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now
it
begins

peekaboo

 

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the biggest man
tree
house
mountain
planet
burning balls
eventually their
countenance
may no longer beheld
be held
looked upon
but as vast nothingness
ashes
blowing
falling from
the vast emptiness of
spread fingers
darkness
amongst diamonds
in the skies
the rough
the flats
across oceans
worlds
infinite
love
balance
gravity
-and happy endings

 

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i have no desire to grow pot
anymore
and yet
i will forever have to
awesome

 

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1500 g
cancer pre... ummm... ultra
moving airwaves
she thinks big c is back
i am not going to discuss
no pity
all of u four have serious n similar issues
just told from another
point of view

i am just trying to keep my head straight
through the doorway
all things that kill
town
colid co2
gaseous co2
no groceries
goosfraba
cyclical

 

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out of shower
laughed
ha
i beat you
figured I'd covered it all
remembered
memories of having washed
were not
with a white was cloth
nor had i even seen one, stolen from the comfort inn
in over a decade
hence the significance
and i found it intriguing that as i do not wear bling
never said i didn't have any frosting
i had warn Jimmy's safety sapphire
the day before his son died
and my grandfather's watch
because i needed the support of my loved ones
surrounding me
for balance
i
was
going
to lose
my shyt
and then
bryan
awesome

 

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so i walk out from behind the bar'd, 10x10

-g

coffee's ready

isn't that something

because it's... well, y'all know how much gravity, the phrase, has for me

the ones who offer us the most pain, as well as "pleasure"... not just secks, people...

are one and the same: humans
the ones we love the most
turns out

do u remember the color of your last server's eyes, who served you a cup of hoe? because eye dew.

 

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it is not about being unique in writing
all of these letters, existed, long b4 and after, we.
it's about getting the reader to pay attention to... people... not just details... to look deeper. when a person speaks to us, it is important they know we r listening to them, or they wouldn't have chosen us to b the ears that hear. we suspect that if one knows the pigmentation, in another's eyes... odds r, we are right where we're supposed to be
when
we r supposed to b there... because we care enough about the individual to note there's more going on than the earth's spinnin and even that, may have significance, at the time... so long as you're listening, closely enough
to hear; not tell.

as i explained to larry, my new definition of friend
it occurred to me, as he tries to protect me
that if one were to attempt to take advantage of me... well, truthfully, i am human... i have lil interest in those types of money grubbing whores and to help a stranger
more than once
well... one needs to get to know another, better... to know they need more than one "favor"... and to truly know, what that one thing is... one thing... that one may do... right... regardless of the cost... and that if that were the case... then, obviously, we wouldn't b strangers and one may have just made a new jimmy; a new... bff...

 

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c we know
that in telling the tired guy
"he needs to know he changed my life"
it's not about chris', giving me a number
he should know
I'll b too freaked to call
anyway
it is code for
"when u c your homeless, acquaintance,
again... YOU need to tell him..."

because YOU mean so much more to homeless people
one moving airwaves from your lips
right place
right person
right time

could cause this man to know
he needs to b a part of this world
and not just another grain of grand
canyon sand
to b brush from slippers
reentering a car with
blood, fur, shyt and the stench of death
he matters
he changes lives
sleeping in a culvert behind a Safeway

isn't that something

the next time he sees that man
he'll say
have ya heard from that crazy guy
u mean sc
y
do
u
ask

isn't that something

cyclical = probabilities

and
i
know
4+4

 

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the trip to pick up dozer...
i had to c a guy about some tires
we picked up dozer
together
on the fly
the vet couldn't have fielded a longer call
if she had tried
-how may i help you, sir

it's unfortunate
vets and their minions
techs
see these horrors
every day
in our town
vets come to your home
more often than not
and i thought
how funny
i will never forget her brown hair
brown eyes
as the world kept spinning
she has zero idea
who we are and why we're here
isn't that something
she's a hero
does for others
what means nothing
not nothing
but nothing
to her
it is the life of life and death she chose
and checks a singular box
so often
for so many
she doesn't even remember
moments that changed our lives
4+4ever
she is precious
not
indifferent

 

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then, as i stated I'd wait outside
so he wouldn't end up driving a car, i liked best...
i found myself saying
- where's the 2' tall, old man

in a pup rescue

do
you
really
expect me to go to a car dealership
when y'all know it's never enough and my g has always wanted a second, furry, vehicle...

did y'all really think i couldn't walk
loser row
with the other strange men and their sweaty, wadds of cash... and not look upon the scarred faces of the many American bulldogs n lab mixes (bdog, oft keeps pitts, from bein prematurely, killed; "terrier mix" 'es...)... nope... not the models g's interested in... notha dealership; same as ltr, who is now- 2dog shopping.
and i told his bitter, stubborn, cheap, morbid ass... deal with the pups... THEN, we'll deal with finding the companion... you can rest assured, will b the right woman- to leave ur pups... and home- to.
i know it bothers him, my home is an investment and not roots... i need him to embrace this discomfort... for his own good. we have some shopping to do.

u know, i walked in, of course, without knocking, yesterday and said (yesterday was a rough day for me- someone was burning alive)
-you are a stubborn, bitter, cheap cheap man, larry (i had made an unusual request- that coffee b ready for me)... you know the coffee i like and u can fucking afford it. if i wanted this kwrap, I'd have stayed home... and i think it's bullshit, i have to beg u to get a truck with a wing window because u refuse to learn to drive an automatic and u make me sit in that 30yr old recliner, without leather, heat, or massage...

i know he buys the same coffee i afford for ourselves... i know he treats guests better than himself...
this miser, has budgeted his entire life
and he's so fucking cheap
he continues to save and invest for someone he's yet to meet. dood (head) has dreams he can fucking afford and he sits around, makin tiny tim, shit coffee. hey, i love my Columbia supreme, medium roast
but thanks to that money grubbing whore
i know what better, is
larry can afford the best hearing aids, the 30k, teeth, implants and he dicks around with this bullshit, all day long.

he mentioned the coffee, later... sometimes, #3 talks too fast, or uses 50 cent words, he could care less about... said
-thought u said my coffee was shyt

we have same coffee
same shytty maker...
he should know this

it throws him off balance
-i was messing with you, larry

he'll probably change his trust, to whatever it was, before, over the morning's comments
as well, he should

but long as someone knows...
my heart's in the right place

i would just see me friend enjoy the benefits of his labors... live the dreams he shares with me and yes... a lil personal benefit: a fucking wing window that doesn't ruin cigarettes in the rain, a lil oxygen, to filter and he can remain as warm as he wants... long as the manual shift n bench seat, is big enough,
for 2 pups, to push 150lb individual toes, into
my
schnutz
so i may appreciate the 18 wheeler, belly dumps, 3/4 rock, in my glazed eyeballs, as my knees, crush into the new, registration... for what will likely b unfairly taxed, as a commercial, vehicle.

 

[1diesel1]

 

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i was meant to not leave, yet
for whatever reason
possibly just the
songs
on the radio
but i have had to
sit,
shit,
smoke,
shave,
or
shower,
to get to this point
and it won't b the last time
iii
must
so to speak

 

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u have me stumped
diesel
so many tangents
soooo many memories
evolve from this
in particular
vito and anna
i cannot call
regardless of how precious surely
one
if not both
my mafia neighbors
r dead by now
and i didn't not call
because i didn't care
i
am human
i could
can
not
it keeps playing
more memories
matt
50/50 share alike
tailgunner bill knew the 3 stooges and
dorris day
very well
-the oldest virgin grandmother
in
Hollywood

 

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should've seen sc at his handiest
yesterday
as a blind man
told him which tool to grab
where it should be
and how
not to electrocute himself
AGAIN
a true...
ummm... what's oh..
cliché

 

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aha... ltr...
phone...
bar...
goosfraba

not today!
meant to be...
"for a friend"
but obviously
more for me
pump quad
we goin for a ride
but the bar...
ain't all that high.

 

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imodium

dam that woman! i swear i must have been delirious n the night
she did look a lil off, when she brought me a chili cheese baked potato
at 0300
i don't typically eat more than a salad shooter
imodium!!!

 

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when i was soaking the sheets
last night
a man i think of as a son
also
burned alive

 

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consumed by
self something
eating my chili baked potato
and whey

 

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the barmaids eyes are brown
larry doesn't know what Kosovo is
leaders
should know the color of the eyes
of each and every soul
we r responsible for
killing
or perhaps
the hes haven't spoken
nor listened
long enough