Always Maintain Positivity. I got the anagram confused but same sentiment. :)
yeah i know who i am at the moment is not me.. but i still just want these withdrawals to end. i wish i was rich it sure would make this shit easier.. or hell maybe they actually gave a shit for cripples and discount or something.. but that aint happening. hah. have to make that buck yo! if i was working hell if i could work more like it. .. it would not be quite as bad.. but yea im trying.. anyhow
if anyone out there is gonna get off pills.. all i will say is make sure you have enough fire stocked up for a month and lots of strong edibles.. it will make your process much easier. and probably heal faster since you wont have these mental breaks when you run out.. which are not good. hah.
just fucked in the head i am i guess. i had meds all month with pills, herb not so much. and it really makes life hard. sure pills have there problems im well aware of now.. but fuck at least they help take the edge of the chronic pain. so yeah, its just chronic pain, throw in withdrawals.. and then the chemical imbalance in my brain from the lack of opiate chemicals which it has lived off for 15 years. what makes things tough for me is i use half of my brain to help deal with my pain.. then you throw withdrwls into it and chemical imbalance.. yeah im mentaly taxed.. not slept worth a fuck in 15 years, hoping a night time dab w ill cure that.
but see i have to look forward to all this and hope it helps.. but i do not know for sure.
so i dunno man. it is what it is i guess. i probably should of never crawled.. would of saved me years of grief. hah. but no, stupid me.. had to be that guy to find help, instead of shutting my eyes and falling asleep like a baby. hell i died for a minute and half and saw no light. hah.. i saw all that crazy shit when iw as crawling from lack of blood.
anyhow, smoke up for me.. i know i need it. hah.. in much need of attitude adjustment.
iv also decided im just gonna go with the Nor Easter X
Chemdog 91 for my first 4 plants.. they were the freebie.. i think i will get what i want out of them to kick my ass. the stargate og looks good with a indica leaning pheono.
hard part is gonna be cloning i guess. as i really have no space or cash so im gonna be building some ghetto veg thing using CLF i guess.
well if i fail , so be it.. at least i tried.
chris.