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Man I already liked you now I know why. A month ago I buried my dad. 20 years as a paramedic left him ruined with PTSD. I tried to get him to switch from the cocktail of bullshit the doctors had him on to flower medicine but he was religious and had too many judgments around 'drugs'. Ironic for a guy that was taking literally 20 of them a day. After 15 years it took him down.

Anyone who spends their life working in service has my respect mate. Here's to the medicine and I'm so sorry...feel free to come along!
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I used to run 6 photos at at a time. Running these autos allows me to harvest every month and half or so. I use alot and seem to griw immune unless I swap genetics. It seems to work for me. Its my personal medicine and I enjoy the variety.
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You have to treat it like medicine. That means taking your dose and not keep on smoking all day long. When you take your next hit early, you teach yourself to give in to the pain. You need to resist it, not because it will enslave you in a different kind of addiction, which it will, but because resisting it strengthens your will power and your mental health.
I try not to have any before at least 12 noon. That helps me to remind myself who is in charge, me or the smoke. I also go 2 or 3 days without every month to keep me off the addict side and on the medicine side.
 
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I have had failed attempts also, dealt with a lot of anxiety and have been told I'm probably on the spectrum for whatever that's worth. I live in a very illegal state but I'm not going to roll the dice with psychotropic drugs when I can grow a plant that makes it all work.

Like yourself, I went into growing because I was sick of over paying for my weed, and what is available here is garbage. I have been pleasantly surprised to find that the process itself is so therapeutic - all the things that I see a lot of people talking about as the drudgery of the job are just the kind of repetitive, rhythmic tasks that my overactive mind craves! I'm on my first grow so I haven't been in trim jail yet but it holds no fear for me 😅

I decided to go straight to a trellis net for my first grow, and I'm in there every night fan tucking, folding under, just generally being around them. I feel like they literally absorb my stress and anxiety like little shamans.

Some pics of my Green Crack girls, day 12 of flower. 🥰
 
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Nectarivorous said:
Man I already liked you now I know why. A month ago I buried my dad. 20 years as a paramedic left him ruined with PTSD. I tried to get him to switch from the cocktail of bullshit the doctors had him on to flower medicine but he was religious and had too many judgments around 'drugs'. Ironic for a guy that was taking literally 20 of them a day. After 15 years it took him down.

Anyone who spends their life working in service has my respect mate. Here's to the medicine and here's to you.
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Thanx. I appreciate that. And here's to your Dad, I understand him. I had much the same issue for years, then I finally realized that they were feeding me a line. Since then, Doctors usually don't like me much. I call them on everything. If they don't know more about it than I do, then they are not qualified to give me anything.
 
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I have had failed attempts also, dealt with a lot of anxiety and have been told I'm probably on the spectrum for whatever that's worth. I live in a very illegal state but I'm not going to roll the dice with psychotropic drugs when I can grow a plant that makes it all work.

Like yourself, I went into growing because I was sick of over paying for my weed, and what is available here is garbage. I have been pleasantly surprised to find that the process itself is so therapeutic - all the things that I see a lot of people talking about as the drudgery of the job are just the kind of repetitive, rhythmic tasks that my overactive mind craves! I'm on my first grow so I haven't been in trim jail yet but it holds no fear for me 😅

I decided to go straight to a trellis net for my first grow, and I'm in there every night fan tucking, folding under, just generally being around them. I feel like they literally absorb my stress and anxiety like little shamans.

Some pics of my Green Crack girls, day 12 of flower. 🥰
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Wow! Your miles above me! Very impressive
 
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Yeah pharmaceuticals suck...especially opiates..I actually live in the infamous hillbilly heroin area..and now there's meth and other crap...how depressing seeing these poor souls...tremendous suffering...I believe in easing end of life pain but I saw 20 year olds in the methadone clinic...and they make you you give up cannabis for that poison..I gained 100 pounds and was passing out..cannabis saved my life! Saw a thing on Vineland on rso and never looked back! I never got past flower though..
Interesting. When I quit it was only brick weed. 10 years later I found all this wonders world 9f strains and all that! Wow what a ride!
 
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Thanx. I appreciate that. And here's to your Dad, I understand him. I had much the same issue for years, then I finally realized that they were feeding me a line. Since then, Doctors usually don't like me much. I call them on everything. If they don't know more about it than I do, then they are not qualified to give me anything.
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Yeah they used to hate it when I came along with him. Would call them on anything they couldn't actually provide evidence for. Half of the psychiatrists prescribing him were more fucked up than he was. So glad I don't have to deal with them.
 
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I was on Hydrocodone 15s for almost 10 years when we got into a traffic accident. I walked around with broken ribs for days nearly crying. I had quit the hydros cold turkey because I knew I had to care for @BionicKroniK when she came home from the hospital. The physical withdrawl alone was... there are no words.

We have both had to detox ourselves from the 'legal drugs'. It's not fun, it hurts and we understand. If you ever need to get it off your chest, DM either of us. Ladies feel free to DM @BionicKroniK and guys, We do get it and we do care.
 
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Its not the dosage I started out on 7.5 hydro and ended up on 120mg of methadone...these fancy pharmaceuticals change your brain chemistry...I've had psychotic breaks and suffer from insonnia..Xanax make you mean..nature is my only cure I think.
 
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I just hope this helps someone. I feel kind of foolish blabbering on to people on here sometimes. I will calm down its just been a rough few months. I found a place that welcomed me and made me feel good about myself when I absolutely needed it most. I'm hoping to leave a story that just might return the favor. Tomorrow's another day. I have seeds in the mail since Thursday from DC seed except. Witch doctor autoflower. I'm still figuring this forum thing out..I hope I didn't bother anyone.
 
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