After literally 100 job applications I've still come up empty handed. It's a bad feeling having a college degree and being turned down for dozens of entry level jobs only asking for a high school diploma or "equivalent". I've got 5+ years of management experience and I can't even get a job as an assistant manager of a McDonald's.
My wife's mom is a professor in China and she's talked to the dean and basically got me a full ride scholarship into a masters program out there. I don't want to go back to China yet because I know this time I'll end up being there for 10-15 years before returning, but I have to find a way to support this kid. It's sad that I can't even find a bare minimum job in my own country but another country is willing to offer me everything I need for my wife and child.
Every single day my stress gets worse, and I've started drinking at night just to get some sleep. I don't want to go back to China, but I think I'm at the end of my rope guys. I've really appreciated the support, and kind words, but I may be out of options now. My wife has a sonogram today (our first picture of our baby), and ultimately I have to do whatever it takes to take care of this child. I don't have the money to afford the medical costs of our baby without insurance.
I'm holding out hope that something will come up before I leave in 3 weeks, but reality has a way of jumping in and biting me on the ass.
Kas