MIMedGrower
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Aint it funny tho even tho it hurt so i could not stop!!!
I quit drinking countless times still amazed jug is plugged, but I must never think I got it licked....
just like they say day one day at a time, yesterdays gone live today tomorrow will come just do not ever take the sip.....what a fool I would be...
No moderation ever for me have to make it a mindset....Convince myself..
This may not be a popular opinion and I am in no way suggesting anyone mess with their own ceased addictions.
But I fully believe it is still a choice. I feel I deserve my stance and am hesitant to share this but it is long enough ago now.
I started on p2p biker meth (86-92% crystal) in high school and by the time I was managing car dealers in my late 20's I had smoked enough Coke to have no savings from my 6 figure income.
I crashed real bad friends but that was 19 years ago when I went to live with my much healthier friend who had bought a home in Colorado.
The environment and activity like snowboarding and hiking to every peak we could get to helped me keep my mind off the high and my pretty serious trouble. I owed the mob about 100k when I split.
And really good weed helped my perspective and my failing colon (congenital defect) we got from the locals in the mountains. I always smoked pot.
And I slipped pretty bad in crack filled Denver.
But I chose to stop and the only other time I smoked chemicals was years later and I didn't like it any more.
It's my choice.