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in under 2yrs, it'll b over, no matter what
it'd take a lil over a year to orchestrate such a celebration... considering my lungs, lifestyle n sword of choice- I'll b drivin home, on 2 beers and a shitload, of orange juice and a trucker, with copd... will cough him, or herself out n kill me... quickly. it's the thought that counts.

after a swift rookie, cut me off, from median/gore point, to 1mph, on a superhighway n made me choose who to cripple and Toyota, accordion ripple...

i rode in blind spots and pools of self pity... awaiting a "good death"... and a truck, came over without a sign; a signal... took my mirror off... kept comin... i assure u, her neither saw, nor felt a thing...
"well, that ain't gonna cut it"... so i swerved, into him... no fear... no brakes... "evidently", no skid marks.

in my defense... it could b said, i saved the sweaty, bearded man, to my left... in attempting to maintain my lane...
but y'all know me better: I'm fucking insane.

-allegedly...
it's just a story

 

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-b careful what u wish for

-a taste for death

cheerz

 

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is there any other insurance
one MUST
socially secure
with such a monopoly
and nca's... as it were... not...
y would one need to
and such superlotto secrecy
and unbalanced judicial powa
who can argue and deny times thri
beating disabilities into submission

or do we not shop our insurances
customer service
not ignorance arrogance and deference
when we crash
when we get ill
when we have to fight for pain pills...
isn't it genius
isn't it skill
we cannot sew our federal government
dying in agony
til buried on a hill
if u have an money left
even still

uphill chases
morgan steam
and Rockefellers
antitrust folly
intelligence
instilled


create change

vote

run for office

it all starts with won

 

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flu
isn't there an election near
the seniors i know
will all disappear

vote from home
absentee ballots

how many 200yr olds u know... who are tech savvy

who is today's youth, interested in

13mil to bustamonte
genius
take my money
to the track
return to tell me
it's the losing horse we backed

crooked
white picket fences
and gubernatorial
silent historical princes

-allegedly
it's just noise

 

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it's not about integrity
it's about perception
if u thought the recession and opioid crises were fabled
just wait til u c
what political hay and this virus
bring to the table

 

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so what happens next
who would u text
fear ignorance
empty grocery shelves hence
diesel knows walls
mosh knows paranoid fence
isolation
quarantine
what are bullets made of
and barbed wire fence
better back my friends
better apply now
when stadioms n disneys go silent
and trickle downhill
it is mosh n d
who'll protect n perfect
strangers n ur hallways
guns n bullets which project
n hurt the loved ones
we all would protect

-and y'all think toilet paper
lives matter

 

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go help someone else
go fix someone's roof
it's raining
did it leak
did it work
show me the proof
i was drinking
where they'd go
if a bucket
were tink tinking
yes I'm a terrible person
tell us something new
we don't already know

I've carried I've helped u
for over 13 years
please stop yelling and screaming
with mouthfulls of ignorance and fear
i have stopped listening
cause #3's here

 

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panic and hysteria
over 3%
if u think ur that lucky
play the lottery
ride the lightning
I'll rely more on smokes n people who toke
supplies running thin
and peeps staying in
just try getting ur opioids
it's poison again

and guess what
my four
altruistic friends
have we not solved the pain peg
and y'all grow- buds
big as my leg

who will they turn to
with their toilet paper rows
hopefully a charitable friend
they already know

but it's just a story
allegedly
as y'all know

 

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if one were addicted
what would scare them more
that an alternative
non addictive medication
wouldn't work
or would

 

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people will always want their booze
wtf
keep that in mind
what have u to lose

 

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people staying in
Google with cell wifi n data
flying predators over
exotic rare flowers
isn't that something
now that's real power
amazon delivering packages
n pizzas
raining from quadcopters
dropping like hail
n didn't i say
they should b delivering our mail
sorce me
just go back n c
shouldn't take y'all too long
only bout 250 vertical pages to read

and our veterans with no coverage
disenfranchised
by the hour

 

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Oppenheimer
celebrated
on skyscraper marquees
toothpaste detergent
bombs n bleach
which one did u use

or biggest defense contractors
investing in seeds
jolly green Googles
and Amazon bean-stock giants
now
which one of these
if one is to invest in something
buy one and sea

 

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now think of their pilots
and Orwellian big brothers
think they aren't watching
always with cameras
I'm notchur monther
if u think ur wrong
think something other

 

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being mr hyde
and mr black
i was gone
and now I'm back

vfw
robbed couple months back
i dunno whether i mentioned
it was summer
it was hot
and delivering a pharmacy
is a thankless job
this man
this driver
has a died red
goatee
so i said to mr red
heloo how r thee
b safe out there
and secretly entered the rear of his truck
delivering cold red Gatorade
on a hundred n twenty degree day
a driver is thinking
o man
what luck
not one penny
not one smile
not even a buck

so today at the v
there was red
right n front of me
and i said
-remember me
red
remember me
one a hot summer day
one twenty degrees

u owe men man
and this v was robbed
plundered n pillaged
by a 3 man
tweaker mob

u owe me man
and i know salesmen can b dicks
but when they're feeling charitable
they are thick as thieves

a donation a sponsored event
whecks being written
monies
being sent

so u don't need one of my 3 jackets
but u know where yours is
and u have a daughter who lives n bhc
& you with

u deliver O'leary's tavern
don't u
do u do
remember a man
named nathan
black hands

a five diamond chef
grilling chopping n frying
for the likes of will smith
only the best
so take your daughter
and this jacket of mine
leave it with nathan
for a five diamond burger
a song and a dime
I'm sure she'll b smiling
n have a great time

ask about his back and his mother

tell him I'll c him

and your bill
is mine

-don't forget the jacket
every carhartt
is aged and blemished
and every blemish hydes a story
the stans n nicks
ne'er diminish

like popeye the sailor
and his cans of spinach
i think i can i think i can
strong dry and warm to the
very last finish

 

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ever been ashamed and yet, not

i disgraced myself and the club

i had to make a choice and it's no excuse

i did sooo much good, yesterday

and i couldn't tell u how many people

how many veterans

i helped
fingers toes n caulk
i wouldn't have enough and holy shit
was it same day it saw my tyredfriends
nm
doesn't matter

umm
i am not myself

.08 is wayyyy to much to b driving
and i hope to never again
prove it

sigh

my rating alcoholic

is setting affairs for her family

and at the same time

standing in a bread line, going to Alabama-ish

feeding adopted granimals

and takin another friend

rockhounding,

150 miles away
and I'm pretty sure i forgot some shyt

this is the volunteer for vets women

who makes my life, difficult

and no, i have zero desire to c this friend

naked

she will neither ask for, nor accept help

man

i have stood in a breadline

do

u

have

any

idea

how humiliating

that is

and she is my friend

i can even write this without tear ink

she has since day one

been good to me

she got g out of bed

b letting us pet

her granimals

wtf do u want me to say

i dunno what to say

ltr doesn't need me working

i don't have

I'm not obligated that i recall

til tomorrow

i had to choose

i was found out about

-will u change this to ones n put this n whatever day, yesterday was', tip jar

14hrs, she worked...
VOLUNTARILY

i can't remember how many drinks i bought
how many times i hit the only slot that pays
i think i spent my entire beer budget, last night
and believe me... I'm still drunk, but i didn't drink but maybe 20%, the drinks i bought... MAYBE.
sigh... i had to get her the money before Sunday. mighta coulda been... mmm... not 40, but many drinks.
good for my peeps
got for my raging alcoholic
bad... for my liver n ghetto sled, had it not gone well.
I'm not certain whether i don't remember because i was not myself, or in a blackout
doesn't matter, it was offroad
coulda killed a bunny, or squirrel
no... i did not.
omg... never, again
bitch challenged me
made me get creative

n then, it was shyt n my car, n drive blind into sunlight
or go go go go

omg the history i saw

the jpl mit genius who finally spoke to me

red
nathan
alcoholic
i love lucy

i mean

ltr

the other club

seriously

i worked my ass off

and if u think getting that drunk when one doesn't wanna b anything is easy

fuck

you

but

imma professional

gimme the impossible

plus... had i not left at dawn-ish...
g wouldn't b able to c the parade

she isn't a party to the questionable choices and sometimes... i get to c personal fucking museums

yesterday, was no exception

 

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ok well... maybe 50ish drinks-ish

 

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nm. depends what they ordered
coulda been double that
nm
i don't think u could estimate
with integrity
it was much

 

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ok ok ok
but remember those steel pedal cars

right AND I FUCKING LEFT MY PHONE/CAM IN THE SLED BECAUSE I WAS FREAKIN OUT!!! sigh... and he was gonna let me take a pic AND SHARE IT. i forget that he's rich n realized i might have inadvertently offended him when i asked if it was a celestron
if ANYBODY had, or could swing... a shiny, nan-patina'd, brass one... or an old school, telescope, like jack sparrow's compass would point to... it is this person.
panoramic windows, anyone
and hunter Douglas, wish list, coverings...
yes... it is this person

and

so cool

they said i could put my flipflops on n the house... r u serious... I've been to Hurst castle
and i ainnever seen a nicer place
omg
i have nothing to say, further
i feel i would implicate the this person

 

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and the stuff that went on
the pricem.mess that was offered

these this person is one of a kind

anything else i might imagine n this place
would implicate
and incriminate

o o o and then the guy who letz me ummm... ummm... whatsoever, non adult, with his amazing, gorgeous, one of a kind lady
lemme just say...
sigh... he even looks n the opposite direction of this wholly, individual, gorgeous, singular, lady... you'd break down crying, from the romance of the glance.
18 yrs, married
and he looks at her, like ur buddy n a bar, calling dibbs.. wondering how any item, sparkly, or no... would look on your bedroom floor.

and he said
-i have never come, or gone, without kissing his belle. omg... and these people trust a felon, thief, liar, whore... he lets me fill her dance card n help her learn pool, til my eyes n back r sore and her dance card, being the only keeper of score. perhaps even
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