnage.

 

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i need to chill
so i can watch ren n stimpy
i need
focus
one thing one focus
cyclical
i have a recidivism to make