Study yourself — when do you like to smoke? What triggers it? Often, it's about getting over one moment of temptation.
Between 2000 and 2012, I jumped from job to job and had to pee in a cup often — each time requiring 30 days of abstinence from weed. For me, it was never the presence of weed or plants that triggered me to smoke — it was particular times of day. If that's the case for you, it could be much easier to grow and not indulge.
But if just seeing weed makes you want to smoke, growing it doesn't sound like it will work out.