THE BREAK ROOM lose ur mynd ¿

[SPARECHANGE]

don't worry

I'm just kidding

I'm just a liar

and a storyteller

it's just a story

about pot

afterall

I'm not really krrrazzzee

it's just eww

not we

ur just delusional

 

[SPARECHANGE]

I'm going to read what he wrote now

I'm missing hourz

i wanna know what they said about me

behind my back

 

[SPARECHANGE]

nm

i don't want to know

please

we r not going to talk about this

i eye fall

if we fall

how many fall

with we

what if

weee fail

who will care

for my lovely ginger

 

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can u feel my heartbeat

i just showed it to you

can u feel the flaming heat

my burning Phoenix teardropz

my heart goez out to u

can u smell the iron in the air

my 98.6°s of tumultuous turmoil

share in our successes

credit the sufferings

of our loved wunz

with the inspiration to strive for excellence

in simple successionz

for our lover

 

[SPARECHANGE]

we don't need to sign the pagez

to know who wrote the story

we all tell it

the same breath

from our own perspective

 

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remember

cupping that fist

and u told me what it smelled like

it tastes different

to sum

that makes we liarz

to us

that is how that moment in time

sounded

a new dimension

through the same doorway

we all walk through

in unison

we're just blinded

by the brilliance of the illumination

of the entire affair

but now the second hand speaks to we once more

I'm glad we had

s
i
h
toc

 

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thank u for flying

aeromexico

we hope u enjoyed your flight

 

[SPARECHANGE]

told em

don't ever serve me

tequila

 

[Variety719]

Your absolutely right, wolves work too hard and that is why I have a watering system so I’m not watering plants all day like a pee on!
Donkey butter my bro just hit 1/2 ounce short of six pounds on a 4x8 tray with 2260watts of light over it. Sold for eiteen hundred a elbo. Easiest $ I ever made. There wasn’t even a single bud smaller then a quarter. Easiest plant to trim by a long shot and it out pretty’s anystrain on the market that is worth a shit.

wolves r always out hunting n shyt

i don't do hard work

i don't have the attention span

anymore

now

back to ur point

that's how it starts...
i
c

¿

actually

it ain't about the fanz

and if u can believe

a handful of people

make 10k viewz a month

i feel like a bystander to

ummm

ummm

lemme try n focus

umm

acute narcissism

that ain't my thing

one of the upstairs neighbors

clearly diggz it

u know

cattapilla read

everything i ever wrote

of 400ish pages

I'm tracking my crazy

breadcrumbs for those who follow

my "research"

and y'all

in my mind

become a chapter of my life

and

between pm's and threadz

the horrors man

because

you

mosh

diesel

dod

wolverine

med

y'all tell it right

and when u do

the sun setz

in the lands of all things that kill

over 70°

waxing gibbous

and as i am crepuscular

i am right there with u

traveling vicariously through u

through time

across vast oceans of dark

blue and bright green

bodies of water and horror

but I'm just hear

to carry the luggage

y'all share your lives with each other

and it BECAME

it became a collaborative work

book

of inspiration

horrors

lost loves never had

joys

I'm different

both sides of infinite conventions and

tug of wars

over control for mental supremacy in a category 5 hurricane

fleeting moments of grasping and clawing for the resounding clarity of an infinite breath of silent focus

in a mental prison

sitting

kneeling

at my chamber door

with busted plumbing

to me

poe was stuck in his shitter

and his heart

was wrapping wrap rapping

at his chamberpot fucking door

ours disappear

into thin air

but it's just me

so y can't i remember

and to reed

what happened during those countless spanz

is as listening to a stranger

can u control what strangerz think and do

ever apologize for a stranger

ever attempt to excuse yourself

for something a stranger sayz

can u as a dropout lowly trucker

take credit for someone else's worx

when u cup your handz

exhaling into them

what if it wuz someone else's breath u detected

it is not appreciated

as i used to not shower

but once a week

due to my pain

not brush my teeth

for yearz

because it meant

looking in the mirror

at 337+ pounds of disgust

when people live on a single doubletwinrkingsizedprison

they gain half pound a week

the epitome of me

whas thiz

the medical community for profit

absconded with my only opportunity to b a daddy to a son

u teach ur kid sportz

i didn't

u surf with ur child

u hand down culture and history

i didn't

my son grew up whale watching

an alternate weekend with daddy

meant 65hrs

nodding off to call of duty

and a repitoir of hacking and 5+ terabytes of ill gotten movies

shyt happens

i believe a decade of legitimate opioids did this to me

i would not have this for my worst enemy

if i thought poorly of them

because

who would choose

to breathe the definition of the depths empathy

to even the most beautiful of angels

leviathan

Lucifer

risk a whisper to the devil

and allow me to assure u

it is hell

and there is no doorway out

no exit

no escape

no departure

you have already arrived

your ticket's been punched

and all

fucking flights home

have been fucking canceled

do to inclement weather

indefinitely

a glimpse

a balance

the humanity of heaven and hell
o
c

and that's just ur upstairs neighbors

u here

arguing for who ridez back of the bus

who ridez shotgun

who haz the wheel

and that's if u ever found those ever elusive keez

to begin with

and I've only begun to describe

my last n next thought

n ur next nanosecond

watching the tic toc clock

sharing a moment of our lives together

from 360° 360 different directions n tangents n a moment

from all sides

a lie

together

a singularity

the truth of our moment traveling through time and space

the shockwaves of unity in compassionate blizz

 

[SPARECHANGE]

the situation

i fucking hate

growing pot

it ruined my lovely g's Christmas

I'm running out of places to putpot

I'm running out of places to hyde

i forget how many cultivars

 

[SPARECHANGE]

Your absolutely right, wolves work too hard and that is why I have a watering system so I’m not watering plants all day like a pee on!
Donkey butter my bro just hit 1/2 ounce short of six pounds on a 4x8 tray with 2260watts of light over it. Sold for eiteen hundred a elbo. Easiest $ I ever made. There wasn’t even a single bud smaller then a quarter. Easiest plant to trim by a long shot and it out pretty’s anystrain on the market that is worth a shit.

my running cost

i believe

bout 1500per

as u say

the best high I've ever known

an oopz fukkin

but

still

by my own hand

i can't believe ur time is worth

$300

and i would c my shyt burned to

scattering ashez in the wind

before u tell me my life is worth $300

how many months

how many years

how much research have u had to do

for our pretty little gardenz

fuck

them

all

up the butt

i will give away my accumulated wealth

because i have a home

and those who died so i could get high

what's a penny's worth

do u require a home for your ashes

if u took a penny

u put a price on a life

i would prefer you

still breathing

at ease

sir

vs the shiny little penny

i was too proud

and passed on by

lying in the ashez of suffering

blowing over this fucked up sense of value

we ignore

Lincoln smiling up from the depths of

beneath us

lest we try our best not to incriminate ourselves publicly

on the farm

mind ur step

there's a memorial

hyding on the other side

of that shiny

penny

lying worthless in the ashez

on the ground

gravity worx

and when we elevate ourselves

in status

as we shovel n bury

we climb a ladder of the ignorance of the suffering of others

still accumulating as $300

ashez

from dead buddeez

laying in repose

memorialized forever

in the soot

footprints

laddering up

from such destruction

below beneath

under

less than

compassionate care

cannot b the cost of opioids

a toxic lie

burying the skeletons of strangerz loved wonz

as we ascend

in ignorant bliss

their ashes staring up at we

stacked horizontally

amidst the ashes

on the ground

i refuse to profit

from the suffering of our people

money corrupts good intention

i want no part of it

I'm just trying to get my lovely g

to say yes

to anydate

with me

and divorce her king sized prison

forever

meanwhile

until i do

i will do my due

to thank u

veterans

in my own way

because

as I've found a way to make a pound last the rest of our livez

i have a lil extra...



and

I'm only just beginning

i accomplished this

roughly 3 mo

in

it's taken a year

for one person to heer me

imagine what i could do

with another minute

 

[SPARECHANGE]

i stopped counting my expenditures

long ago

1500

per pound

give r take

wouldn't even replace a penny

of the cost of my gear

 

[SPARECHANGE]

my people

I'm sure

over 100 now

couldn't afford me

on their best day

so i could sell nothing

i could take less than my worth

or

i could b of service to our people

n fucking just give it away

some our forgotten heroes

feel better

many of their best friends

whose namez nobody else remembers

meant everything to them

what do we think

they might charge for their brothers

could we afford the price they paid

how could i take

what's already been paid for

 

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the man whose krapper chair

stomach cancer

externally visual tumor

eye had to pick up

she told me

she needed a shower remodel for her own

needs

she got an estimate out of kingman

from h&h

word got back to the club

a man who I've never seen

play pool

but i spend any chance

playing his lovely Annabelle

hiz n her riffles

on either side of the bed

with $20,000 opticz

flat tire

meant her needed new set

so he had em come with

the surrounding new truck

is purchasing the shower remodel

for this veteran family of strangers

in a one square mile town

they do not live in

whatever the donation shortage

-sc
Larry the roofer
i didn't donate
because your phonez gonna ring
she also requires a roof repair
and u know where i live

these r my heroes

who let me hang with em

whenever i wish

 

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played a game of pool with me

yesterday

leaving me with 6 ballz on the table

not even a handful of people

in the vfw

have seen him play

much less had the privilege

of being invited to

the table

with him

he only lost

one game

to a man who has beaten me

as many times as i have bested him

i find

u can learn alot about a person

when u play with them

at a table

for both

six

and sixteen

 

[SPARECHANGE]

and

as i play my little games

i prefer to wait

watch

sea

listen

and learn

what one will do

in a fluidly kinetic

situation

 

[SPARECHANGE]

a letter to ms sweet sue

can u guyz maybe c if u can help me get a job

like an email to these people :

firing on all cylinders at all times

i didn't take anything today


i told them


never


never


give me tequila


my mind has been on overdrive


all day


i wrote to [email protected]


could u put in a good word for crazy


i need a job


I'm contemplating quitting smoking


or taking Larry the roofer's kindness for granted that more work will come


construction sux


i don't have the spine for it


so to speak


fuk


maybe they can put a white coat on me


that don't have long sleeves n beltz


can u imagine


if i got my handz


on legit lab shyt


cold baths


rotary recovery distillation

magnetic heated stir platez


unlimited access to tech


fuck my ass


come on ms sue


could u do me this favor


shyt


i forget to leave my contact info


fuck if the phone were to ring


my god


applications


tax formz


omfg


u try the main event yet


my poolman's mental


the guy getz prepaid


sayz he'll do something n when


n 3 weekendz later


he's pist at me


for calling him on his shyt


not so much as an attempt at an apology


sigh


he quit


he's mad at my crazy


sayz I've changed


i have


i held him accountable for the first time n four years


being sympathetic to hiz problems


he feelz an excuse


sayz how bizy hiz lil life iz n he'll b hear tomorrow


god forbid hiz car breakz down


it's windy n kingman not here


he getz a flat hiz momz kickz it someone haz a birthday or he tiez one on


tomorrow


may never come


and I'm the asshole


thiz raging centz of entitlement


mystifies me


he finally quit


-sc

thank u for doing

what i didn't have the heart

to do



rather than simply show up and do hiz job


my crazy wouldn't unleash on a conversation which should never have had to been had


i found this fascinating


I'd rather have customers who allow me to fuck them


without a word


i carried him four yrs


helped his family


had he n hiz brother overnight gaming n my home


treated hiz momz for pain


and thiz is how takerz say goodbye


they don't like being told no


u cannot take from me


anymore


u have to earn it

 

[Variety719]

You pay 1500 to grow a pound indoors? I proballynpay that much for 3 pounds haha

my running cost

i believe

bout 1500per

as u say

the best high I've ever known

an oopz fukkin

but

still

by my own hand

i can't believe ur time is worth

$300

and i would c my shyt burned to

scattering ashez in the wind

before u tell me my life is worth $300

how many months

how many years

how much research have u had to do

for our pretty little gardenz

fuck

them

all

up the butt

i will give away my accumulated wealth

because i have a home

and those who died so i could get high

what's a penny's worth

do u require a home for your ashes

if u took a penny

u put a price on a life

i would prefer you

still breathing

at ease

sir

vs the shiny little penny

i was too proud

and passed on by

lying in the ashez of suffering

blowing over this fucked up sense of value

we ignore

Lincoln smiling up from the depths of

beneath us

lest we try our best not to incriminate ourselves publicly

on the farm

mind ur step

there's a memorial

hyding on the other side

of that shiny

penny

lying worthless in the ashez

on the ground

gravity worx

and when we elevate ourselves

in status

as we shovel n bury

we climb a ladder of the ignorance of the suffering of others

still accumulating as $300

ashez

from dead buddeez

laying in repose

memorialized forever

in the soot

footprints

laddering up

from such destruction

below beneath

under

less than

compassionate care

cannot b the cost of opioids

a toxic lie

burying the skeletons of strangerz loved wonz

as we ascend

in ignorant bliss

their ashes staring up at we

stacked horizontally

amidst the ashes

on the ground

i refuse to profit

from the suffering of our people

money corrupts good intention

i want no part of it

I'm just trying to get my lovely g

to say yes

to anydate

with me

and divorce her king sized prison

forever

meanwhile

until i do

i will do my due

to thank u

veterans

in my own way

because

as I've found a way to make a pound last the rest of our livez

i have a lil extra...



and

I'm only just beginning

i accomplished this

roughly 3 mo

in

it's taken a year

for one person to heer me

imagine what i could do

with another minute

 

[Variety719]

And what’s with the cheezit she’s lights stuff

 

[Variety719]

The seed whatever they are called