Keep your head up brother! Just like the good, it comes and it goes.
Getting my perpetual set up back up and running has been one thing after another. The first three "ladies" that I put into flower all started throwing pollen sacs around the 2nd week of flowering, all staggered by 1 week. Probably has something to do with me battling high temperatures in flowering, but also genetics. The first two were random seeds that I received with my order, but this last one was a Strawberry Diesel Cookie from Oni Seed Co that I paid $150 a pack for. I was just starting to pick a stud out of my males to make F2s with. I trashed the female and all cuttings of her and all of the fucking males and all cuttings of them. Luckily none of my Tropicanna Cookie F2 females have thrown pollen sacs, as that is the cultivar that I made the purchase for originally.
On a positive note, I took 28 cuttings from 14 different plants today and life is beautiful! I have to keep reminding myself that I am working towards dialing my grow and wrenches being thrown in my operation are all a part of that. Especially when you grow as many seeds from as many different cultivars at a time as I do. Positive vibes...
~nugzz