You ain't kidding. Seeds use to be a dime a dozen. Granted they weren't all that but we grew some good smoke back in the day. I found two seeds in a quarter of King Louie last week but one got cooked at 220 for over an hour and I don't expect it to pop and the other doesn't look like it's viable either.
I should have some seeds in a few months (
Chemdog x Brutis OG F2 Indica leaning) and I've been thinking and recently discussing doing a few trades. We'll see what my girl produces and go from there.
Hang in there, shit happens, just don't let it get you down. I try not to get too attached but once I start talking to them it's pretty much over me.