Ya know, reading some of the last few post its crazy to see how many people are in the same boat if not similar boat as you! I was a heroin junkie for more of my life then not. For the longest time I thought I would die that way. A cpl years ago I hit as far bottom as I could before death and somehow got thru it. For the next 6 months to a year even thou I was clean I felt completely empty! It wasn't until I smoked with my brother which I hadn't done in forever, that I remembered not only how much I love to blaze but how interested I was in growing. There have been a number of things that have helped me stay clean but I have to say that leading the charge is cannabis and growing! I have come to know myself well and know what situations I can and can't be in without terrible outcomes and I can honestly say that I don't even think of dope anymore! I don't take anymore prescriptions bc of my ADHD, depression, anxiety, and "rage"(so the doctor says)...I found that cannabis has been my miracle!! Anyway just wanted to vent a lil and let anybody else out there know there is always another way and there is always light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how dark...Have a great rest of the week guys!!!