So it's about 0500
I did get another hr nap
But besides
Y'all know I work day n night
The beast speaks in lies
Perception pov
Like saying the sun is green
Let it pass
I engaged it
They hear nothing
U point out facts
They say look over there
What about that
SMALL fire
To them
Another lie
Perspective
She has only her feelings
And has zero concerns about penny calling the fuzz
When the beast is yelling them to u
Does elaborating and proving their feelings absurd
Change absurdity your correctness or their incorrectness
It's how they feel
It's up to them and no feeling is a lie
At 0500
Is she on the roof in the dark
Would she like me to b
See the lack of logic in them
Am I a roofer
Am I a mud guy
Is their credit for trying to learn
The beast continuously saying
As my mother has
She prefers me dying next to her
Have I not been doing so
Read the fucking history
Here
Have I not been learning trades to fix her home
Can u guess what I kept hearing
What
A
B
O
U
Tic
O
K
ME
it's a recurring theme that reverberates throughout history
Yet
It doesn't work so well
We're allegedly supercomputers
Computers linked
Ever heard of the world wide web
They're more efficient when linked
When money is subtracted
Linked computers improve the quality of life
Knowledge
Wisdom
Using search engines
We delete redundancy
U don't have to become an emt
To learn life saving techniques on YouTube
In an emerging
Or normal situation
U just skipped how many years of homework
To not b entirely incompetent
Should someone require aid.
Linked minds... creating efficiencies
Ginger has always said n known
It was my money
Had my back
She gives me shit, from time to time...
...out the other ear
At 0500
6years ago
I knew
100k would never b enough
We all like to point fingers.
Who smokes
Too
Who knows we quit on multicultivar oils
Without killing each other
That's will power
I could continue to list her shiny shit
We have because those were her priorities
I don't have a tablet
Her Samsung was top of the line in 2015ish
We ignore when we point
Yes I have a ton of bullshit
Give away lots of it
She doesn't contribute with cash
She doesn't pay the billz
And yet I could not do my current life
I love
Without er
So y at 0500
Would we bother with a discussion
She will do nothing to change
But go back to sleep
Polysemy...
She speaks as though I've been at a club all day
And
What about "me"; meaning her
The resounding recurring reverberating theme
Well
My day began with a monster
24hrs later
Same
I separated from the conflict n calmed her many times over n leaving and comforting texts
Phone freaks me...
So I checked on bitchgoat and mocha the burro
Then I returned to the club, having stopped en route to johnnyz
Thinking she was at the club.
She wouldn't b in til around 1500
To confirm with
While at the club
I helped clean
Helped the day's chef, cleaned the auxiliary meeting and attended the end.
I met with Sally the top dogg in a couple clubs. A very charitable woman.
I linked the charity people to her
FINALLY!
including myself
Apparently she could use her driveway dug out.
It's az country...
We have many n mostly
Dirt roads
Like living in history
Sally has been informed of gingerz new future
An opioid and cannabis research home for both
Hairy and furry friends
And that my expectation is these charities I contribute to and link
Support my girl
As long as she continues to earn by giving until it's her turn
A need
Not a shiny want
Ginger doesn't know how chloride and those who dare
Operate
Your money means nothing
Your reputation buys u the world
And when one makes sure everyone else has eaten before one sits down
One actually eats better and amongst heroes n friends
She doesn't realize
A man who does very well
Made her $5 dinner
Last night
I would assume an accredited 5 diamond chef
His lovely wife Kim
Makes phenom deserts
and Robert teaches me pool
As he did, yesterday
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The faqs about price
Many factors
Means it ain't simply ten factors an hour
She gets to learn from at least 5 ranked players I know of
And the people who beat them
So I helped people to their cars, welcomed new members
I took 4,or 5, meetings if u wanna call speaking to geniuses in the biz
Either retired medical professionals
The emt ranger and his holistic genius wife
Another one who knew brain working, and parts/ecs which can b poked by pot
Met with lara who provides eggs
And finally met the district commander
Got some intel for vet suicide prevention
Shared research intel n ideas
Had one pit
Two pitchers from noon til dush
5hrs
As many beers
Well below .08, as well as .04 bal
I had to c Larry the roofer
He wouldn't come
I needed the richies number and
Ummm
To tell the latest poopoo, especially since he's an animal spoiler
It's a modicum of manipulation
He wants me to have a fence
In the event he dies
It's an investment property it's gingers home
U want it fenced
Fucking buy one n teach me how to build one for someone else
So ginger can work with animals
Too
Sooo I told ltr- tomorrow...
And dug out n pulled n drove some strangers out of a wash. Turns out, well.... u saw...
N then I returned home around 8, or 9
From the beasts perspective
I was at a bar all day
She points out
Just like when she met me
She said some other noise
Stuff about what she n her associates
Say n think about me
Ya gotta let it go
It's human nature
It's always cool when we hear people talk up their friends n associates
Behind someone else's back
It reflects well on their character
So what she is saying
Is the way she n her peeps
Choose to spend their lives
Is enjoying how generous gingerz man is
He must b very successful because I don't understand him
He's fat
Ugly
Stupid
Crazy
So let's spend our time
Talking about what we wish we could b doing and with whom
And those who allege they're unhappy about it
It reflects however it does
On their character
Not mine
Except that the ones who are unhappy
Are speaking out of envy
Or desire
Or selfishness
Greed
Pick one positive
Anyway
Then I shared her leftovers
[I bought 2, wanted a taste n would've had soup
It's cheaper
2$ a day
Took about 4hr sleep
N continued studying n trying to share the intel
Another he nap
And I addressed the beast for u to c
How it is
Detoxing someone off opioids
O sure
She threatened many things
Making better choices was one threat
I said goodnight to the beast n said
I hope so
She didn't mean with me
But we all know what would happen if she left
We know I'm good either way
But she compliments me
When she is present
Y'all know my preferences
And so goith the beast
No need to address the beast
No need to focus on beastly noises
As u can c
With all her threats n unhappiness about the gaping hole n our roof
That's already paid for for her
She's still here
It's not very realistic to think Larry the roofer could do it today
My half the construction charity
I don't fucking work weekend
I'm taking monday off for a vegas vacation
There's chic booze drugs n alot of ducky poopoo to do in vegas
Essentially the beast is saying
She'd like Larry the roofer and his hands currently in alot of pain cause I fucking asked my man
And Monday ish
I'll b escorting him to the vegas valley for laser eye surgery
The reason she ate smoked n wiped her ass n pointed fingers these last two months
Our community gave me side jobs so she would feel nothing while I took showers [septic] n washed any shit off n ate 1 soup a day
Plenty of cigs n prolly a total of 30 beers over a month (the last 2) of my money
As we say
Obviously
I'm going to make her a very wealthy woman
If she stops pointing
Puts her back into helping others
Or I won't find her attractive anymore
She's always been about other people
I'm speaking to opioids
Currently
My gaping hole has mylar over it
Pot cross tech
An extra roll of insulation behind it
N when she takes the time to keep it sealed
The thermal properties of mylar r sick
And we don't have space shuttle materials, nor budget
But it's dark
It's 0600
Shouldn't we b doing something fun!?
I guess I'll just jerk off
