Actually i kinda quit daily smoking. Im only smoking at night now since all the family drama unfolded.
I think this is an opportunity for me to reshape my life and be a better man for my family. Real talk.
Good deal guy. You need to deal with your anger it's not healthy for you or your family. Maybe take mittens advice.
Trust me I have my anger issues too. Probably what helped me the most was analyzing why I was so pissed. Usually money, ego, pride, or I Wasn't getting what I want oh yeah and sex. Ect Ect.
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I am 100% gonna take his advice.
Social services got involved and i requested from our case worker that our counselling be mandatory so we HAVE to make it happen.
Im just a little shit, sure, but my mind is a cruel place to me, my inner judge makes my daily pretty hard to face. I feel like some counseling will help me deal with that anger. Before i drive myself off a cliff, hopefully. We all got problems
Im just extremely aware of mine and want nothing more than to change to be a good man for my fam. This whole experience made me realize how unhappy i was before they were in my life. Sure i was busy, plenty of work, projects, fun, friends, endeavors, adventures, etc.... But none of it gave me satisfaction at the end of the day. Nothing like this.
I think ita funny that i came to the farm to learn how to grow weed. And ended up learning how important family was haha