Dirty Little Box

boy do i love clean ladies....
looking great dwb

Thanks bro.....

But no more updates, I'm pulling it down. I'm so Fucking depressed I can't hardly blink. I. Prolly gunna end up hanging myself or blowing my brains out sometime this week. Really don't want plants in the house out of respect too the others I live with.

Well been a interesting couple years on this board.

Soo long amigos.

Dirty White Boy said:

Thanks bro.....

But no more updates, I'm pulling it down. I'm so Fucking depressed I can't hardly blink. I. Prolly gunna end up hanging myself or blowing my brains out sometime this week. Really don't want plants in the house out of respect too the others I live with.

Well been a interesting couple years on this board.

Soo long amigos.

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Enough of that talk.....theres always a solution brutha! one door shuts another will open...
get some rest and tomorrows a new day
D

Dr. Evil said:

Enough of that talk.....theres always a solution brutha! one door shuts another will open...
get some rest and tomorrows a new day
D

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Your right.....I think I broke two knuckles, certainly gunna need a stitch or two..I shoulda followed yall up there...

Whoa....what happened? You ok?

Eh, I need to learn to control myself a little better. And I need too not drink. Trying to figure out which med state im gunna hop off too. Anyone got any opinions on which one would be best?

Plants are blowing up. Outrageously dense.

Dirty White Boy said:

Thanks bro.....

But no more updates, I'm pulling it down. I'm so Fucking depressed I can't hardly blink. I. Prolly gunna end up hanging myself or blowing my brains out sometime this week. Really don't want plants in the house out of respect too the others I live with.

Well been a interesting couple years on this board.

Soo long amigos.

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I recently lost a buddy who committed suicide. All I can say, is to please think about the positive things in your life, and try to remember that the grass is always greener...wherever you water it...

Make a plan, and stick to it. The only person that can truly help you out is yourself. There is SO MUCH out there that this life has to offer. You've just gotta find it.

You've always got someone to talk to out here in Cali. Don't hesitate to shoot me a PM if you wanna talk.

Keep your head up.

cali bro. the final frontier....

whatupdoc said:

I recently lost a buddy who committed suicide. All I can say, is to please think about the positive things in your life, and try to remember that the grass is always greener...wherever you water it...

Make a plan, and stick to it. The only person that can truly help you out is yourself. There is SO MUCH out there that this life has to offer. You've just gotta find it.

You've always got someone to talk to out here in Cali. Don't hesitate to shoot me a PM if you wanna talk.

Keep your head up.

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Ill take you up on that, check your box for a pm tonight, muchas gracias!

E.T. said:

cali bro. the final frontier....

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Thats what I was thinking......hmm. Time to bust out the map. Your a good dude E.T.

glad you didn't pull your crop DWB. You can drink but not smoke pot, crazy world ain't it???
plz. remember suicide is a permanent solution to a usually temporary problem.
peace mogrow

Mogrow said:

glad you didn't pull your crop DWB. You can drink but not smoke pot, crazy world ain't it???
plz. remember suicide is a permanent solution to a usually temporary problem.
peace mogrow

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Well this crop is not for me. Not fair too just fuck someone else over cause I feel sad. Im a fucking man, suck it up. Move on. How I fucking wish I could smash a bowl of hash, and torch a few hooters.......drool. Soon But eh, Im saving myself a nice little collection for when I can.

My mom committed suicide last year on April 1st. Kinda weird. Prolly shouldnt follow stereotypes......although she was a drunk too.

Well I am certainly glad to see you posting here. I wasn't sure we would ever see an update on what was happening. I am glad to hear things are looking a bit better; we all have bad days, I am sorry that one was so bad, but glad to see you have gotten through it. I am also glad to see you didn't tear down the grow. It is a generous thing you are doing by growing it for a person in need.

As for med states, I might try Montana, Oregon and Washington, in that order. But that is just me. There is always Hawaii, the most beautiful place on earth.

Man If I could move anywhere at this point it would be San Francisco or Estes Park, CO, but Seattle and Portland have way more reasonable cost of living. Idk. decisions decisions!

Getting ma thin on! Now the fun part 3 weeks of watching them get floppy!

fish is better for ya ;)

Well Im calling today my 10 day countdown. Damn this tent smells amazing.

Beautiful man. Amazing for t5s.

E.T. said:

Beautiful man. Amazing for t5s.

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I appreciate it bro.

E.T. said:

Beautiful man. Amazing for t5s.

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Amazing for any light. DWB those are some beautiful nugs that are going to make your patient very, very happy. It really is a wonderfully kind thing you are doing donating those meds to a patient in need. I hope the future will bring some more great grows from you.

Smoking Gun said:

Amazing for any light. DWB those are some beautiful nugs that are going to make your patient very, very happy. It really is a wonderfully kind thing you are doing donating those meds to a patient in need. I hope the future will bring some more great grows from you.

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Thank you Smoking Gun. Sadly I wont be growing for sometime after this. Im glad I went out on a high note. My issue now is just finding a place to stay, room too rent idk...........

Haha...High note.

I am sorry to hear about your issues, I have been there before. I know you have a lot of karma coming your way so keep your head up, your thoughts positive, and I can assure you good things will be happening for you soon. Although times may seems tough now, those times will pass and one way or another you will come out on top in the end. I too am not growing now, in fact its been 2 years since I have grown Cannabis (I still have my veggie garden) due to circumstances. I am still here and actually earning a new bachelors degree, so things in my life are far from bad even though things are not even close to how I had imagined them. I am sure you will find your way through these tough times, and remember don't hesitate to ask for help, otherwise it will never come.

Just a thought, have you considered turning your Cannabis garden into a veggie garden? There is a possible source of income for you, and you wouldn't even need to make any changes to your gardening space.