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To everyone who smokes:
The other night I experienced some severe chest pain in the middle of a cigarette. I think it was probably not a huge deal--but I felt like I was having a heart attack.
This scared the fucking dog shit out of me and caused me to immediately renounce cigarettes.
I just wanted to share with you guys that smoking cigs is super cool until you are imminently scared that it might kill you. Then it's less relaxing and more akin to something that makes you feel like you're going to piss your pants.
The fear I have about this is enormous. I'm still waiting to see if my health insurance will reinstate me (separate issue) so that I can go get checked out. Every moment between now and then is an unbearable one--filled with unanswered questions and concerns over what I have done to myself (and also hyper-awareness of my heartbeat and breathing).
I want to help any of you avoid feeling this way if I can.
Put the cigarettes down now. They are not worth your life. Even if they were, they wouldn't be worth spending the rest of it in fear of losing it--which is all I've been able to do since Friday.
I'd almost rather BE dead than feel the way I do now.
Not only can this shit happen to you if you smoke, but it certainly will almost without question. Just a matter of when.
♥ you guys.
The other night I experienced some severe chest pain in the middle of a cigarette. I think it was probably not a huge deal--but I felt like I was having a heart attack.
This scared the fucking dog shit out of me and caused me to immediately renounce cigarettes.
I just wanted to share with you guys that smoking cigs is super cool until you are imminently scared that it might kill you. Then it's less relaxing and more akin to something that makes you feel like you're going to piss your pants.
The fear I have about this is enormous. I'm still waiting to see if my health insurance will reinstate me (separate issue) so that I can go get checked out. Every moment between now and then is an unbearable one--filled with unanswered questions and concerns over what I have done to myself (and also hyper-awareness of my heartbeat and breathing).
I want to help any of you avoid feeling this way if I can.
Put the cigarettes down now. They are not worth your life. Even if they were, they wouldn't be worth spending the rest of it in fear of losing it--which is all I've been able to do since Friday.
I'd almost rather BE dead than feel the way I do now.
Not only can this shit happen to you if you smoke, but it certainly will almost without question. Just a matter of when.
♥ you guys.