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If my thoughts have changed then I have changed. I have become too dim witted to figure out if I can control the thoughts. The thoughts, and probably to some extent my actions or lack of actions, are causing physical pain. I’m not well. And I’m not sure that I was ever that intelligent to begin with. But that’s ok, because I don’t really join the race anymore. Nothing to prove. I just want to take care of my business before I’m gone.
Today I am guilty of preventing me from making money, and tomorrow I will be accused of not helping to earn even more. Do you think there is a chance to remain innocent?))) I don't think so.Reed is not a medicine, but by the 40th day, he is strong enough to talk to himself and laugh at his own jokes.
I want to smoke some ripe reeds, but it's so damn strong that it makes me unable to walk normally for 12 hours. I've gotten used to not smoking much, and that's a good sign. If my thoughts have changed, then I've changed.
This is the most difficult thing, you want one thing, but you have to do another, because what you want is not right. What is right and what is not right is not difficult to understand, of course, that's why it's so difficult to do what is right and easy to do what you want. But even if you balance, you will still make mistakes. I don't have problems with women because there are no women, and I don't have problems with drugs because there are no drugs, maybe? Or maybe there is nothing because I already have enough problems? It's confusing, and I'm going to take another hit.
If my thoughts have changed then I have changed. I have become too dim witted to figure out if I can control the thoughts. The thoughts, and probably to some extent my actions or lack of actions, are causing physical pain. I’m not well. And I’m not sure that I was ever that intelligent to begin with. But that’s ok, because I don’t really join the race anymore. Nothing to prove. I just want to take care of my business before I’m gone.I do not smoke, but I eat my oils. They will work soon, they will stop some of the burning, but they won’t really fix anything. I have a problem with drugs, and that is that they don’t do what I was expecting anymore. I have many problems too, so we have that in common, but that is something we all share? Though I cannot control anything anymore, I do request that there be kindness. It has been lacking, and I am not strong enough to tame demons anymore. I’m not sure if the world will grant this, it sometimes has and sometimes has not, but I know it’s going to go down however it does without my say so.Today I am guilty of preventing me from making money, and tomorrow I will be accused of not helping to earn even more. Do you think there is a chance to remain innocent?))) I don't think so.Reed is not a medicine, but by the 40th day, he is strong enough to talk to himself and laugh at his own jokes.
I want to smoke some ripe reeds, but it's so damn strong that it makes me unable to walk normally for 12 hours. I've gotten used to not smoking much, and that's a good sign. If my thoughts have changed, then I've changed.
This is the most difficult thing, you want one thing, but you have to do another, because what you want is not right. What is right and what is not right is not difficult to understand, of course, that's why it's so difficult to do what is right and easy to do what you want. But even if you balance, you will still make mistakes. I don't have problems with women because there are no women, and I don't have problems with drugs because there are no drugs, maybe? Or maybe there is nothing because I already have enough problems? It's confusing, and I'm going to take another hit.![]()