yeah, well... I'm not sure how i feel about the above.
i went to his house... man's in mourning. i guess i panicked. he oft gets morbid. EVERYONE i know he knows... has/had been vetted for pup availability and he really made it... unusual...
yes, EVERYONE has free will... i think it's wrong to manipulate; pull strings... especially, taking advantage of anyone's good nature; knowing... as much as a man doesn't want to live/however he felt without his pup... he also didn't want people to know and if u go missing for a week in a town that only has doors to open, working roofing, security gates
and lights in darkness because u keep em operational.... in the land of all things that kill and people go miihihihissing... people will notice and he told me, he didn't want peeps to know... seemed counterintuitive...
u know... i risk eating n shytting myself, on the road... with cloth seats i don't even think they make, anymore... broken cells... special circumstances (the forgotten rifle)... and cold Chinese buffet... all the time. i asked him to take me to a spiritual place, the day after... he survived and... i survived another cold buffet. the next day... took him to town n a hoopty that reeked of death. he survived and i... another, cold... Chinese buffet. next time, I'm bringing the laser thermom ($13ish) and showin them all... i know my temps and your egg foo, is not strong.
yep... might could break his heart... look, i tried ignoring panda express's cream cheese wontons, whilst drooling in the friedmein cocktail... ltr mixes... just...like...me... and i went out n smoked n gave panhandlers nothing... well, maybe stank eye... n went back n n drooled, sum mas... iiii don't think either of us were comfortable with it.
yeah... i just dunno how i feel about abusing trust, last night. perhaps it was what i needed and he came, anyway.
I've read that book. i know how it ends. he tells me he gets sore, if he doesn't work/stretch (my definition)... ain't been workin... imma go broke, if he doesn't start workin me, again. ;P ... for those who remember... i was drinking it away in a bar, so to speak... for those who don't... yes, that is what i would have u believe... should know me better, than that... but that... is what happened.
dood's 74... just lost his everything... whatcha think happens next? sure his choice... well... I'm not handy and a 1sq mi town, needs its guardian, back in action because i know of a gate issue and now a sink issue and y'all know if i touch it, it'll break. he was going to have to stretch, sooner, or later... they already left msgs of, HAY... I HAVE A LEAK... BEEN AWAY FOR A WHILE... EVERYTHING OK??? these people barter in best i can do, and a lil heart, like their roofs would cave, if they didn't... snow is forecast... we have fences to mend, leaks to fix; work to b done.
and i still dunno how i feel about what i did. ain't takin pity votes... just a me-thing.
u guys know my take on my neighbor. u know my take on the pup... i should've done something... more... takin action... ltr knows who i am... knows I'm not right... accepts all of me... as if every shard were precious... and i took action. he fixes things. well... I'm tryin... i am used to doing more harm than good. i did my best... =sat with him... stood with him. grieved... with him... and then, i did my best n a land where it is valued. because that's who i am. these r my people and this is where i came from.