i'm in the same boat, going down (or is it up?) that creek!
it's hard to see others doing so well with their grows, while we struggle hard.
i tend to be 'half-empty', not 'half full' type - i'm still struggling with my first indoor grow(s), where I have toiled to get towards my first harvest from my tent. i look at the current crop in my tent, and see so many deficiencies in my growing skills.
that half empty perspective is that others are doing well, while I struggle hard.
flip it over to the other perspective, the 'half-full' - at least it's not empty - view is that we're on the path toward becoming more self-sufficient, producing better quality/yield. and this path of ours is one where we gotta all walk by ourselves, with any outside guidance accepted. so, if you're gonna make any comparison, better to compare your previous efforts with current/future efforts - rather than comparing yourself to others. and if you're making improvements - not doing the same thing, expecting different results - you're heading towards the goal.
i have to talk myself to be 'half-full'.
hang in there, it should get easier...maybe you're half-empty type, like me.
you're 'half-full' type.