well im riding a interesting mental trip. from being just sick and not giving a damn, to just being sick and confused, and sick and angry. thankfully the weed killed that anger shit in the ass quick and also helps stable my thinking for today at least, ill deal with tomorrow when im dry.... my problem is i have lived in my head for the last 15 years.. so i fucking over thinking everything. and lets face it sometimes we need to just turn that thinking shit off for proper mental health and shit. i hate the idea of becoming some hate full son of a bitch.. so yeah, hope that was just one of them chemical imbalances fucking my train of thought up. laughs.
here is to another day and i can deaf tell the withdrawals are easing up some.. i did throw up dis morning, but no dry heaving... i feel a bit better than before.. after a bong hit i feel good for the most part. yeah i would be a liar if i said i felt no withdrawal shit.. but the thing is the weed sure makes it fucking easy to ignore. heh. so i bet this time next week i should be through the worse of it.
i hope by throwing this out there it may help someone else, as this is something that you could experience.. it seems everyone is different ( not getting very high off weed, so far.. i hope you do not go through this. for me i think why i did not feel herb when i first started. the pain meds were acting the same as taking aspirin to bring you high down. laughs. however, if you do not feel anything from the herb at first.. give it a chance as you come down on your doses you will start to feel it. i figure you may come away with a high tolerance for herb, but since the cells or neurons whatever the fuck they are called which are ready to process THC, are already built into our DNA it seems.. i can not see it not working over time. i digress im a stupid redneck. im to fucking lazy to hit up wiki for some kind of Prof.. explanation.. laughs. also take note. the pain meds mask a lot of every day pains and aches you will not experience. which will make just being awake hell, but this goes away, you just have to start walking. or i think that is what has help me with that aspect. ). i hope you do not have the same symptoms as I.. my body is taking it pretty hard. laughs. im just a pussy i guess, o well. hard to be a man walking tall if you never had to crawl.
man i feel for all these people who are gonna get fucked by the new rules coming in.. hope they are all strong enough to pull through. opiates are not good for long term use. short term, etc i think is how they should be used.. or hell i dunno, just high and thinking out loud.
im half way through this book "the one straw method" in the early chapter he talks about how he has been putting out this info for decades and even did a few tv shows. so i looked on youtube, sure enough found one.. the sound engineer should be fucking fired but other wise you can hear them fine and it just makes the book come to life. :D thanks again for the recommendation dog D:
rock on,
chris.