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seriously
this song
hey
i like it
i didn't pick it
even songs
age

not meant to chill
i got the msg
wrong button
tunes stopped

and
we
got to experience
rainbow falls?
and devil's post pile
trust me, i always say the same,
when i hear someone say it

there r many
devil's

it's snowing
I'm on horseback
thank god
the horse knows the way
to carry my A,
or I'd have been lost
frozen in the snow

every
12yr olds' dream
i knew less than nothing
as to horses

sooo beautiful
and i could hear the
waters
running
beneath the ice and snow
trickle trickle drip drop drip drop
as icicles formed all around
the horses, frosting up snow,
like an ice skater
on the brakes
with each step
i still don't understand
how horses maintain such sure footing
for their passengers and masters
clop clopping slush smushing
through frozen water

and candy
as i soon discovered
was a rough ride
pyute- don't make me look it up
indian tribe
and name
of a soft n smooth
riding pinto
grey brown white
short
absolutely beautiful
and baptized
in snow

3 days
60 miles
hundreds
upon hundreds
of unsaddled
unburdened
unimpeded
horses

unless you have experienced it
i could not put such regal
majesty and flashes of mane and tails
against the snow
the pines
the mountains sun moon and stars
nothing i could say to you
would do them justice

it was so bone chilling cold
i also learned
if one does not sleep fully booted
ones jeans
and bush to boots
awakens
fully frozen
bush to boots
fully
frozen
even sleeping with em in the bag
that cold
no help
and the skies couldn't possibly have been clearer

the chuck wagon
yes... they use em...
was friendly enough
to teach my family
just how warm
a horse blanket,
can be...

every meal...
much as u wanted
and crispy thick
pungent bacon...
they didn't need a bell
to call us to chow...
all I'm sayin...
as many sodas... whatever...
a hungry,
hollow leg's dream

when a horse
separates from the herd
because the horse knows the way
and the horses
know
water...
do not follow a breakaway horse
oops
my bad
where we go one... we go all...
it was not the end
of the day's 20miles

and let me be clear
if one does not know how to ride...
one will learn
very
quickly
over those kinda days
and distances

john Wayne's walk...
that shyt is real...
oh yeah...
here's a vocabulary word
chaffing


i went to pet pyute one evening
another
icy
evening
might have been
yeah
it was the last night, on trail.
did you know mammoth is a volcano
know there's sulfer around em
you can smell it on the air... when the water is stagnant enough and tainted
with horse piss... naturally
i slipped and fell... that stuff really itches, you know
all
night
long
good times
the best of times
and a river of horse piss
ran through my jeans

it's the obstacles that make a story
memorable
funny

if you ever get the opportunity
i highly recommend it

the tummy bump who rode shotgon
in the moms on the soda wagon/buckboard-ish
decades later
shaved sheep in one of those towns
and got to make a living
working
in front of that exact same
wood burning stove
the very
same
pack station
as a guide
no shit

we lived hundreds of miles from it, as he grew up.
no
shit

can't all be coincidence

best chistmas ever
4 at an uncomfortable table
playing boardgames

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i suppose i was 11. kiddo wasn't born, yet.

and there is a group of raging alcoholics
bringing up the rear in darkness and
scarves
armed bandits... with a dirtline... a flawless dirtline, around anything those scarves don't cover
know what i remember
the empty
oldschool
moonshine jug
wasn't covered
by a scarf
what lively times
THEY must have had

-strawberry patch kids

 

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a murderer once told me
i believe this was prior
no... i must have...
i was wearing the mans ring

he told me
i would always be the breadwinner
i didn't make more than his daughter
when we met
in point of fact
it's difficult to ask a man
for his daughter's hand
when you know he knows
exactly where one had been
recently released from

pfft... the man knew people
it took 5-6 part time jobs, all at once
to make good on my commitment to
a person who sprung me from the pokie
armed with some random business card

i could not get enough hours
the economy was for shyt
nobody
was hiring felons
or dropouts

top 1 percentile
i believe
in convict ged testing
got mine
while incarcerated
not once
did it pave, nor impede
employment
today
I'm sure it would be problematic

however, as a school which created an
award for a kid who hyd, learning dos, creating a school newspaper... did minimal homework n aced his way through tests... is now a strip mall... i don't see it as a problem. i would very much like to have the plaque of the names of those who followed after. bet it's a bunch of humans, felons n drug addicts.

how in gods' name/s, would that man have known that?
give me the impossible
i will find a way
i believe
that
is what he saw

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i did not have a car at the time
for those
familiar with socal
the jobs... oft n same day...
ranged from fascist island
to irvine
costa mesa
and knotts
yeah... before the 91,
but beyond knotts

bike, or bus
and bicycles
were frowned upon
by
octd
at the time
i know...
clearly, it was before they changed it...
A- mate

 

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yep...
a kid
whose life
i may
or may not
have allegedly saved
over a pot pipe
had me walking
out of max security
with a beat up
washed and dried
bullshit business card
3 months later
because i did not believe
i had paid enough
yet

to make a singular
collect call
to a man named fran
holding a shabby
bullshit
business card

computers were subpar
and internet
did not exist

it was supposed to be
a sober living home

right

it is up to the individual
not
my name is bill
when and where
to
STOP
abusing
drugs
and alcohol

i had had enough of
couch trips
and
are you my daddy
strippers

thank gods

i used to go upstairs in dc's bar
in Newport
by the split
Albertsons and Carl's jr

to get my court card
signed
walk right back out
go about my business
and return in an hour
for a signed
card

i
was
not
getting high

alcohol
has never
been a problem
for me

50%

i
am
exhausted

this
kind of focus
is extremely
difficult
for me

goodnight

i will see you four
again

and i could swear
my battery
never
ever
lasts this long
when i am...
focused.

 

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and dc's had one of those pull cigarette machines
as soon as you walked in
just like one would find in most any Denny's
during that era
which was cool
because i was 19
giver r take
at the time
but prior to
being old enough to buy em
we use to get em from
ummm... mostly the
donut shop on
magnolia and Garfield

today is a new day
and
i have tores to manage i overslept

 

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today is Wednesday

 

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i missed a msg
worked out
some other dood (head)
is doin her brakes
yes, i know... I'm biting my lip
yes, children
her wheels will b off
car will b lifted hmmm
but she sleeps til like noon
vampire
raging alcoholic
barmaid

I'll do me
and then
we shall sea

 

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in point of fact
he needs your car n the air
to do em
catch me in time
I'll snatch em up
one fell swoop
one day
only

 

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wrong send
i know y'all didn't think
this
was the only place i get weird
think the momz is about finished
comin to me
for intel

short n sweet what happened

better ask g

 

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if you wish to fill
a bathtub
make sure the stopper
is
STOP
oops
kinda makes one
underwater
wonder

 

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funny shit
if it's freezing outside your home
and one shuts off the hot side, first
you won't need to open a door
to know
it is
that cold out

lucky thing
peg's wooden leg
requires excessive hot water
for peg to warm up

imagine if one had shut off the cold
first
instead
lucky lucky
me

and it woke me up
literally

id been considering what i would say
if furry tyred chris
happens to b at the office

i have no use for pen and paper
today
i have borrowed some heart
what was in my mind
before my testicles had glistening
surely pine smelling
icicles

i wonder if chris is a spiritual man
and then i nearly froze to death
within

woke me up
if he is there
i
will
tell chris a story

this story had better have bite
cause i owe u for the cold shoulder
yeah... you're a funny guy.

 

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i must bring this man a gift

 

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if u dunno which languages your gods use
how would u know
when they were speaking to u
answering ur prayers
even

 

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it's a ysl day
he sees beyond that
but just because I'm dressed for the area
it tells him
charge me appropriately

 

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my bad
Armani

 

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already know what to say to
the man

i am not
the droid
ur lookin fur

 

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thing two
passed away
one year ago
today
i will see
thing one
and thing two
again

i was so
intrigued by what
will happen next
i had to return for
the tyres
what a gorgeous
neg zero
morning
and thea sits quietly
in my neighbors pen

 

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it's sat radio
i was too freaked to dick with them
yesterday
i saw a neighbor
walking
who knows what
she believes
or does
not

i had a short
very deep
very spiritual
conversation with this woman

are you ready going to tell me...
oh come on!
jonah
came
first

and i said to her
we don't always know what to pray for
we just
keep
praying