This self reflection is good, but be aware you are not that person anymore, and will continue to remake yourself through this recovery and for the rest of your life. Remember there are non judgemental compassionate care givers out there if you need they're help its ok. Hardest thing is trusting them again, but you can.
I am glad you are feeling better. Keep up the good work
i dunno man im still me.. so i do not see anything changing. laughs.. thanks tho.
im just angry i guess because im out of meds yet again.. 2 bowls left.. that is the hardest thing to get over i think.. always had meds with pills herb not so much. it sucks. also the money i did ot have to spend on weed went for living.. hah, im living poor as fuck now and i thought i was poor before, hah :D
i guess that is just a excuse but still its a one that bugs me to no end.
i know what is gonna happen, ill start feeling better and still be a loner. so yeah i do not see my self changing.
im just mad at my self for letting it happen.. not mad at who i am per say, im a happy fuck for the most part. hah
chris.