current season

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but now

he uses it

to protect

strangers

 

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but the jackass ocd's everything

and he breaks

everything he touches

 

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changed his mind about the corrona

his choice

nevertheless

wisdom

and the cost

is

he knows about it

y he made the better choices

 

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he still needs to catch up

 

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Tough guys wearing a diaper!

u have issues

 

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Tough guys wearing a diaper!

there's an adult video called something like midgets from outter space

i wanted to b the first kid on my block, you know...

and the richest man i know

fucking stole it from me

it's a joke between us

he's so smart

he built a protopipe from my description... obviously oral...
not stick figure

and built a better design than any i had

ever seen, or touched

and in much cooler colors

his next adventure

was making not just a Gatlin

bowl

again

from my description

so he'd never seen one

and until he finished his

i had never seen one

attached to a steel pipe

instead of a bong mount

imagine what two friends like those

round pegs and round holes

couldn't accomplish

together

only they met as teenagers

so...

you couldn't possibly imagine

how much fun

the two of them had together

trying to invent

new ways

to have fun

stories to tell

 

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and he knows what up with the

upstairs neighbors

and he's such a unique individual

he shrugs and says

we'll then i guess that's okay

you've always been a little crazy

it's what i love most about you

 

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money couldn't buy spare's friend time

so feeling he had everything the wealthiest man he knew
couldn't buy for himself

he grew his friends favorite strain

to share wisdom

what money cannot buy

that no matter how successful he became

i was the only one of the two of us

who could spare the time

and it kills me to have to grow to begin with

so i grew atf just to fuck with him

he knows it wouldn't cost him a cent

it's what i have the most of

used to b my fav strain, as well

so i grew it

just to fuck with him

a joke between friends

who cannot afford to see each other

 

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of course he could walk into any clinic and walk out, owning the block

but mine

is priceless to both of us

 

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you want to talk about a difficult family to buy gifts for

mother fucker always costs me $20 plus tax at a pic-n-save
and every high dollar party
i get to wear flipflops to

mine r the only gifts he remembers
to me

 

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and we have shared many

bottles of absinthe together

in the middle of the night

when only residents

have access

to chuck drunken balls in golf course ponds

at pelican hills

Newport beach

marriott's timeshare are shitholes

emerald cove

crystal cove

I've been in all the castles

 

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Newport coast

before Newport coast was there

owner of the mets i think it was

old busted joint

overlooking the ocean

and fashion island

i did my first ecstasy

in what was that something canyon

but overlooking what i think was harbor

Huntington harbor

money does not impress me

hearts and minds

 

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know how i embed personal messages to people i care about

every time i use the word jackass

i know someone who knows i am saying i love you to them over barriers
time distance history pain

because he doesn't speak to me
today
he is my brother

struggles
faith

he will forgive me

eventually

and no matter what

he will feel my embrace

and my love

and my whisper

he will hear

i don't even remember what it was

or when

but there is nothing to forgive

why would u ever ask me that

30 months my senior

one of my favorite fathers

never had children of his own

so i gave him my son

 

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who doesn't share his life with me

either

 

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boys will be boys

 

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it will be interesting to watch my son

from a distance

as he grows

a $13 Christmas with me

and my $2400 my xxx handed to a child

to piece together

his computer

from the ground up

because i taught him cleanroom surgery

on how to do it

years before

always room for improvement

for a high school dropout

so when he chose me

in his last year

when the power of fear

no longer bound him

whatcha think happened

TO HIS COMPUTER

locked in a closet

a heart is not a marionette

i bought him another one

he didn't want

he knew it would come from 5 figure mattress money

it would cost me

possibly my future
or perhaps a casino would get it

and he knows

not to call me for money

but

i purchased his credit on his 18th birthday

$300 his wealthy mother

could never afford

and when he gets his 4yr degree

he will have saved six figures

and have stellar credit

and a California university degree

and i taught him how to invest

he has an impressive

yet conservative

portfolio

which some years

pisses him off

and let me assure you

with what's happening

he didn't even notice

so

being raised on both sides of a coin

being independent and fearless

it will be intriguing

to see what squirt does

because he would have the wisdom of my missteps

know quality

value

wealth

struggle

loss

trauma

shame

compassion

heart

heartlessness

murderers

whores

buttfaces

freaks

adventure

travel

history

culture

it will be very interesting

to see what squirt does

 

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some folks would prefer games

like i teach him marksmanship

but not paintball or airsoft

so money buys him a painball gun

but not the friends to shoot at

quad rentals in palm springs are a pittance

and painball pants have alot of protection

think she was happy he wore em in the dirt

where are paintball wars played

 

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wasn't personal

i was gambling on my own

payin the bills

fixin my credit

too cheap

to not fill a round hole

with dirt

 

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the adrenaline of losing ten thousand dollars

can kill alot of pain

 

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and my g liked the chambru... what's that cow called

and them remembering her name

and the comps

the suits

the sunset lounges

and vip check in

n free haha shitty vodka