See what i mean. My buddys help ground me. Wether it be real life or here, experience from older wiser dudes really humbles me and helps me gain perspective.
Life is a lesson. Whatever it was for yall, stupidity seems to be lodged right in there for me as well. @mittenmedgrow i can relate big time. Im very internal, constantly churning, concerning, weighing, optioning, imagining, struggling with myself. Anger is something i struggle with big time. Being 27 i feel shitty that i havent grown up enough to keep my shit straight. I felt it coming. I just didnt avoid it. I dove right in like an idiot.
@G gnome @Papa Indica your right, and i feel like this back and fourth has been going on for over a year now. Shits got to the point where i think were making each others lives worse just by being around each other. I love this woman to death but i cant keep doing this to her, i cant keep losing my temper and having shouting matches while the kids can hear.
The older girl, shes 9. She just starts screaming mommy and crying...it was fucked up dude.
There was a moment where i felt like a monster. And i feel bad for them...you know? Like its getting worse. Not better.
Anyways. I appreciate all the love guys i really do. Every word of wisdom is taken in and considered, appreciated and stored. I appreciate you guys, this weird collection of growers and smokers just trying to talk to some like minded folks. Id like to keep the vibes positive and all that, hope the fresh fam is doing well tonight.
