This isn't going out to you jipp....
But..... relapsing happens. Who knows it might be a part of the process but I don't know.
As long as your moving forward.... making positive steps and choices your going to get there man.
Hope you feel better dude. I have heard of PAWS before I think it's called. Not really withdraws but maybe the memory of those withdraws.
In a few weeks I will have two years off opiates. Second year is way better than the first but at the year mark I was doing ok.....haha till I broke my ankle.
Fuck me man.... I was so terrified of going to the ER and having them give me pills.... I didn't go and WALKED around on a broken, swollen, purple ankle- foot- leg for five weeks.... until it started to heal.... then BROKE again.
Then I went to the doctors. No pills just pain.
You will get there Jipp....
Your mind is sometimes your worst enemy...
What do u mean u didnt know oxys were what they r? Ignorant? No, deluded.
So in the last year u haven't taken any maintenance medications, or had a single relapse?
I guess i was just a resourceful junky...idk\
i have not had a relapse, hell i was stuck behind my desk for 3 months or whatever i could not even move. i get 500.00 a month, i cant ven afford weed how the fuck coul,d i find street drugs even if i knew someone. yeah man, nothing.. just weed.
yeah man i have not had a relasps or any kind of that meds.. iv only had weed.
deledued i am.
I guess i was just a resourceful junky...idk
Since when did lack of funds ever stop an addict from getting high?
Good to hear ur doin it man!
I personally think that relapsing is part of the process. I fucked up time and time again b4 i got right. It definitely sets u back but ime its all part of coming out of it.
I lost everything in the process and am still rebuilding but my life is better than ever now w about 6yrs clean.
it stopped me from it.
Cudnt say it better man...its hard to be honest w urself...def the biggest hurdle6 yrs.... fuck yeah dude. High five and a hug.
The mind fuck is pretty terrible getting off that shit. Especially if your truly in some kind of physical pain. Now your in withdraws and truly hurting.
Your mind will tell you it's ok... your doctor gave them to you.... it's for pain..... your not a drug addict.
It's so insidious. Sometimes your mind or other self is your enemy. At least where opiates are concerned.
In the five years before I finally quit I tried numerous times to stop putting those pills in my body. It always ended in failure, sadness and ultimately just more pain.
I am not sure if drug treatment centers work or not. Never been to one. But.... I am a FIRM believer that nobody and I mean NOBODY can do it for you. Not your wife, girlfriend, kids, whatever.
You got to reach real fucking deep and figure out just why your taking whatever your taking.
For me..... I knew I needed to get pretty fucking deep.... cause I was really really addicted to opiates.
Psychedelics always played a part in my younger years and I always knew deep down there was a purpose and real need for these substances.
So.... I took a rather large dose of LSD and I changed my life.
Keep moving forward Jipp....
Whatever u gotta tell urself....wish u cud hear how u soundi8 wont fucking call the shit withdrawals then..
im sick from the damage from the pills, is that ok with you?
i look at this in a difrent way than most i guess,you said it right there,gnome has a point,,im talking about me here,ive gone threw enough shit in my life for several others,i LOVE GETTING HIGH and even broke a doctor would provide me with a happy high,i made it into a regretful high,when i got to 8 a day,with age and stupid ,the body not only breaks down ,it shows it,,addicted hell no on any drug or fluid i have done ,and in every method ,other than neddles,,so it is your choice what you do and how ,along with how much,because down to the nut,even if you didnt know what they were you enjoyed how they made you feel first time,and all drugs are designed to keep you buying all your day,,abuse is more like it,WE ALL GUILTY made the desicion like men and women to do what we likeit stopped me from it.
first baby step,congradsi8 wont fucking call the shit withdrawals then..
im sick from the damage from the pills, is that ok with you?
ok, im proud of this plant.
blue cookies deserves his own page for a few posts, anyhow instead of being tossed in the back ground.
so, here is blue cookies from @SimplyCmplex. grab some they are good. :p
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