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Fresh Run. Fresh Room

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Fresh Run. Fresh Room

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See what i mean. My buddys help ground me. Wether it be real life or here, experience from older wiser dudes really humbles me and helps me gain perspective.

Life is a lesson. Whatever it was for yall, stupidity seems to be lodged right in there for me as well. @mittenmedgrow i can relate big time. Im very internal, constantly churning, concerning, weighing, optioning, imagining, struggling with myself. Anger is something i struggle with big time. Being 27 i feel shitty that i havent grown up enough to keep my shit straight. I felt it coming. I just didnt avoid it. I dove right in like an idiot.

@G gnome @Papa Indica your right, and i feel like this back and fourth has been going on for over a year now. Shits got to the point where i think were making each others lives worse just by being around each other. I love this woman to death but i cant keep doing this to her, i cant keep losing my temper and having shouting matches while the kids can hear.

The older girl, shes 9. She just starts screaming mommy and crying...it was fucked up dude.

There was a moment where i felt like a monster. And i feel bad for them...you know? Like its getting worse. Not better.

Anyways. I appreciate all the love guys i really do. Every word of wisdom is taken in and considered, appreciated and stored. I appreciate you guys, this weird collection of growers and smokers just trying to talk to some like minded folks. Id like to keep the vibes positive and all that, hope the fresh fam is doing well tonight.
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Bro, there are people, my wife first among them, that would tell you I was the angriest person they ever met. With everything I went through in my childhood on to just shit luck from there throughout life, (other than having my wife and kids), I fucking hated the world and just about everything in it. Luckily, I was able to connect with my wife enough that it was like us against the world. I'm not gonna pretend everything was all peaches and cream with us, believe me, we had more than our share of problems, mostly coming back to my issues. We were always like minded in how we did things with/around our kids though but, they saw plenty of my anger unfortunately, it was just directed at everything else, like, everything. I know that the only thing that saved us at times was that we both shared the same beliefs in the kids not having a broken home and that the marriage vows were not something to be taken lightly, you're taking a vow, that should still mean something in this world, ya know?
The one good thing that's come from me having this disease is me having to slow down and take a good look at my life and myself, it settled me down a lot and I keep working toward being better. That's what life is, at least for most of us, work. Work and a series of ups and downs. All you can do is keep striving bro.
 
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