I hear ya brotha. I only have a small hobby operation and i can get in over my head sometimes with having a full time job, wife, kids etc. The good thing for you is you make hash anyway so seeds arent an issue but now you have to find em. If you pollinated specific branches you would know where to find em. From what i hear, a little pollen goes a long way so you may be surprised at what you get. Goji x ssdd sounds cool too. I have a pack of each waiting to go. As soon as i have a space for males I'll start popping my regular beans. I want to f2 all my bodhi packs and anything else thats fire. Buying beans is getting way to expensive so i need to make my own. Kinda like weed hahaha. I think my mind is goin too, made my oil at half strength for some reason this time. Easy fix, just eat double but ive never done that before. The first dose i took was lackluster and i was afraid i fecked it up. Then i remembered what i did and its been a fun week since . As you can tell by my scatterbrained chattyness its working just fine now. Since im rambling i think anyone trying to kick pills (or whatever) needs to consider making cannacoconut oil. Its more narcotic than smoking the way it comes on to me. Hope your back feels better asap brotha, i know that struggle.