Can You Help A Brother Out?

[Limonene]

Did someone mention ass?

 

[scoop]

I probably shouldn't have even posted this, I didn't mean to make anyone feel like I was calling them out, I just got a little turned off out by the way shit went down over there. I'm totally grateful for the couple people over there that did help me out, I wouldn't want to discount them and again, I never expected anyone to do something.
I'm starting to feel like an ass writing this shit, like I'm coming off as one of those young, entitled fucks that's never done shit for themselves, expecting someone else to do it for them and that's way off from who I am.
Feeling like I need to just put an end to the whole gofundme thing.

Freakin' love you guys, ya know? :happy:

I experienced a similar phenomenon when my oldest son passed, Papa. LOTS of PM's....offers of genetics/seeds/ and "anything I have is yours, my brother"kinda talk....and even though "growing" was the last fuckin thing on my mind at the time...I sent my personal mailing addy out to folks who had...I THOUGHT....offered to do what they could.

Not surprisingly...I never got a single fuckin seed/note/etc. from any of 'em.

I'm like you...I never expect anything from anyone else...and I forge ahead...alone in most instances (weed being one).

Even so...when the offers come and then the follow up falls fuckin aflat on it's face...it makes this tune play in my head from time to time....

hold your head high...there's no shame in asking or receiving help.... there's only shame in offering and not following through....

 

[Seamaiden]

Talk comes cheap. That's why I don't talk about it, I just do it.

 

[G gnome]

Talk comes cheap. That's why I don't talk about it, I just do it.

That a girl! !!!

 

[Papa Indica]

I experienced a similar phenomenon when my oldest son passed, Papa. LOTS of PM's....offers of genetics/seeds/ and "anything I have is yours, my brother"kinda talk....and even though "growing" was the last fuckin thing on my mind at the time...I sent my personal mailing addy out to folks who had...I THOUGHT....offered to do what they could.

Not surprisingly...I never got a single fuckin seed/note/etc. from any of 'em.

I'm like you...I never expect anything from anyone else...and I forge ahead...alone in most instances (weed being one).

Even so...when the offers come and then the follow up falls fuckin aflat on it's face...it makes this tune play in my head from time to time....

hold your head high...there's no shame in asking or receiving help.... there's only shame in offering and not following through....

Yeah, that's some bullshit there. I don't get that shit, if I can't help then I'd say, 'I wish I could' but, if I say I'm gonna do it then I'm gonna do it, even if I run into some problems and it takes awhile, I'll get it done.
I guess these fuckers are going on the premise that "it's the thought that counts". Well, thoughts don't pop out of the soil, do they? Or supply the things we need.
So, the "thought" should probably remain just that if it isn't going to be backed up by action. When you're in a situation where you're feeling vulnerable and unsure it feels awkward and strange enough accepting someone's help, (for most of us anyway), without them dancing on your emotions some more by making you think they are going to help you only to leave you hanging. It's really kind of cruel when you look at it in those terms and I think especially in your case where you were mourning the loss of someone close, you're already hurting enough without adding some "hey we care about you.... psyche!". That's fucked up!
Not to mention it seems to me like they want the credit for being a good person from everyone else without actually having to be a good person. With everyone seeing that offer put out there it kinda leaves an impression of them being "cool". Whatever, posers. :shifty:

I really like that tune but, it's kinda fucked up that he's singing about walking alone while through the whole video he's walking with his two bandmates. ??? :facepalm: Someone didn't think that concept through too well.

 

[chickenman]

No posing here Pappa..
Got good things coming soon.......
check PM

 

[Papa Indica]

Thanks to the generosity of some people digging into their pockets and others donating items to me I've decided to delete the gofundme account. There are still some things that I need and things that I'd like to get done but, the whole point behind me starting this thing was that I was in a position where I felt desperate enough that I needed to ask for some help and I have gotten the help that I most needed so, I don't feel like I should be continuing it at this point.
I just can't say "Thank you" enough to all of you who were kind and generous enough to help me when I needed it and to make me feel like it was ok to be asking for your help when I was feeling about an inch tall.
It really was heartwarming to me to see the support that poured forth after my initial cry for help, when you're in the kind of condition that I am and constantly shut in it starts getting easy to feel like you're all alone and that people must not care about what you're going through but, I soon found that wasn't true.
Somehow the world looks just a little brighter. :joyful: